I can't write much right now coz I'm running out of time.. Er. That didn't sound right. I'm just using my cousins' comp, and I have to go home now, is all.
SO. A lot of things have been going on lately, not all of it good. It's been a tough month or so, and just last week my grandmother, whom I've been helping to look after a little, passed away on the 2nd of August. She was 92, so she's lived a good long life. I know that, and I also know that she's in a better place, free from all the pain and suffering that is part of this life.
However, I can't help missing her presence in my life. It feels so weird, especially since there was a time when I couldn't stand spending so much time with her. But now, I'm glad that I did. I have memories that no one else will ever have of her, and I can reassure myself that she knew I cared, right up to the end.
It's still pretty hard to accept - she's been a fixture in my life for 19 years, a constant, if you will. But now she's gone. And a whole generation with her. I never did get to learn the songs she wanted to teach me "when she got better", or her cream puffs and custards, which she was supposed to teach me to make during the holidays. A lot of wasted chances, and I guess the regrets are just starting to surface, since the fact that she's gone forever is only just starting to sink in.
Anyway, I'll end this depressing thing now. But I have absolute faith that she's happier now than she's ever been in her looong life. And I really do thank God for that.
Bye peeps.. I LOVE YOU ALL!
Monday, August 07, 2006
Monday, July 03, 2006
Okay Already! :P
I have been accused of neglecting to post. Lol. I'm afraid I shall have to plead guilty to that one. Sigh. I so rarely get on the computer these days that when I do, I sort of lose whatever it is I'd been meaning to write about all week long! Pathetic, eh?
Anyway, last week was rather eventful - the week-long Golden Jubilee Treasure Hunt took up basically all of our time ["our" being Allan, KP, Jessmine and me]. I must say that I was pretty impressed with the resilience of some of the participants - I know the course we Upper Sixers set was NOT easy. But they still carried on with relative good humour. Great sports, they were. I'm so proud of them!!!! [Cue - "Awww!"]
I beginning to rediscover the joys of single life.. It's just so much simpler! No guilt, no keeping awake wondering if he's missing you, no watching your every step so as not offend him or embarrass yourself, no forcing yourself not to notice other hotter guys.. Man! Contrary to what Mr. Teddy would have me think, I'd say the single life is a heck of a lot easier! At this stage in life, at least :) [But knowing me I shall find someone to have a crush on again.. like, tomorrow. Sigh. SAD!]
Y'know, I noticed something - the minute I stop praying, my life just comes crashing down around my ears. I'm serious! Take one step back and immediately I'm swamped with temptations. It's REALLY scary. To all Christians reading this - if our lives feel like it's going nowhere, that's probably coz it's not focused in the right direction. As long as our goal is Jesus, everything'll fall into place - somehow. I guess we just have to trust in that.
And for all my rantings and ravings about crushes and broken hearts, I know that these things are only fleeting... It's just time I make myself remember that :D Oh, I'll still complain, coz it's plain good fun to discuss ridiculous relationships on a very public blog (lol!), but as long as I know I'm keeping the reality in perspective.. Yeah.
Okay, gotta go. Have to head back to PJ now. Bye til next time! :)
Anyway, last week was rather eventful - the week-long Golden Jubilee Treasure Hunt took up basically all of our time ["our" being Allan, KP, Jessmine and me]. I must say that I was pretty impressed with the resilience of some of the participants - I know the course we Upper Sixers set was NOT easy. But they still carried on with relative good humour. Great sports, they were. I'm so proud of them!!!! [Cue - "Awww!"]
I beginning to rediscover the joys of single life.. It's just so much simpler! No guilt, no keeping awake wondering if he's missing you, no watching your every step so as not offend him or embarrass yourself, no forcing yourself not to notice other hotter guys.. Man! Contrary to what Mr. Teddy would have me think, I'd say the single life is a heck of a lot easier! At this stage in life, at least :) [But knowing me I shall find someone to have a crush on again.. like, tomorrow. Sigh. SAD!]
Y'know, I noticed something - the minute I stop praying, my life just comes crashing down around my ears. I'm serious! Take one step back and immediately I'm swamped with temptations. It's REALLY scary. To all Christians reading this - if our lives feel like it's going nowhere, that's probably coz it's not focused in the right direction. As long as our goal is Jesus, everything'll fall into place - somehow. I guess we just have to trust in that.
And for all my rantings and ravings about crushes and broken hearts, I know that these things are only fleeting... It's just time I make myself remember that :D Oh, I'll still complain, coz it's plain good fun to discuss ridiculous relationships on a very public blog (lol!), but as long as I know I'm keeping the reality in perspective.. Yeah.
Okay, gotta go. Have to head back to PJ now. Bye til next time! :)
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Pacifier :)
Okay, I admit I'm a lousy updater. THERE. I said it. [Satisfied, KP Chen? :P]
I've hardly been able to find the time to think about what to write, let alone write it! Blame it on lack of sleep la, if you want. The World Cup is really taking it's toll! Haha.. But I ain't complaining. This is one of the most fun times in 4 years!
