This post is just for the Insanely Saners.. I guess only they will know what I'm talking about anyway. I don't have time to write anything right now, so... I'll do that soon, though, I promise!!
IS-ers... The Official Noticeboard's back up! I've already posted something, which I REALLY need your feedback on. I know Ee May has news, and Jen, too. And Jules.. you SO need to update us properly on your life!
Anyway, it'd be cool if you guys could go post stuff too! If you need the username and password, just let me know and I'll email 'em to you! :)
This way, we don't have to wait til we see each other online, coz at the rate our lives are going at the moment, those opportunities are gonna be few and far between!
I love you guys! And I miss you all so so so so much!
(Speaking of which.. Jen. We GOTTA plan a breakie date soon! I mean, hello! We're the only 2 still around, and we haven't seen each other in what, 2 months? Unbelievable! So.. yeah. Let me know when you're free, girl!!!! *hugs*)
Monday, October 09, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
The KLCC CWs!
Sharm, Steph and I went to KLCC on Tuesday to.. unwind. Okay, so I'm lying. We actually went there to - get this - eat! Haha! What, though, we didn't know. We ended up eating at the Manhattan Fish Market, and before you all go, "WHAT? ELAINE EATING FISH?!!!", I have to say I was pleasantly surprised, and the fish there actually tasted pretty damn good!
Anyway, after a stint at Starbucks (which we frequent like as if we're the daughters of Ringgit manufacturers), we went to our usual hang out, KLCC Park, to um.. there really is no better way to put this.. cam-whore. Haha!
Here are some of the pics taken.. and a couple taken at home! :)
My "twin" and I.. Um. That's the opinion of others, NOT our own! Does anyone see the resemblance? (Other than in choice of clothes colours la!!)
What ya starin' at? Eh? Don't you be messin' with us, or we'll.. we'll.. take a picture with you!
Chillin' on the grass (to borrow a Stephy phrase *winks*).. This was after we were turned into the equivalent of a flower garden by a couple of Bangladeshi tourists! Haha.. Oh God's punishing us for our cam-whoric ways!!
Lyin' on the grass at KLCC Park.. The things that we do for pictures! *shakes head sadly*
The three 87'ers! I love my two big "sisters" so so so much!!! We do have the strangest, funnest times, don't we girls? :)
Back home, in front of Aunty Ivy's flower cart thing! There are ORCHIDS in it! ORCHIDS, I TELL YOU! :D
Anyway, after a stint at Starbucks (which we frequent like as if we're the daughters of Ringgit manufacturers), we went to our usual hang out, KLCC Park, to um.. there really is no better way to put this.. cam-whore. Haha!
Here are some of the pics taken.. and a couple taken at home! :)
My "twin" and I.. Um. That's the opinion of others, NOT our own! Does anyone see the resemblance? (Other than in choice of clothes colours la!!)
What ya starin' at? Eh? Don't you be messin' with us, or we'll.. we'll.. take a picture with you!
Chillin' on the grass (to borrow a Stephy phrase *winks*).. This was after we were turned into the equivalent of a flower garden by a couple of Bangladeshi tourists! Haha.. Oh God's punishing us for our cam-whoric ways!!
Lyin' on the grass at KLCC Park.. The things that we do for pictures! *shakes head sadly*
The three 87'ers! I love my two big "sisters" so so so much!!! We do have the strangest, funnest times, don't we girls? :)
Back home, in front of Aunty Ivy's flower cart thing! There are ORCHIDS in it! ORCHIDS, I TELL YOU! :D
Just A Thought..
Why do people fight? Why do we tear each other down, just so we can have the upper hand? Is it really so hard to have a discussion, rather than an argument?
Oh sure, it's perversely satisfying to unload all our frustrations onto someone else, make them a human dartboard. But who do we hurt in the long run? Does lashing out at others because we don't have our own lives in order make us feel any better?
How could it, though? To live with the knowledge that we knowingly hurt someone else just to make ourselves feel "superior" or whatever... I don't see how anyone could! And it's a vicious cycle, really. If we're in the habit of lashing out.. then the worse we feel, the more we take it out on the people around us!
Sometimes it's important to acknowledge that we're human, that we make mistakes. And that our judgment isn't 100 % perfect. We need other people, those who are better at certain things than we are... and we should be humble enough to at least take into consideration the advice they offer.
Life isn't always as Ol' Blue Eyes says. Sometimes doing it our way isn't the right way. Whatever decisions we make should be based on what's BEST, not just what "I want" to do. If we live life solely for "I", then what about everyone else?
We're not alone in this world. And I suppose it'd be the best thing if everyone learned to remember that.
Oh sure, it's perversely satisfying to unload all our frustrations onto someone else, make them a human dartboard. But who do we hurt in the long run? Does lashing out at others because we don't have our own lives in order make us feel any better?
How could it, though? To live with the knowledge that we knowingly hurt someone else just to make ourselves feel "superior" or whatever... I don't see how anyone could! And it's a vicious cycle, really. If we're in the habit of lashing out.. then the worse we feel, the more we take it out on the people around us!
Sometimes it's important to acknowledge that we're human, that we make mistakes. And that our judgment isn't 100 % perfect. We need other people, those who are better at certain things than we are... and we should be humble enough to at least take into consideration the advice they offer.
Life isn't always as Ol' Blue Eyes says. Sometimes doing it our way isn't the right way. Whatever decisions we make should be based on what's BEST, not just what "I want" to do. If we live life solely for "I", then what about everyone else?
We're not alone in this world. And I suppose it'd be the best thing if everyone learned to remember that.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
*sniffles*
OMG, guys, have you heard this song by Craig David? I bet the IS-ers have! Anyway, to the point, I'm usually not such a big CD fan.. but this song just SOOOO does me in! I mean, I go all icky and squishy (lol!) inside whenever I hear it! *sighs dreamily*
Haha.. Those who know me will probably know why, though. PLUS ol' Craig really DOES have a dreamy voice.. Even if I'm one of the few girls around who doesn't think he's the hottest thing since roasted marshmallows. Hehe..
Anyway, if you haven't heard it already, PLEASE go hear it! Although I warn you.. it's a ballad. In case you didn't deduce that already :)
Enjoy, people!!!