There's a week-long Treasure Hunt going on in school right now, and we 6th Formers are planning it. Or rather, the Lower 6-ers are planning the preliminary rounds, and the Upper 6 is doing the final. Thus far it's been a fun sort of headache. And good exercise too!
WC updates - ENGLAND IS IN THE QUARTER FINALS!
That's all there is to know, baby :D
I'll end with by sharing the lyrics of a song by Christian pop group Avalon - I love the lyrics to this song coz they're just so TRUE! I wish I knew how to put up MP3s or whatever.. This song is beautiful! Bye people..
Everything To Me
I grew up in Sunday School
I memorized the golden rule
And how Jesus came
To set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I could tell you all about
The path that led Him up
To Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same because
He changed my life when He became
Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page
Of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
Everything to me
We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find
That I'm aware of just
How fragile life can be
I wanna tell the world I've found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know
That they can taste and see
So everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I wanna live for Jesus
So that someone else might see
That He is
Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page
Of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
And looking back over my life at the end
I'm gonna meet You
Saying You've been
You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page
Of history
You're the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything
Lord, You're everything to me
I've hardly been able to find the time to think about what to write, let alone write it! Blame it on lack of sleep la, if you want. The World Cup is really taking it's toll! Haha.. But I ain't complaining. This is one of the most fun times in 4 years!
There's a week-long Treasure Hunt going on in school right now, and we 6th Formers are planning it. Or rather, the Lower 6-ers are planning the preliminary rounds, and the Upper 6 is doing the final. Thus far it's been a fun sort of headache. And good exercise too!
WC updates - ENGLAND IS IN THE QUARTER FINALS!
That's all there is to know, baby :D
I'll end with by sharing the lyrics of a song by Christian pop group Avalon - I love the lyrics to this song coz they're just so TRUE! I wish I knew how to put up MP3s or whatever.. This song is beautiful! Bye people..
Everything To Me
I grew up in Sunday School
I memorized the golden rule
And how Jesus came
To set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I could tell you all about
The path that led Him up
To Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same because
He changed my life when He became
Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page
Of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
Everything to me
We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find
That I'm aware of just
How fragile life can be
I wanna tell the world I've found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know
That they can taste and see
So everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I wanna live for Jesus
So that someone else might see
That He is
Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page
Of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
And looking back over my life at the end
I'm gonna meet You
Saying You've been
You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page
Of history
You're the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything
Lord, You're everything to me
Saturday, June 10, 2006
WORLD CUP FEVER!
THE WORLD CUP HAS BEGUN!
Up in arms, all ye England fans! Let's dream of a 40-year coming, much deserved (lol) VICTORY!
WooohOoooOoo! One whole month of action, baby! Oooh bliss!
Tonight, England vs Paraguay..
WATCH IT!
God Save The Queen!
Signing off - Gary Neville (as of the year 1997).
Up in arms, all ye England fans! Let's dream of a 40-year coming, much deserved (lol) VICTORY!
WooohOoooOoo! One whole month of action, baby! Oooh bliss!
Tonight, England vs Paraguay..
WATCH IT!
God Save The Queen!
Signing off - Gary Neville (as of the year 1997).
Friday, June 09, 2006
Under, Er.. Construction :)
Hey people! Got some problems with the template, so everything's missing for awhile.. Will try and rectify it ASAP though :)
Thanks for all your help, Pat and Jono!!!!
Mwa mwa all!
Elaine
Thanks for all your help, Pat and Jono!!!!
Mwa mwa all!
Elaine
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Two Sides Of A Coin :)
You know how they say that the best things in life are unexpected? That's true, but also disastrously untrue.
Let's look at the same quote in the 2 different contexts based on life experiences. (My life la, of course!)
*************
True
David and I were coerced into going for a youth retreat in Johor last week. I can tell you now that my reaction was "WHAT THE HELL FOR?!" I've been for gazillions of youth retreats and they're all the same - shallow, a bit fun, and VERY superficial.
Boy, was I wrong.
I went in expecting to be mildy entertained, and what I got was a slam bang "WAKE UP ELAINE!!" call. I think it shocked me into paying attention. Which is a good thing, because my life has pretty much been derailed for a long while now. And I finally got the shake to get me back on track.
Oh, and the youth there were definitely not what I was expecting. I'm so used to the clique-ishness of the KL crowd that it was a VERY refreshing surprise to note that the Johor youth welcomed Dave and me into their crowd without so much as a blink.
That = good unexpectedness.
False
I have an old friend. Who thus far has been nothing more than an old friend. Who was never particularly attractive either. But when I met said old friend again recently, my heart just went BOOM! Talk about an unpleasant shock.
And I think I know why - I've seen just how much more mature he is now, and how strong he is, and I can't deny that he's become so much more appealing than I ever remember him being. Which would be entirely ridiculous if I hadn't been so aware of WHY I've started becoming attracted to him - something that has NEVER happened to me before.