Unbelievable ~ Craig David
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
When I think of what I have,
and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
Now I see, what love means
Haha.. Those who know me will probably know why, though. PLUS ol' Craig really DOES have a dreamy voice.. Even if I'm one of the few girls around who doesn't think he's the hottest thing since roasted marshmallows. Hehe..
Anyway, if you haven't heard it already, PLEASE go hear it! Although I warn you.. it's a ballad. In case you didn't deduce that already :)
Enjoy, people!!!
Unbelievable ~ Craig David
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
When I think of what I have,
and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
Now I see, what love means
Um. I Cannot Think Of A Title. Hehe.
David's leaving to go for his driving trial. His test's next week. Wooohoo! I can't wait for him to get his license.. so that I won't have to drive him around anymore. He can drive me! *dances 'round room gleefully*
There are days when I wish time would pass more slowly, that I will actually have the time to savour these last few days of my er, childhood, so to speak. I don't know why, but I've always associated "20" with enormous responsibility... an age where excuses dry up, and you really have to take credit or blame for any action. That scares me. But I suppose it's inevitable. The smart thing to do right now would be to face up to it, instead of running and hiding under the bed.
Other days, however, I want time to speed up! I want this year to be over, so I can work and save. If only I could earn enough in 3 months to go where I want to go, I'd work day and night to accomplish it! But unfortunately for me.. I don't only have finances to take into consideration. And believe me, it's easier to get a Visa to Israel than to get permission from my dad to let me go where I want to. Sigh. But I'm gonna try anyway!
Resolve is such a.. motivating thing. Lol. But in my case, I have a lot more than "I want" pushing me. This case is more of an "I NEED". Which makes it even stronger. The motivation, I mean.
I s'pose I might be looking too far ahead. I should take it one day at a time, and see how this goes. It's hard though. Because all I can seem to think about is where this'll lead. I know where I WANT it to go. But you never really know with life, do you?
Positiveness, Elaine! That is the key!
Now if only I can remember that...
There are days when I wish time would pass more slowly, that I will actually have the time to savour these last few days of my er, childhood, so to speak. I don't know why, but I've always associated "20" with enormous responsibility... an age where excuses dry up, and you really have to take credit or blame for any action. That scares me. But I suppose it's inevitable. The smart thing to do right now would be to face up to it, instead of running and hiding under the bed.
Other days, however, I want time to speed up! I want this year to be over, so I can work and save. If only I could earn enough in 3 months to go where I want to go, I'd work day and night to accomplish it! But unfortunately for me.. I don't only have finances to take into consideration. And believe me, it's easier to get a Visa to Israel than to get permission from my dad to let me go where I want to. Sigh. But I'm gonna try anyway!
Resolve is such a.. motivating thing. Lol. But in my case, I have a lot more than "I want" pushing me. This case is more of an "I NEED". Which makes it even stronger. The motivation, I mean.
I s'pose I might be looking too far ahead. I should take it one day at a time, and see how this goes. It's hard though. Because all I can seem to think about is where this'll lead. I know where I WANT it to go. But you never really know with life, do you?
Positiveness, Elaine! That is the key!
Now if only I can remember that...
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
More Party Pics
Hello! I know the Aussies and Uncle Jerome come to my blog sometimes, so I thought I'd put up more of the pics Jono has sent me for you guys to see! We had a lot of fun that day.. If you guys coulda been there it would've been even fun-ner! :) Lots of love xxx
The standard group pic.. But I think we all look great in it, don't you? Especially the 2 guests of honour! (And no, I don't mean the two kids :P)
Ethan and Ashley! Aren't they just the most adorable things you've ever seen? I love them to death!
Uncle Freddie and his family.. Bunch of little monkeys! :) But they're so lovable, you'll forgive them anything!
The standard group pic.. But I think we all look great in it, don't you? Especially the 2 guests of honour! (And no, I don't mean the two kids :P)
Ethan and Ashley! Aren't they just the most adorable things you've ever seen? I love them to death!
Uncle Freddie and his family.. Bunch of little monkeys! :) But they're so lovable, you'll forgive them anything!
Wow! They're behaving! Well.. almost. But this is a pretty good picture! I love my baby cousins! And yeah.. my uncle and aunt too. Haha..
Okay.. I have to go now. Will put up a few more next time. Bye people!
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Short One..
Not much to post today, except that I have TOTALLY pigged out this weekend! I think I ate at least 6 ais krim potongs! Oh lordy. I am sooo gonna be the hippo David keeps calling me if I keep this up! Oh, and the Tim Tams in the fridge aren't exactly helping matters. Ooh boy. Darn my fat thighs!
Okay, peeps.. I heard this song again while having lunch at Monte's - this great restaurant in Bangsar - today after SUCH a long time, and I fell in love with it all over again! Now I know why it used to be one of my favourite songs, mushy though it is! I'm gonna post the lyrics again - the last time I did it was 2 years ago, so I figure it won't hurt to post 'em again. Hehe. Enjoy!
Whenever You Call - Mariah Carey and Brian McKnight
Love wandered inside
Stronger than you
Stronger than I
And now that it has begun
We cannot turn back
We can only turn into one
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
And I'm truly inspired
Finding my soul
There in your eyes
And you
Have opened my heart
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself
Undisguised
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
And I will breathe for you each day
Comfort you through all the pain
Gently kiss your fears away
You can turn to me and cry
Always understand that I
Give you all I am inside
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch you fall
Whenever you call
Okay, peeps.. I heard this song again while having lunch at Monte's - this great restaurant in Bangsar - today after SUCH a long time, and I fell in love with it all over again! Now I know why it used to be one of my favourite songs, mushy though it is! I'm gonna post the lyrics again - the last time I did it was 2 years ago, so I figure it won't hurt to post 'em again. Hehe. Enjoy!
Whenever You Call - Mariah Carey and Brian McKnight
Love wandered inside
Stronger than you
Stronger than I
And now that it has begun
We cannot turn back
We can only turn into one
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
And I'm truly inspired
Finding my soul
There in your eyes
And you
Have opened my heart
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself
Undisguised
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
And I will breathe for you each day
Comfort you through all the pain
Gently kiss your fears away
You can turn to me and cry
Always understand that I
Give you all I am inside
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch you fall
Whenever you call
Friday, September 29, 2006
Numbness, Wherefore Art Thou?
* This post has been deleted *
I'm sorry to all of you who've read that sorry post.. I should stop that. I'm experiencing something completely new, and I need to start dealing with it, and not run away from it, or blame anyone else for it. If I'm down, it's no-one's doing but my own.
Anyway, Jules and Mistuh Harry-Potter-Was-My-Roomie.. While I wish you guys coulda been there for me last night, I've just realised that what matters is that you would've if you could've. And I suppose that's all that counts.
Okay. Mission accomplished. Ta, all!
I'm sorry to all of you who've read that sorry post.. I should stop that. I'm experiencing something completely new, and I need to start dealing with it, and not run away from it, or blame anyone else for it. If I'm down, it's no-one's doing but my own.
Anyway, Jules and Mistuh Harry-Potter-Was-My-Roomie.. While I wish you guys coulda been there for me last night, I've just realised that what matters is that you would've if you could've. And I suppose that's all that counts.
Okay. Mission accomplished. Ta, all!
Thursday, September 28, 2006
The GARDEN!
This are pics of my mum's and Aunty Ivy's garden in PJ. I chose to upload them coz I think the flowers and plants are just SO beautiful, that they deserve recognition of some sort.. And so do the garden's owners! They did almost all the hardwork by themselves! *applause* Anyway, enjoy the scenery!
This is of the front of the house... the garden gets fuller as you go around to the sides, though. Still.. I like it!
This is the view from the front porch... Probably the one of the barest spots in the entire garden.. which goes right 'round the entire house.
This part's outside David's bedroom window. What a view eh? :)
Outside the annex - Aunty Ivy's little side garden. Check out the flowers la! Isn't that just gorgeous?!!
The view from my bedroom window.. From one angle, la! I can actually see the whole backyard.. which is pretty beautiful for a backyard! :)
More of the backyard.. Like I said - one fine lookin' backyard! ;)
Ookay. That's about it for now.. I have to go back to PJ now, anyhow. Ta peeps and you know I love you! :)
My Bestest Best Friend!
I just read Ee May's blog, and girl.. your post on Dav was just so spot on! About best friends, I mean.
It's been ages since I wrote about my friends. Mainly coz I've been so caught up in my own little world. But that doesn't mean that they're far from my mind. I miss all the Insanely Saners like mad! And I still can't believe that I think of you guys under that old nickname.. even now! :)
Especially you, Jules. It's been ages since we last talked! Okay, so not all THAT long, since you only left last month, but it seems that way!
I really miss how we used to be able to call each other at random hours of the day, just to talk. I miss having her insights into the things that really matter to me... coz I know she'll never be anything less than honest with me. AND whip my sorry butt into shape in no time, if she thinks I'm acting like an idiot. Lol.
I miss her sense of humour - whacked out, though it is (lol!) - and the fact that SHE totally gets MY jokes, even though.. Well, yeah. My jokes are whacked out, too :P
I miss the way we used to be able to complete each other's sentences. That was freaky, eh Ju? Kinda shows that if you sit next to someone for long enough, they tend to rub off on you. And I was hardly ever in class! Can you imagine what we would've ended up like if I had come every single day? Hoooo boy! Doesn't bear thinking about, I think! *grins wickedly*
I miss just lepaking with her, and talking about everything from old school tales, to new boy ones. I miss the random bouts of Shakespearism.. and the times when she suddenly decides to talk like a heroine from a Jane Austen book, or something!
I miss the teasing about silly stuff, her absolute blur-ness about certain things (methinks she never quite bothered to listen to some teachers, did ya Juju? :P), her brilliance in others, even her inquisitive mind - although there WERE times when I wanted to strangle her for prolonging an already boring class by asking an already boring teacher more questions!!! LOL!
Suffice to say that I miss my kind, loyal, absolutely brilliant, caring, funny, smart, blur, I-greet-the-school-cat-before-Elaine best friend. Even all her little idiosyncracies - like never quite being satisfied with the results she gets.. even though they're usually top notch :) Oh, and the fact that she takes sarcasm to a whole new level... Lol!
God, I miss you, Jules! Even though the 12-year-old me would've laughed my head off if anyone had told me that you'd be one of the most important people in my life at age 19 (and your 12-year-old self probably would've been sooo utterly disdainful of the simple-minded fool who'd dare suggest such a thing, aye? :P).
But now that you are (against all odds.. haha!), I just wish you could be here when I'm going through one of the scariest, yet most exhilarating and, yes, amazing periods of my life! To be the sounding board that you always were, or just to talk sense into me when I seem to be flying off to Never Never Land yet again.
Oh! And I'm hoping this post'll make you feel guilty enough to actually write that letter you've been promising moi! ;) You owe me 3 by now, just so you know! Haha..
I love you girl! I am just SO glad that you're my bestest friend in the world, lousy correspondency, or whatever you wanna call it, aside! :) Couldn't ask for better - I really couldn't!
Big big hugs to ya.. and WRITE! Hmph. Or I won't let you live THIS down either ;)
It's been ages since I wrote about my friends. Mainly coz I've been so caught up in my own little world. But that doesn't mean that they're far from my mind. I miss all the Insanely Saners like mad! And I still can't believe that I think of you guys under that old nickname.. even now! :)
Especially you, Jules. It's been ages since we last talked! Okay, so not all THAT long, since you only left last month, but it seems that way!
I really miss how we used to be able to call each other at random hours of the day, just to talk. I miss having her insights into the things that really matter to me... coz I know she'll never be anything less than honest with me. AND whip my sorry butt into shape in no time, if she thinks I'm acting like an idiot. Lol.
I miss her sense of humour - whacked out, though it is (lol!) - and the fact that SHE totally gets MY jokes, even though.. Well, yeah. My jokes are whacked out, too :P
I miss the way we used to be able to complete each other's sentences. That was freaky, eh Ju? Kinda shows that if you sit next to someone for long enough, they tend to rub off on you. And I was hardly ever in class! Can you imagine what we would've ended up like if I had come every single day? Hoooo boy! Doesn't bear thinking about, I think! *grins wickedly*
I miss just lepaking with her, and talking about everything from old school tales, to new boy ones. I miss the random bouts of Shakespearism.. and the times when she suddenly decides to talk like a heroine from a Jane Austen book, or something!
I miss the teasing about silly stuff, her absolute blur-ness about certain things (methinks she never quite bothered to listen to some teachers, did ya Juju? :P), her brilliance in others, even her inquisitive mind - although there WERE times when I wanted to strangle her for prolonging an already boring class by asking an already boring teacher more questions!!! LOL!