Those who know me know that I usually have NO clue why I like the guys that I do. This time, I know exactly why, and the reason is so solid that it terrifies me no end. Okay, I wouldn't classify him as good-looking, but he actually has substance this time.
Best part is, I have to force myself to act normal in front of him. I hate that. And I think he noticed something was wrong. I'm hoping not, though. It'd be soooo awkward! Sigh.
And, that folks, is the bad side of the unexpected.
*************
So you see? That's why all quotes shouldn't be taken at face value. The prosecution rests.
Court dismissed! Goodnight!
Let's look at the same quote in the 2 different contexts based on life experiences. (My life la, of course!)
*************
True
David and I were coerced into going for a youth retreat in Johor last week. I can tell you now that my reaction was "WHAT THE HELL FOR?!" I've been for gazillions of youth retreats and they're all the same - shallow, a bit fun, and VERY superficial.
Boy, was I wrong.
I went in expecting to be mildy entertained, and what I got was a slam bang "WAKE UP ELAINE!!" call. I think it shocked me into paying attention. Which is a good thing, because my life has pretty much been derailed for a long while now. And I finally got the shake to get me back on track.
Oh, and the youth there were definitely not what I was expecting. I'm so used to the clique-ishness of the KL crowd that it was a VERY refreshing surprise to note that the Johor youth welcomed Dave and me into their crowd without so much as a blink.
That = good unexpectedness.
False
I have an old friend. Who thus far has been nothing more than an old friend. Who was never particularly attractive either. But when I met said old friend again recently, my heart just went BOOM! Talk about an unpleasant shock.
And I think I know why - I've seen just how much more mature he is now, and how strong he is, and I can't deny that he's become so much more appealing than I ever remember him being. Which would be entirely ridiculous if I hadn't been so aware of WHY I've started becoming attracted to him - something that has NEVER happened to me before.
Those who know me know that I usually have NO clue why I like the guys that I do. This time, I know exactly why, and the reason is so solid that it terrifies me no end. Okay, I wouldn't classify him as good-looking, but he actually has substance this time.
Best part is, I have to force myself to act normal in front of him. I hate that. And I think he noticed something was wrong. I'm hoping not, though. It'd be soooo awkward! Sigh.
And, that folks, is the bad side of the unexpected.
*************
So you see? That's why all quotes shouldn't be taken at face value. The prosecution rests.
Court dismissed! Goodnight!
Saturday, May 27, 2006
TRIUMPH OF THE SOUL PATROL!
I know this is old news, but:
THE SOUL PATROL HAS CURED THE MCPHEEVER!!!!
Hahahaha! I love it, baby :D Y'know, I screamed so loud when Ryan Seacrest said "Taylor Hicks" that our maid came running from the kitchen - which is waaaay on the otherside of the house - to see what happened :P I think I scared her to death.
Teehee.
But but BUT, my FAVOURITEST (lol) part of the show, was BY FAR!, the "surprise" appearance by Clay Aiken. Have I ever told you that I'm in love with Clay Aiken and would marry him, like, now? Haha. Yeah. Well, now you know :D I'd marry him - even if he DOES kinda look like a Korean actor now (what's with the hairstyle, man? *shakes head*)
And Yin - he's mine! But if you want, I'll loan him to you on Monday.. since it's your birthday and all.... Haha.
CLAY AIKEN! WOOooOOHhOOO! He's MY American Idol. I love Elliott.. but Clay's still No. 1. Nombor Satu. Numero Uno. Er... I don't know any other languages so I'll shut up now.
AH YEA! The school holidays have started. WHOOPPEEE! 2 weeks of.. well, freedom of sorts. No school is ALWAYS a good thing. 'Cept that I'll have to work on my Math. Needless to say, I still suck at it. Big time.
OH! It's still the 26th isn't it?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JU LI AND DAVID!!!!
Amazing coincidence that my bro and best friend share the same birthday, ey? Weird! And they're turning into each other!!! It's so freaky...
Anyway. Gotta go now.
WooHOoooo! CLAY AIKEN! IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou!
Right. BYE!
THE SOUL PATROL HAS CURED THE MCPHEEVER!!!!
Hahahaha! I love it, baby :D Y'know, I screamed so loud when Ryan Seacrest said "Taylor Hicks" that our maid came running from the kitchen - which is waaaay on the otherside of the house - to see what happened :P I think I scared her to death.
Teehee.
But but BUT, my FAVOURITEST (lol) part of the show, was BY FAR!, the "surprise" appearance by Clay Aiken. Have I ever told you that I'm in love with Clay Aiken and would marry him, like, now? Haha. Yeah. Well, now you know :D I'd marry him - even if he DOES kinda look like a Korean actor now (what's with the hairstyle, man? *shakes head*)
And Yin - he's mine! But if you want, I'll loan him to you on Monday.. since it's your birthday and all.... Haha.
CLAY AIKEN! WOOooOOHhOOO! He's MY American Idol. I love Elliott.. but Clay's still No. 1. Nombor Satu. Numero Uno. Er... I don't know any other languages so I'll shut up now.