Suffice to say that I miss my kind, loyal, absolutely brilliant, caring, funny, smart, blur, I-greet-the-school-cat-before-Elaine best friend. Even all her little idiosyncracies - like never quite being satisfied with the results she gets.. even though they're usually top notch :) Oh, and the fact that she takes sarcasm to a whole new level... Lol!
God, I miss you, Jules! Even though the 12-year-old me would've laughed my head off if anyone had told me that you'd be one of the most important people in my life at age 19 (and your 12-year-old self probably would've been sooo utterly disdainful of the simple-minded fool who'd dare suggest such a thing, aye? :P).
But now that you are (against all odds.. haha!), I just wish you could be here when I'm going through one of the scariest, yet most exhilarating and, yes, amazing periods of my life! To be the sounding board that you always were, or just to talk sense into me when I seem to be flying off to Never Never Land yet again.
Oh! And I'm hoping this post'll make you feel guilty enough to actually write that letter you've been promising moi! ;) You owe me 3 by now, just so you know! Haha..
I love you girl! I am just SO glad that you're my bestest friend in the world, lousy correspondency, or whatever you wanna call it, aside! :) Couldn't ask for better - I really couldn't!
Big big hugs to ya.. and WRITE! Hmph. Or I won't let you live THIS down either ;)
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Warning: EMO!!
I'd forgotten how emotional I get, watching Fahrenheit 9/11. Really, I cry everytime I see the lives lost for so - hollow - a cause.
It's a funny thing though, emotions. For so long now, I've managed to keep myself numb to just about everything - so much so that I've been travelling through life in auto-cruise mode. I react according to expectations, not feelings. Not genuine ones, anyway.
The fact that I'm beginning to feel real emotion again scares me. I can't seem to block out the bad stuff, too. I haven't worried about anything in such a long time, but now.. POW! I worry about everything - even things that I shouldn't be worrying about!
Oh boy. I don't know which is worse. I really don't. Not feeling anything can get pretty old after awhile... You tend to feel like you're on the outside looking in, like you're not really living your life.
On the other hand, feeling isn't exactly all that great, either. The overall vulnerability of knowing that your peace of mind lies in the hands of another person really is pretty hard to take. Especially if you've spent your entire life being vulnerable to the heartache that human beings always, somehow, seem to cause each other.
Whoopers. I've managed to switch back into the sad, whiny mode that's coloured all my posts since this time last year. Sigh. I really need to start focusing on the positive in my life - and not how that positive could turn out to be not-so-positive after all!
I shouldn't listen to doubters. I should just trust in how I feel. And what my instincts are more or less screaming at me. I should. It'd make life so much easier to take if I could just allow myself to believe 100%. But that seed of doubt's been planted, and it's going to take a hell of a lot on my part to weed it out.
Oh well. As usual, I sound more depressed than I actually am.. Lol. I can't decide whether to be happy, or apprehensive, that's the problem! It's so confusing, my head literally spins everytime I try to figure it out.
I guess I'll just have to ride this one out and if it all happens to work out, fantastic. I doubt I could be any happier than I would be if it did. But if it doesn't.. I'll just have to force myself to accept the fact - just like I've always done.
Only this time, it ain't going to be as easy as it's always been. This time, it'll be the hardest thing I have ever even THOUGHT of doing in my whole, entire, life.
It's a funny thing though, emotions. For so long now, I've managed to keep myself numb to just about everything - so much so that I've been travelling through life in auto-cruise mode. I react according to expectations, not feelings. Not genuine ones, anyway.
The fact that I'm beginning to feel real emotion again scares me. I can't seem to block out the bad stuff, too. I haven't worried about anything in such a long time, but now.. POW! I worry about everything - even things that I shouldn't be worrying about!
Oh boy. I don't know which is worse. I really don't. Not feeling anything can get pretty old after awhile... You tend to feel like you're on the outside looking in, like you're not really living your life.
On the other hand, feeling isn't exactly all that great, either. The overall vulnerability of knowing that your peace of mind lies in the hands of another person really is pretty hard to take. Especially if you've spent your entire life being vulnerable to the heartache that human beings always, somehow, seem to cause each other.
Whoopers. I've managed to switch back into the sad, whiny mode that's coloured all my posts since this time last year. Sigh. I really need to start focusing on the positive in my life - and not how that positive could turn out to be not-so-positive after all!
I shouldn't listen to doubters. I should just trust in how I feel. And what my instincts are more or less screaming at me. I should. It'd make life so much easier to take if I could just allow myself to believe 100%. But that seed of doubt's been planted, and it's going to take a hell of a lot on my part to weed it out.
Oh well. As usual, I sound more depressed than I actually am.. Lol. I can't decide whether to be happy, or apprehensive, that's the problem! It's so confusing, my head literally spins everytime I try to figure it out.
I guess I'll just have to ride this one out and if it all happens to work out, fantastic. I doubt I could be any happier than I would be if it did. But if it doesn't.. I'll just have to force myself to accept the fact - just like I've always done.
Only this time, it ain't going to be as easy as it's always been. This time, it'll be the hardest thing I have ever even THOUGHT of doing in my whole, entire, life.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Perfect Party Pictures
These pics were taken yesterday at my cousin Jono's, and Aunty Ivy's birthday party! I won't disclose her age la.. But I bet if you try and guess, you won't get it right! She's just absolutely stunning for her age, that much I can tell ya! :D Anyway, we had awesome fun last night! I loved every minute of it!
David and me.. Finally he's big enough for ME to sit on HIS lap! :D
Me and my darling cousin Jono! (Thanks for doing this for me, cuz! You're the BEST!)
Uncle Berty - The Balloon Man! It's hard to say who had more fun - him, or the kids! Haha! :D
How d'ya like my new hairstyle?? It's the BOMB, no? Haha! The cheeky lil cutie next to me's the Mad Hairdresser - Mr. Ethan Reece Fernandez! :)
Ooh! The Double-Chin Society! *rolls on floor laughing*
Fred, David, me, Divya and Sonya with the birthday boy and uh.. ok la!.. girl! :)
Me and my pet cockatoo! *insert maniacal laugh here*
Me and Jono again! (That's mum in the background.)
My darling Godma, who was also the birthday girl, Aunty Ivy! (Check out the glass in the hand, man.. never too far from her Bailey's, she is! Hehehehe.)
Don't we look alike? I think we do.. Do you?
David and me.. Finally he's big enough for ME to sit on HIS lap! :D
Me and my darling cousin Jono! (Thanks for doing this for me, cuz! You're the BEST!)
Uncle Berty - The Balloon Man! It's hard to say who had more fun - him, or the kids! Haha! :D
How d'ya like my new hairstyle?? It's the BOMB, no? Haha! The cheeky lil cutie next to me's the Mad Hairdresser - Mr. Ethan Reece Fernandez! :)
Ooh! The Double-Chin Society! *rolls on floor laughing*
Fred, David, me, Divya and Sonya with the birthday boy and uh.. ok la!.. girl! :)
Me and my pet cockatoo! *insert maniacal laugh here*
Me and Jono again! (That's mum in the background.)
My darling Godma, who was also the birthday girl, Aunty Ivy! (Check out the glass in the hand, man.. never too far from her Bailey's, she is! Hehehehe.)
Don't we look alike? I think we do.. Do you?
Saturday, September 23, 2006
I've Found Him! :D
Hey people.. I found this list when I was reading through one of my old diaries.. From last year, to be exact. This is the diary entry for 2nd November 2005:
Things I Want In/Of A Guy
1. Someone who loves me just as I am.
2. Someone who thinks about me as often as I think about him.
3. Someone who'll note my slightest wish or dream, and try to make it reality. (Ever watch "A Walk To Remember"?)
4. Someone whom I can be 100% my klutzy, clumsy self in front of, and he won't get turned off.
5. Someone I can eat sloppily in front of, and he'll just laugh about it in amusement.
6. Someone who's attuned to my every mood.
7. Someone who's concerned about me if I'm sick, and comes over to check on me.
8. Someone who offers to carry my books.
9. Someone who'll hold open doors, and pull out chairs for me.
10. Someone who'll defend me - even to his friends.
11. Someone who'll hold me when I'm down.
12. Someone who'll wipe away my tears.
13. Someone who would hate to do anything that would make me cry.
14. Someone who would consider me his number 1 priority.
15. Someone who'll make time for me when he knows I want to spend time with him.
16. Someone who'll WANT to spend time with me!
17. Someone who isn't afraid to tell me how he feels.
18. Someone who thinks I deserve to hear it.
19. Someone who's willing to share his life with me.
20. Someone who's able to list out the things he likes about me.
21. Someone who's willing to do his share of the work.
22. Someone who loves me as much as I love him.
23. Someone who thinks I'm special.
24. Someone who treats me like I am.
25. Someone who's willing to sacrifcie for me.
26. Someone who's willing to allow me to love him.
27. Someone who remembers the things I do or don't like.
28. Someone who actually takes the trouble to find out.
29. Someone who's honest with me about how he feels, no matter how "shy" he is.
30. Someone who loves me for me. That's really all I'm asking for.
Needless to say, I was probably in a really emo mood when I wrote that one. Lol. And I realise that it's an absolute whopper of a list for ANYONE to fulfill.
But guess what, folks? I've actually found someone who does. Every single one of those things, bar the few that aren't possible due to certain circumstances. But I know if he could, he would be all of the above and more!
Maybe having standards was a good thing after all - I've managed to find perfection just one year on! :) The funny thing is, I'd forgotten I even wrote that list! But when I met him, it was like, WHAM! I completely fell for him without even realising how or why! Now I know. He's everything I've ever dreamed of and more.
And God help me, I am completely and hopelessly in love with him - with everything that he is, and everything that I just know he could be.
I love him. I do.
Things I Want In/Of A Guy
1. Someone who loves me just as I am.
2. Someone who thinks about me as often as I think about him.
3. Someone who'll note my slightest wish or dream, and try to make it reality. (Ever watch "A Walk To Remember"?)
4. Someone whom I can be 100% my klutzy, clumsy self in front of, and he won't get turned off.
5. Someone I can eat sloppily in front of, and he'll just laugh about it in amusement.
6. Someone who's attuned to my every mood.
7. Someone who's concerned about me if I'm sick, and comes over to check on me.
8. Someone who offers to carry my books.
9. Someone who'll hold open doors, and pull out chairs for me.
10. Someone who'll defend me - even to his friends.
11. Someone who'll hold me when I'm down.
12. Someone who'll wipe away my tears.
13. Someone who would hate to do anything that would make me cry.
14. Someone who would consider me his number 1 priority.
15. Someone who'll make time for me when he knows I want to spend time with him.
16. Someone who'll WANT to spend time with me!
17. Someone who isn't afraid to tell me how he feels.
18. Someone who thinks I deserve to hear it.
19. Someone who's willing to share his life with me.
20. Someone who's able to list out the things he likes about me.
21. Someone who's willing to do his share of the work.
22. Someone who loves me as much as I love him.
23. Someone who thinks I'm special.
24. Someone who treats me like I am.
25. Someone who's willing to sacrifcie for me.
26. Someone who's willing to allow me to love him.
27. Someone who remembers the things I do or don't like.
28. Someone who actually takes the trouble to find out.
29. Someone who's honest with me about how he feels, no matter how "shy" he is.
30. Someone who loves me for me. That's really all I'm asking for.
Needless to say, I was probably in a really emo mood when I wrote that one. Lol. And I realise that it's an absolute whopper of a list for ANYONE to fulfill.
But guess what, folks? I've actually found someone who does. Every single one of those things, bar the few that aren't possible due to certain circumstances. But I know if he could, he would be all of the above and more!
Maybe having standards was a good thing after all - I've managed to find perfection just one year on! :) The funny thing is, I'd forgotten I even wrote that list! But when I met him, it was like, WHAM! I completely fell for him without even realising how or why! Now I know. He's everything I've ever dreamed of and more.
And God help me, I am completely and hopelessly in love with him - with everything that he is, and everything that I just know he could be.
I love him. I do.
Friday, September 22, 2006
More Pancake Cookies!
We made pancake cookies again yesterday! And loaded 'em up with chocolate chips.. Loads and loads and loads of chocolate chips! Now, while I only have pics of the ones that didn't flatten to 1 mm per piece (hehe), you should just check out the amount of chocolate chips there are in those things! They may look a little odd, but they taste great!Recipe for good chocolate chip cookies: Load up on the chocolate chips! You won't regret it! :D
I'll put up the ones which are real skinny when I get 'em. They're so thin, they're practically anorexic! Poor cookies.