AH YEA! The school holidays have started. WHOOPPEEE! 2 weeks of.. well, freedom of sorts. No school is ALWAYS a good thing. 'Cept that I'll have to work on my Math. Needless to say, I still suck at it. Big time.
OH! It's still the 26th isn't it?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JU LI AND DAVID!!!!
Amazing coincidence that my bro and best friend share the same birthday, ey? Weird! And they're turning into each other!!! It's so freaky...
Anyway. Gotta go now.
WooHOoooo! CLAY AIKEN! IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou!
Right. BYE!
Thursday, May 25, 2006
SOULPATROLSOULPATROLSOULPATROL!
Bio and Chem are over. And so am I. My existence, I mean. Coz once the teachers read the rubbish I wrote, they'll be fighting among themselves for the right to kill me first. And whoever comes in second will re-kill me anyway.
I am serious.
Anyway, enough of that depressing stuff. Taylor Hicks completely blew me away today. I had goosebumps listening to the guy! And guess what - that's only ever happened to me when I watched Clay Aiken and Elliot Yamin sing. So.. Yeah.
GO SOUL PATROL!
On another note.. JU LI's COMING BACK IN 3 DAYS! WHOOOOPPEEEEEEE!
(Gratifying to know you're missed THAT much, eh Julesy? :P)
I can't wait to hang out with her again. I also can't believe 8 months have passed so fast. It's hard to believe when she left, I was just getting used to being in a completely new school, and missing her like CRAZY. I still miss her, but I'm used to the school now. Lovely people.
And I'm starting to sound like my cousin Ava. Not surprising, since she's been talking to me non-stop for at least 2 hours a day. Which is good. I've only seen her 4 times in my life, and one when I was so young, it's practically negligible. So yeah. LOADS of catching up to do. And it helps a lot that she makes all her "stories" so interesting.
Oh, and have I told you that this weekend, I'll be the brokest that I have ever been in my entire life? This is the reason:
Ju Li's birthday: May 26
David's birthday: May 26 (yeah, same date)
Yin's birthday: May 29
Someone tell me. How can I NOT be broke when I have 3 presents to by on the SAME weekend? Sigh. Not that I'm complaining about buying presents.. Just that.. Why'd you guys have to come out so close to each other, huh? Couldn't you have spared us poor souls a money-less stint by postponing the uh.. urge to come out?
LOL. Good lord. I have NO idea what I'm saying. Ignore me :D
Anyway, I think I'd better go now. Using my cousin's computer and I don't wanna overstay my welcome, so...
Oh and Ju. I have obviously updated :P Email me and give me the details of your arrival, and schedule for the next 2 weeks, aight?
Bye people!
I am serious.
Anyway, enough of that depressing stuff. Taylor Hicks completely blew me away today. I had goosebumps listening to the guy! And guess what - that's only ever happened to me when I watched Clay Aiken and Elliot Yamin sing. So.. Yeah.
GO SOUL PATROL!
On another note.. JU LI's COMING BACK IN 3 DAYS! WHOOOOPPEEEEEEE!
(Gratifying to know you're missed THAT much, eh Julesy? :P)
I can't wait to hang out with her again. I also can't believe 8 months have passed so fast. It's hard to believe when she left, I was just getting used to being in a completely new school, and missing her like CRAZY. I still miss her, but I'm used to the school now. Lovely people.
And I'm starting to sound like my cousin Ava. Not surprising, since she's been talking to me non-stop for at least 2 hours a day. Which is good. I've only seen her 4 times in my life, and one when I was so young, it's practically negligible. So yeah. LOADS of catching up to do. And it helps a lot that she makes all her "stories" so interesting.
Oh, and have I told you that this weekend, I'll be the brokest that I have ever been in my entire life? This is the reason:
Ju Li's birthday: May 26
David's birthday: May 26 (yeah, same date)
Yin's birthday: May 29
Someone tell me. How can I NOT be broke when I have 3 presents to by on the SAME weekend? Sigh. Not that I'm complaining about buying presents.. Just that.. Why'd you guys have to come out so close to each other, huh? Couldn't you have spared us poor souls a money-less stint by postponing the uh.. urge to come out?
LOL. Good lord. I have NO idea what I'm saying. Ignore me :D
Anyway, I think I'd better go now. Using my cousin's computer and I don't wanna overstay my welcome, so...
Oh and Ju. I have obviously updated :P Email me and give me the details of your arrival, and schedule for the next 2 weeks, aight?
Bye people!
Friday, May 19, 2006
OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :'(
Can you believe I'm in a cyber cafe? Sigh. It's sad when I have to resort to that. I really should start wheedling a computer (or prefarably a laptop hehe) from my mum. Beg whine and grovel, actually. I think she'll expect at least that. And probably end up saying no anyway. Ah! Woe is me!
David caught a viral infection. Again. It's really weird, coz these viral infections only show up on weekends. Therefore, me and Sharmo have come to the conclusion that David's actually the Las Vegas of the viral world. Weekend holidays for viruses. Y'know, "Viralville", to quote my darling cousin. And I must say, their timing is impeccable. Seems they know their host is more than happy to get sick on Sunday, and recover on Tuesday. LOL.