(PS: Do you see the cookie that looks like Winnie the Pooh? That wasn't intentional! :P)
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Just FYI...
I don't know what came over me last night! Haha.. I wrote that last post in an absolute stupor. Now if you'd note the writing style, the spelling errors, the missing words.. Well, let's just say I had no idea at all of what I was writing.
In fact, I couldn't remember it at all until I went to my blog just now, and saw it! I have absolutely no memory of ever writing ANY of that down! How strange is THAT?
Oooh. Word to the wise: Never eat pasta on the day you're due to get the usual, excruciating phenomenon they call menstrual cramps. That's just.. dumb. Utter stupidity. Because nothing makes you want to throw up more than too much cheese and flour and random contraction-like aches in the abdominal area. UGH.
I shouldn't be blogging right now. I really shouldn't. But I have to write. If not I'll go bonkers! This is my only outlet, folks. It doesn't matter WHAT I write, as long as I write. Don't know if that makes sense to you, but if it doesn't, don't bother trying to figure it out. It won't work. I think to weirdly for good ol' normal folk. Sigh.
ANYWAY. I shall end here. Coz I'm rambling already and that ain't ever a good thing!
So, ta, y'all, and I'll see y'all around. Someday. I hope.
In fact, I couldn't remember it at all until I went to my blog just now, and saw it! I have absolutely no memory of ever writing ANY of that down! How strange is THAT?
Oooh. Word to the wise: Never eat pasta on the day you're due to get the usual, excruciating phenomenon they call menstrual cramps. That's just.. dumb. Utter stupidity. Because nothing makes you want to throw up more than too much cheese and flour and random contraction-like aches in the abdominal area. UGH.
I shouldn't be blogging right now. I really shouldn't. But I have to write. If not I'll go bonkers! This is my only outlet, folks. It doesn't matter WHAT I write, as long as I write. Don't know if that makes sense to you, but if it doesn't, don't bother trying to figure it out. It won't work. I think to weirdly for good ol' normal folk. Sigh.
ANYWAY. I shall end here. Coz I'm rambling already and that ain't ever a good thing!
So, ta, y'all, and I'll see y'all around. Someday. I hope.
Stuff. for S.
Another random one tonight.
I don't know why I've been like this lately. So caught up in a world of my own. Sometimes I feel like an outsider, looking in on my life and wondering, "Who IS that girl?"! I've changed so much, withdrawn deeper into myself... I'm not letting anybody get close anymore and that scares me, if only just a little.
Although.. I think I know of someone who's been able to make me feel again. But the problem with this is, I'm feeling the NEGATIVE as well as positive reactions. The hurt, the vulnerability - all of it. But that doesn't mean that I'm not capable of love.
When do we find love anyway? Or does love find us? Is it wise to set boundaries on what we count as partner material or not? Is it wise to choose a partener solely on his absolutely briliant?
I don't know. But it certainly is possible. What IS love anyway?
I think what I'm feeling is. And it's an absolutely raptourous thought that I get to see him everyday.
Anyway I think I'll end here. I'm becoming pretty incoherent now so.. yeah. = I'll quit before I write morne nonsesnse!
Good night, y'all!
Goodnight all!
I don't know why I've been like this lately. So caught up in a world of my own. Sometimes I feel like an outsider, looking in on my life and wondering, "Who IS that girl?"! I've changed so much, withdrawn deeper into myself... I'm not letting anybody get close anymore and that scares me, if only just a little.
Although.. I think I know of someone who's been able to make me feel again. But the problem with this is, I'm feeling the NEGATIVE as well as positive reactions. The hurt, the vulnerability - all of it. But that doesn't mean that I'm not capable of love.
When do we find love anyway? Or does love find us? Is it wise to set boundaries on what we count as partner material or not? Is it wise to choose a partener solely on his absolutely briliant?
I don't know. But it certainly is possible. What IS love anyway?
I think what I'm feeling is. And it's an absolutely raptourous thought that I get to see him everyday.
Anyway I think I'll end here. I'm becoming pretty incoherent now so.. yeah. = I'll quit before I write morne nonsesnse!
Good night, y'all!
Goodnight all!
Monday, September 18, 2006
Retainer Rant
I have to wear this retainer-like thingy that my dad got after he went for an aesthetic dentistry course today. Apparently it's to correct the slight overbite I have.
Great idea, except that the thing is bloody painful and I can't talk! I literally can't say a word - just make odd grunting noises in accordance to what the words sound like. Gah. My parents find that hilarious, of course, and the fact that I can barely close my mouth around it is apparently the joke of the century.
"Her teeth will be fine, but she'll need plastic surgery to get her lips back in place! Hahahahaha!"
Bah. Humbug.
You'd think the man who made me wear this thing in the first place would be more sympathetic, but NOOO. He's the biggest culprit of all! My mum is a little kinder - but not much!
David's the only one who tells me not to wear it.. coz it makes me a "fatso nerd". Or was it "nerdy fatso"? I can't quite keep up with the many insulting nicknames he has for me. Lol. They change everyday!
God save the queen. This'll be the longest six months of my life!
Great idea, except that the thing is bloody painful and I can't talk! I literally can't say a word - just make odd grunting noises in accordance to what the words sound like. Gah. My parents find that hilarious, of course, and the fact that I can barely close my mouth around it is apparently the joke of the century.
"Her teeth will be fine, but she'll need plastic surgery to get her lips back in place! Hahahahaha!"
Bah. Humbug.
You'd think the man who made me wear this thing in the first place would be more sympathetic, but NOOO. He's the biggest culprit of all! My mum is a little kinder - but not much!
David's the only one who tells me not to wear it.. coz it makes me a "fatso nerd". Or was it "nerdy fatso"? I can't quite keep up with the many insulting nicknames he has for me. Lol. They change everyday!
God save the queen. This'll be the longest six months of my life!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
List-ful!
Mmm.. I haven't made a list in a long time. And we all know how much I like lists. Strange lists. Random lists. Completely unfollowable lists. But lists just the same!
I think I'll make a random one today. Because I'm half asleep, but I can't sleep coz I'm thinking too much. About somethi.. No, that's not quite right, but I won't bother elaborating. Takes waaay too much effort to write in double entendres when the brain's shut down! Hehe.
Here goes...