OH NO! Elliott's GONE!!! *sobs heart out* How COULD they?! HOW COULD THEY?! Oooooh the agony!! Sigh. I've decided I'm in the Soul Patrol camp. I think Kat's a little too full of herself for me. Much like Nita, except that Kat actually HAS a reason to be. Blah. But still, being full of yourself is no good in my books. But OOOOHHHH ELLIOTTT!!! *cries heart out*
Oh, I only know this coz I've been on the Idol webbie. Don't know if I'm gonna be home in time to catch the result show and there is NO WAY IN HELL I could wait til 8.
Yes I know I'm an addict.
Ah hell. I'm depressed now. I think I better go off. Sigh.
For the record, I seem to be having a thing for Canadian guys I can't see. Bah. Bloody Luc's spoiled me. Dammit.
Okaaay. No more nonsense. I promise.
Buhbye.
David caught a viral infection. Again. It's really weird, coz these viral infections only show up on weekends. Therefore, me and Sharmo have come to the conclusion that David's actually the Las Vegas of the viral world. Weekend holidays for viruses. Y'know, "Viralville", to quote my darling cousin. And I must say, their timing is impeccable. Seems they know their host is more than happy to get sick on Sunday, and recover on Tuesday. LOL.
OH NO! Elliott's GONE!!! *sobs heart out* How COULD they?! HOW COULD THEY?! Oooooh the agony!! Sigh. I've decided I'm in the Soul Patrol camp. I think Kat's a little too full of herself for me. Much like Nita, except that Kat actually HAS a reason to be. Blah. But still, being full of yourself is no good in my books. But OOOOHHHH ELLIOTTT!!! *cries heart out*
Oh, I only know this coz I've been on the Idol webbie. Don't know if I'm gonna be home in time to catch the result show and there is NO WAY IN HELL I could wait til 8.
Yes I know I'm an addict.
Ah hell. I'm depressed now. I think I better go off. Sigh.
For the record, I seem to be having a thing for Canadian guys I can't see. Bah. Bloody Luc's spoiled me. Dammit.
Okaaay. No more nonsense. I promise.
Buhbye.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Of 1st and 3rd Generation Women.. Sorta :)
I have a niece who is 2 weeks old today. Bernadine Rachel Thong Wern Lee.
OHMIGOSH.
I have a niece! That's an amazing thing in itself... Wow. You have no idea how exciting it is to have a new generation in the family. We're now back to having 3 generations!! Woooohooo!!!
And yeah - I'm her godmother :D Only thing I don't like about the role is the fact that people are referring to me as the "Godmother" (as in the "Godfather" *rolls eyes at the utter lameness of it*), courtesy of one Beng Beng a.k.a Teddy. He's, of course, promised me he'll never call me that again but... That's one promise he has yet to keep. YOU HEAR, BENG WEI?! [Su, help me out here. LOL.]
Anyway, back to the topic at hand... I want to see the kid so badly. Unfortunately something ALWAYS comes up. Sigh. First my grandma, now David's sick. I can't believe I haven't seen my goddaughter yet and she's been in this world for 2 whole weeks! I'm such a failure. *sniffles*
But needless to say, we're all so excited about having a little niece to dote upon. The way things are going now, she'll probably be spoiled rotten by the time she's old enough to say "mama". Haha... Having 15 aunties can do that to a kid :) Especially since at least 3 of those aunties have very soft spots for kids. Luckily though, most of her aunts are still teenagers, so we can't spoil her THAT much. Yet. Hehe.
Okay, this post is just for me to kill time... but funnily enough, I already love that kid without even seeing her. I suppose that's what family is, huh? :)
Goodnight all!
Oh and, one more thing:
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers!!!!
And just so the whole world knows,
I HAVE THE BEST MOTHER IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE!
I do, and you'd better believe it!
Okay, signing off now. Goodnight again! :)
OHMIGOSH.
I have a niece! That's an amazing thing in itself... Wow. You have no idea how exciting it is to have a new generation in the family. We're now back to having 3 generations!! Woooohooo!!!
And yeah - I'm her godmother :D Only thing I don't like about the role is the fact that people are referring to me as the "Godmother" (as in the "Godfather" *rolls eyes at the utter lameness of it*), courtesy of one Beng Beng a.k.a Teddy. He's, of course, promised me he'll never call me that again but... That's one promise he has yet to keep. YOU HEAR, BENG WEI?! [Su, help me out here. LOL.]
Anyway, back to the topic at hand... I want to see the kid so badly. Unfortunately something ALWAYS comes up. Sigh. First my grandma, now David's sick. I can't believe I haven't seen my goddaughter yet and she's been in this world for 2 whole weeks! I'm such a failure. *sniffles*
But needless to say, we're all so excited about having a little niece to dote upon. The way things are going now, she'll probably be spoiled rotten by the time she's old enough to say "mama". Haha... Having 15 aunties can do that to a kid :) Especially since at least 3 of those aunties have very soft spots for kids. Luckily though, most of her aunts are still teenagers, so we can't spoil her THAT much. Yet. Hehe.
Okay, this post is just for me to kill time... but funnily enough, I already love that kid without even seeing her. I suppose that's what family is, huh? :)
Goodnight all!
Oh and, one more thing:
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers!!!!
And just so the whole world knows,
I HAVE THE BEST MOTHER IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE!
I do, and you'd better believe it!
Okay, signing off now. Goodnight again! :)
Friday, May 12, 2006
YES!
I just had to post this:
ELLIOTT IS IN THE FINAL 3!!!!!!
Woooohooooo!
Okay, so I'm hoping like CRAZY he'll go all the way.. Fingers crossed people!
And remember: This is a singing contest, not a Mr. Universe contest - so there!
I LOVE ELLIOTT YAMIN! WoooooH!
ELLIOTT IS IN THE FINAL 3!!!!!!
Woooohooooo!
Okay, so I'm hoping like CRAZY he'll go all the way.. Fingers crossed people!
And remember: This is a singing contest, not a Mr. Universe contest - so there!
I LOVE ELLIOTT YAMIN! WoooooH!
Just So You Know..
MUET exams are over. Finally. It wouldn't be such a big deal, except for the high expectations all 'round. Y'know? Okay, so my English is a little better than average. But I'm horrible, HORRIBLE at speaking. My spoken English is so the rojak-ed that it can get a little weird. And there's proof enough in that sentence. Lol.
Sigh.
Anyway, I guess I should let all you people know this (yes, especially those who still seem to think I'm hung up on "someone"). I'm over him. 100%. I know you guys find it a bit hard to believe me, but please. Do. For both our sakes. Do the words "just friends" mean anything to you? And that's all we'll ever be.
And I've realised that I like the single life too much to want any form of relationship right now. Took me 19 years to reach that conclusion, but what the heck. It's a good one and I'm sticking to my resolve. This time. (Right, Ju, you can stop rolling your eyes right about now :P)
It's an amazing feeling, y'know? This whole being crushless thing. Now I'm free to er... "sight-see" :P *winks at Steph* We should go do that more often, girl! Haha.
I loved catching up with Jen, Ee May and Dav last Saturday. After which Dav, Jen and me went to the Evergreen hair saloon and did our hair. Just for the heck of it :P That was some random fun, eh girls? :)
Oh! And Ju's coming back in... just a little more than 2 weeks time. I CAN'T WAIT! My bestest friend in the whole wide world is coming back!!!! *giggles* I couldn't possibly sound more like a 7 year old now, could I? Oh well. But I AM glad she's coming back. And for THREE MONTHS! Oh boy, the awesomeness. [Must feel good to know you're missed so much, hey Julesy? :P And all this in spite of the fact that you liked the school cat more than me... *grins*]
Okay. Duty done for the day. Don't you DARE say I never update, Jules! ;)
And yeah, a reminder : I AM OVER HIM.
Thank you.
Sigh.
Anyway, I guess I should let all you people know this (yes, especially those who still seem to think I'm hung up on "someone"). I'm over him. 100%. I know you guys find it a bit hard to believe me, but please. Do. For both our sakes. Do the words "just friends" mean anything to you? And that's all we'll ever be.
And I've realised that I like the single life too much to want any form of relationship right now. Took me 19 years to reach that conclusion, but what the heck. It's a good one and I'm sticking to my resolve. This time. (Right, Ju, you can stop rolling your eyes right about now :P)
It's an amazing feeling, y'know? This whole being crushless thing. Now I'm free to er... "sight-see" :P *winks at Steph* We should go do that more often, girl! Haha.
I loved catching up with Jen, Ee May and Dav last Saturday. After which Dav, Jen and me went to the Evergreen hair saloon and did our hair. Just for the heck of it :P That was some random fun, eh girls? :)
Oh! And Ju's coming back in... just a little more than 2 weeks time. I CAN'T WAIT! My bestest friend in the whole wide world is coming back!!!! *giggles* I couldn't possibly sound more like a 7 year old now, could I? Oh well. But I AM glad she's coming back. And for THREE MONTHS! Oh boy, the awesomeness. [Must feel good to know you're missed so much, hey Julesy? :P And all this in spite of the fact that you liked the school cat more than me... *grins*]
Okay. Duty done for the day. Don't you DARE say I never update, Jules! ;)
And yeah, a reminder : I AM OVER HIM.
Thank you.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
I Posted! I POSTED!
It's May. I cannot believe I only posted ONCE in April! Me, the notorious obsessive-blogger. Will wonders never cease.
You know, it's weird. I'm changing. Pretty drastically, actually. I'm so reclusive now, it's bordering on the scary. I'm not writing anymore, and what I DO write is.. well, not worth reading, really.
Ah, self-pity is a beautiful thing, is it not? We should all wallow in it. Makes us better people. Really. You should try it sometime.