21-Things-Elaine-Can-Think-Of-While-In-A-Stupor:
1. I just realised how much I love the movie "Dear Frankie" after watching it again last night! Simple, straightforward, heartfelt movies ROCK!
2. One random conclusion from the movie: Gerard Butler is hot-ness personified! Drownable eyes, super-bod, Scottish accent.. what more could you ask for? Hypothesis confirmed ;)
3. I am a sucker for sad parent-child, family-ish tales. I cry. Buckets.
4. The song "Butterfly Kisses" makes me cry, too. Reminds me of me and my dad!
5. Adam Sandler is actually a not-too-bad actor! Amazing how life surprises you.
6. I'm an Italian food addict. Like, for real. I could live on it.
7. David says my kids will be the only Malaysian kids whose complaints about their meals will be: "Mum! Not pasta again!"
8. Ribena + vodka tastes like cough syrup. Uck.
9. Vodka any other way is fine. Fantastic even. And yes. It's my favourite sorta alcohol.
10. New personal record: I haven't read a novel longer than 300 pages since.. March, maybe? I haven't had the available brainpower to concentrate for long enough to finish it while I'm still interested!
11. I should learn to stay away from chocolates. My thighs are suffering! So are my skirts.
12. Ethan is the cutest kid I know! And the cuddliest! He is 3.. and calls me "Yane". So cute!!!
13. David and I have the most un-(dis?)-proportionate legs in the universe. Thigh-calf length ratio is absolutely whack. Too short thighs, too long calfs. That, folks, is the sad story of our legs.
14. I love roses - unless they're red, white or yellow. But orchids are my absolute favourite flower. In case you haven't figured that out already.
15. Westlife is the greatest boyband alive. 'Nuff said.
16. I. Absolutely. Dread. Turning. 20. The "teen" in my current age makes it easier to still try to be a kid - even if I haven't exactly been one in years.
17. I miss my kids!! Haven't seen them in weeks!!
18. My 5-year-old Sunday School class kids, people. Lol. Don't worry.
19. I want a golden retriever! *sniffles* Or any other large, friendly dog. Tiny dogs are cute, but I'd like my dog to be big enough to hug without suffocating him.
20. It's possible that I've finally figured out what I want in a man! Hip hip hurray! You don't want to know about that now, though. That list is... longer than this one, I think!
21. The reason I watched "Dear Frankie" again was coz of an impulsive need to hear Scottish accents. (Gerard Butler was a major plus! Hehe..)
All righty, I have to go try figure out some Trigonometry thingy again - the solution's been eluding me since.. yesterday, technically.
[PS: Anyone have any idea where to find the VCD/DVD of the movie Chocolat? Need help. Let me know if you do..! *biiig hugs in advance*]
I think I'll make a random one today. Because I'm half asleep, but I can't sleep coz I'm thinking too much. About somethi.. No, that's not quite right, but I won't bother elaborating. Takes waaay too much effort to write in double entendres when the brain's shut down! Hehe.
Here goes...
21-Things-Elaine-Can-Think-Of-While-In-A-Stupor:
1. I just realised how much I love the movie "Dear Frankie" after watching it again last night! Simple, straightforward, heartfelt movies ROCK!
2. One random conclusion from the movie: Gerard Butler is hot-ness personified! Drownable eyes, super-bod, Scottish accent.. what more could you ask for? Hypothesis confirmed ;)
3. I am a sucker for sad parent-child, family-ish tales. I cry. Buckets.
4. The song "Butterfly Kisses" makes me cry, too. Reminds me of me and my dad!
5. Adam Sandler is actually a not-too-bad actor! Amazing how life surprises you.
6. I'm an Italian food addict. Like, for real. I could live on it.
7. David says my kids will be the only Malaysian kids whose complaints about their meals will be: "Mum! Not pasta again!"
8. Ribena + vodka tastes like cough syrup. Uck.
9. Vodka any other way is fine. Fantastic even. And yes. It's my favourite sorta alcohol.
10. New personal record: I haven't read a novel longer than 300 pages since.. March, maybe? I haven't had the available brainpower to concentrate for long enough to finish it while I'm still interested!
11. I should learn to stay away from chocolates. My thighs are suffering! So are my skirts.
12. Ethan is the cutest kid I know! And the cuddliest! He is 3.. and calls me "Yane". So cute!!!
13. David and I have the most un-(dis?)-proportionate legs in the universe. Thigh-calf length ratio is absolutely whack. Too short thighs, too long calfs. That, folks, is the sad story of our legs.
14. I love roses - unless they're red, white or yellow. But orchids are my absolute favourite flower. In case you haven't figured that out already.
15. Westlife is the greatest boyband alive. 'Nuff said.
16. I. Absolutely. Dread. Turning. 20. The "teen" in my current age makes it easier to still try to be a kid - even if I haven't exactly been one in years.
17. I miss my kids!! Haven't seen them in weeks!!
18. My 5-year-old Sunday School class kids, people. Lol. Don't worry.
19. I want a golden retriever! *sniffles* Or any other large, friendly dog. Tiny dogs are cute, but I'd like my dog to be big enough to hug without suffocating him.
20. It's possible that I've finally figured out what I want in a man! Hip hip hurray! You don't want to know about that now, though. That list is... longer than this one, I think!
21. The reason I watched "Dear Frankie" again was coz of an impulsive need to hear Scottish accents. (Gerard Butler was a major plus! Hehe..)
All righty, I have to go try figure out some Trigonometry thingy again - the solution's been eluding me since.. yesterday, technically.
[PS: Anyone have any idea where to find the VCD/DVD of the movie Chocolat? Need help. Let me know if you do..! *biiig hugs in advance*]
Friday, September 15, 2006
22 Years!
It's my parents' 22nd anniversary. Twenty-second. 22 years. That's 3 years older than I am. And in my books, that's LONG.
How do people do it? Stay together for so long, I mean. How do they survive living with same person, day in day out, knowing them inside out and upside down? How do they do it, in spite of the arguments and fights and sometimes extremely hurtful words?
I don't understand it at all. But then, I think maybe that's the way it's supposed to be. Maybe love isn't meant to be "figured out". Maybe it's enough to know that it exists and just give in to it.
Maybe love makes it impossible not to care about the other person. Impossible not to miss them. Impossible to imagine life without them. Even when they hurt you so badly, it almost destroys you.