Now, is it not obvious that I've lost my mind?
Sigh. Why oh why did I choose Form 6? Should've just done psychology and be done with it. Unfortunately we live in Malaysia, where we have more nuts than nut houses and even less people who want to help them.
Oh, and not to mention that most nuts don't want to acknowledge their nuttiness. I'm just glad that the nuts I know actually LIKE being nuts, and admit to it. Otherwise I'd be pretty darned lonely. Hehe. Although.. I'm not so sure I want THESE nuts helped. They're much funner as nuts. Dontcha think so?
Lordy. It's been ages since I've written about nuts. Must've been in Form 5 the last time I did that. Sigh. It seems ages ago. I FEEL SO OLD! I'm 3 months closer to being 20. TWENTY!
ARRRGHHHHHH!
Am I overreacting? Am I? AM I?
I KNOW it's a little too early to be freaking out, but.. dammit. I don't want to grow up. I want to stay a kid. Forever.
No, scratch that. I like some of the stuff that comes with being older. Like being able to go out without being called every 2 seconds by worried parents. Like playing footsie which gorgeous guys under a table at Coffee Bean. (Yes, Jenna.. it happened ;P). Like finding out that I don't know of a single guy I would want to date on a long term basis. Or one who has the power to make me want him, for that matter. Oops. Am I supposed to be being positive here? Sorry.
It's so frustrating! The first guy I can actually see myself being cosy with is halfway across the world.. and the likelihood of either of us budging is.. well.. zero to none. SO THE SAD LA I TELL YOU!
*sniffles*
Haha.. Okay. Griping quota over for the day. Ahh.. it's good to gripe every once in awhile. Okay. Every twice, thrice or quadrupice in awhile. HAHA. KOK PUN! All your fault. I'm getting lamer by the second!
(I particularly like the random thought progression, don't you? :P)
I'll wrap up with this:
Elaine's Guide To Clueless Guys:
1. Pick up on the small things, little things she says and does that give you hints of who she is. Believe me, she'll appreciate it a hell of a lot more than 100 roses that wilt faster than you can say "humid".
2. She's gotta be a perfect 10 - or over that, prefarably - to you. Otherwise she'll always feel less than adequate. And if she is anything but beautiful in your eyes, chances are you don't love her as much as you'd like to think you do. Oh, and she'll know it, too!
3. Say clever but sweet things. Remember secret jokes and remind her of them. She'll be thrilled that you remember.
4. Compliment her SINCERELY! If you exaggerate or make your compliments all flamboyant and too far-fetched (even for an apparently love-struck male), she'll never know when you're being serious and when you're not. And she'll end up being unsure of how real your compliments are.
Those are just a few tips I could think of. I know I'm fussy, but I believe in all or nothing. There was once a guy did all of the above, and believe me, it was AMAZING. Pity 'bout the circumstances, though.
Oh gosh. This one's a long one. I think I'd better stop, or you guys will wish I'll never write again. Ever.
Haha.
Bye, babes!
You know, it's weird. I'm changing. Pretty drastically, actually. I'm so reclusive now, it's bordering on the scary. I'm not writing anymore, and what I DO write is.. well, not worth reading, really.
Ah, self-pity is a beautiful thing, is it not? We should all wallow in it. Makes us better people. Really. You should try it sometime.
Now, is it not obvious that I've lost my mind?
Sigh. Why oh why did I choose Form 6? Should've just done psychology and be done with it. Unfortunately we live in Malaysia, where we have more nuts than nut houses and even less people who want to help them.
Oh, and not to mention that most nuts don't want to acknowledge their nuttiness. I'm just glad that the nuts I know actually LIKE being nuts, and admit to it. Otherwise I'd be pretty darned lonely. Hehe. Although.. I'm not so sure I want THESE nuts helped. They're much funner as nuts. Dontcha think so?
Lordy. It's been ages since I've written about nuts. Must've been in Form 5 the last time I did that. Sigh. It seems ages ago. I FEEL SO OLD! I'm 3 months closer to being 20. TWENTY!
ARRRGHHHHHH!
Am I overreacting? Am I? AM I?
I KNOW it's a little too early to be freaking out, but.. dammit. I don't want to grow up. I want to stay a kid. Forever.
No, scratch that. I like some of the stuff that comes with being older. Like being able to go out without being called every 2 seconds by worried parents. Like playing footsie which gorgeous guys under a table at Coffee Bean. (Yes, Jenna.. it happened ;P). Like finding out that I don't know of a single guy I would want to date on a long term basis. Or one who has the power to make me want him, for that matter. Oops. Am I supposed to be being positive here? Sorry.
It's so frustrating! The first guy I can actually see myself being cosy with is halfway across the world.. and the likelihood of either of us budging is.. well.. zero to none. SO THE SAD LA I TELL YOU!
*sniffles*
Haha.. Okay. Griping quota over for the day. Ahh.. it's good to gripe every once in awhile. Okay. Every twice, thrice or quadrupice in awhile. HAHA. KOK PUN! All your fault. I'm getting lamer by the second!