I guess love isn't something that can be controlled. You either do, or you don't. There isn't any in-between. It's only the TYPE of love that changes, I think. If it ever does.
Maybe I'll be so lucky as to find that man one day. A man that I love enough to endure anything for. Until I find him, though, I don't ever want to commit myself to a marriage. Coz marriage is tough enough as it is, with love to guide you through the rocky parts!
That's why I admire my parents. And that's why I'm so happy for today (well, other than the fact that I wouldn't exist if not for it! lol..). They've stuck out the bad times and remained faithful to each other in all ways. And in spite of all the bickering that really is inevitable when you're in each other's faces all the time, they still love each other enough to fight for what they've got!
And that's the kind of marriage I want - with the man I'd be willing to fight dragons for! And for once, this is not me being loony with my head in the clouds. For once, this is the real thing and I hope that I'll always remember it!
How do people do it? Stay together for so long, I mean. How do they survive living with same person, day in day out, knowing them inside out and upside down? How do they do it, in spite of the arguments and fights and sometimes extremely hurtful words?
I don't understand it at all. But then, I think maybe that's the way it's supposed to be. Maybe love isn't meant to be "figured out". Maybe it's enough to know that it exists and just give in to it.
Maybe love makes it impossible not to care about the other person. Impossible not to miss them. Impossible to imagine life without them. Even when they hurt you so badly, it almost destroys you.
I guess love isn't something that can be controlled. You either do, or you don't. There isn't any in-between. It's only the TYPE of love that changes, I think. If it ever does.
Maybe I'll be so lucky as to find that man one day. A man that I love enough to endure anything for. Until I find him, though, I don't ever want to commit myself to a marriage. Coz marriage is tough enough as it is, with love to guide you through the rocky parts!
That's why I admire my parents. And that's why I'm so happy for today (well, other than the fact that I wouldn't exist if not for it! lol..). They've stuck out the bad times and remained faithful to each other in all ways. And in spite of all the bickering that really is inevitable when you're in each other's faces all the time, they still love each other enough to fight for what they've got!
And that's the kind of marriage I want - with the man I'd be willing to fight dragons for! And for once, this is not me being loony with my head in the clouds. For once, this is the real thing and I hope that I'll always remember it!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
I Don't Have A Clue!
I'm addicted to Celine Dion. Really, I am. Mainly coz I'm a sucker for mushy romantic ballads. I wonder why that is.
What I DO know is that I have the Hero syndrome. The knight-in-shining-armour-who-sweeps-you-off-your-feet syndrome. [Oh, bite me. I can't help it.] ALTHOUGH.. I don't think I'm quite cut out for the whole helpless, swooning maiden who needs saving role.
Sigh.
What is to do? What IS to DO? Poor Elaine doesn't know.
[Yo Vin, you still up for forgoing the male species and setting up the Old Maids With Kids association? :P ]
God, I'm such a sad case! Haha.
I miss the DEDS. We used to "sing" every single holiday since we were 10! Right up til.. 2003, was it? Although our "repertoire" only consisted of all things Westlife, with a little BSB, Blue and Linkin Park (lol!) thrown in here and there. So saddening la, this eras being over business. Me no liking!
Speaking of Westlife.. I heard they're heading to Singapore as part of their Asian tour? Anyone with info, let me know please! What can I say? Old fanaticisms die hard! Although I think it's a shame they don't come to Malaysia anymore. Especially after the turnouts at their concerts! The football game they had was amazing too - we made a GORGEOUS banner, I tell ya! Although, "Westlife - Sultans Of Our Hearts"..? Oh well. I think if I could go back and do it all over again, I'd probably do it exactly the same!
Mm. So much for living in the present. All my thoughts lately have been about the good ol' days.. I wonder why. Maybe that's what happens when you read your own blog archives. (There you have it - clear, undeniable proof that I have no semblance of a life. Sigh.)
That's probably also how I know my writing's deteriorated. I should be 2 years maturer, but NOOO. Still the same ol' Elaine. Wheeee! Hm.. Maybe I should be thankful for that. I actually kinda liked the old me better. The new me's too reclusive for my liking! For real.
Uh oh. I'm runnin' away with myself. See? This is what happens when I just leave my fingers to their own devices. Sigh. They can't be controlled, I tell ya!
OOOookay. Will shut up now.
Have a good day!
PS: Man U won their first Champions League game against Celtic last night and they top their group! Yeeehaww! :D
What I DO know is that I have the Hero syndrome. The knight-in-shining-armour-who-sweeps-you-off-your-feet syndrome. [Oh, bite me. I can't help it.] ALTHOUGH.. I don't think I'm quite cut out for the whole helpless, swooning maiden who needs saving role.
Sigh.
What is to do? What IS to DO? Poor Elaine doesn't know.
[Yo Vin, you still up for forgoing the male species and setting up the Old Maids With Kids association? :P ]
God, I'm such a sad case! Haha.
I miss the DEDS. We used to "sing" every single holiday since we were 10! Right up til.. 2003, was it? Although our "repertoire" only consisted of all things Westlife, with a little BSB, Blue and Linkin Park (lol!) thrown in here and there. So saddening la, this eras being over business. Me no liking!
Speaking of Westlife.. I heard they're heading to Singapore as part of their Asian tour? Anyone with info, let me know please! What can I say? Old fanaticisms die hard! Although I think it's a shame they don't come to Malaysia anymore. Especially after the turnouts at their concerts! The football game they had was amazing too - we made a GORGEOUS banner, I tell ya! Although, "Westlife - Sultans Of Our Hearts"..? Oh well. I think if I could go back and do it all over again, I'd probably do it exactly the same!
Mm. So much for living in the present. All my thoughts lately have been about the good ol' days.. I wonder why. Maybe that's what happens when you read your own blog archives. (There you have it - clear, undeniable proof that I have no semblance of a life. Sigh.)
That's probably also how I know my writing's deteriorated. I should be 2 years maturer, but NOOO. Still the same ol' Elaine. Wheeee! Hm.. Maybe I should be thankful for that. I actually kinda liked the old me better. The new me's too reclusive for my liking! For real.
Uh oh. I'm runnin' away with myself. See? This is what happens when I just leave my fingers to their own devices. Sigh. They can't be controlled, I tell ya!
OOOookay. Will shut up now.
Have a good day!
PS: Man U won their first Champions League game against Celtic last night and they top their group! Yeeehaww! :D
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