(I particularly like the random thought progression, don't you? :P)
I'll wrap up with this:
Elaine's Guide To Clueless Guys:
1. Pick up on the small things, little things she says and does that give you hints of who she is. Believe me, she'll appreciate it a hell of a lot more than 100 roses that wilt faster than you can say "humid".
2. She's gotta be a perfect 10 - or over that, prefarably - to you. Otherwise she'll always feel less than adequate. And if she is anything but beautiful in your eyes, chances are you don't love her as much as you'd like to think you do. Oh, and she'll know it, too!
3. Say clever but sweet things. Remember secret jokes and remind her of them. She'll be thrilled that you remember.
4. Compliment her SINCERELY! If you exaggerate or make your compliments all flamboyant and too far-fetched (even for an apparently love-struck male), she'll never know when you're being serious and when you're not. And she'll end up being unsure of how real your compliments are.
Those are just a few tips I could think of. I know I'm fussy, but I believe in all or nothing. There was once a guy did all of the above, and believe me, it was AMAZING. Pity 'bout the circumstances, though.
Oh gosh. This one's a long one. I think I'd better stop, or you guys will wish I'll never write again. Ever.
Haha.
Bye, babes!
Saturday, April 22, 2006
The 21st Day
Okay, so I know I've been lousy at updating. 3 weeks, if my brain doesn't fail me. A personal record. Sigh. I haven't been writing coz I just don't know what to write! Or rather, HOW to write it. Do you know what that means? Do you? It means... I CAN'T WRITE ANYMORE!
*sobs* *heart breaks*
Ah melodrama. How I miss the days when I could do it properly. God, I used to be such a drama queen! I wonder where that part of me's gone...
ANYWAY.
Time to catch up on stuff... 3 whole weeks of it! *shakes head in wonder*
Random Things Elaine Thinks You Should Know Whether You Want To Or Not
1. Rat dissection isn't as gross as one would think it is. Aside from the fact after about 5 minutes they start to stink like soiled sanitary napkins. And we have to continue cutting them up for at least another 1/2 an hour. Or more. If you're fastidious enough to endure the stink.
I'm not exactly proving my case, am I? Lol.
2. I've written Jules TWICE, but haven't gotten 'round to posting them letters yet *sheepish grin* So Ju, if you're suddenly flooded with letters, you'll know what happened :P
3. Elaine has just discovered that she can cry - because of a song! And no, it isn't one about heartbreak, either. She cries to Michael Bolton's Butterfly Kisses.
[The reason Elaine has switched to the 3rd person is self-explanatory.]
4. Oh! Big news! I am currently crush free! Yep, folks. The all-time crush maniac has taken a much needed vacation. And for those of you who don't believe me - well, BELIEVE ME, dammit!
Lol.
5. As I'm sure you all know, point No. 4 is - under normal circumstances - a near impossibility. Therefore, said person has been diagnosed with a severe case of "romance-novelitis". What is THAT, you might ask. Well, it is a condition caused by the reading of too many, well, romance novels.
And the problem with that is... This. The guys in romance novels (as any girl will tell you) are virtually PERFECT. Smart, sensitive, funny, strong, understanding, romantic, gorgeous, TALL, and COMPLETELY masculine. Oh, and most of them can cook, too.
Of course, to find someone like that in real life is... also a near impossibility. No one said the patient wasn't delusional. It just means that the guys she knows don't cut it - for now.
[For the record, though, this diagnosis is merely temporary. I'm more than sure the symptoms will let up after awhile. After all, this IS Ms. Elaine Fernandez we're talking about!]
6. I miss MGS soooo much! I do I do I surely do! I miss prefect briefings every morning (even though we had to be in school before 7 a.m.), I miss grumbling about everything from our juniors, to boys, to teachers.., I miss laughing and talking and laughing some more with the Insanely Sane, I miss choir practice, and most of all, I miss the CLOSENESS. Ah, MGS. Truly, the MGS spirit never dies in true MGSians. No, sirree!
[Is it just me or does my writing style really change with each paragraph? :S]
7. I love American Idol this year. I want Elliott to win, of course, but I think the Top 6 are all fantastic in their own way, and as long as Kellie doesn't win, I'll be happy. Lol.
Okay. I'm gonna have coffee with me mum. Excuse me while I argue with her about who has to make the coffee this time. (It's HER turn, I swear it is!)
Bye people! Until next time... (Which won't be too long away... I hope :P)
*sobs* *heart breaks*
Ah melodrama. How I miss the days when I could do it properly. God, I used to be such a drama queen! I wonder where that part of me's gone...
ANYWAY.
Time to catch up on stuff... 3 whole weeks of it! *shakes head in wonder*
Random Things Elaine Thinks You Should Know Whether You Want To Or Not
1. Rat dissection isn't as gross as one would think it is. Aside from the fact after about 5 minutes they start to stink like soiled sanitary napkins. And we have to continue cutting them up for at least another 1/2 an hour. Or more. If you're fastidious enough to endure the stink.
I'm not exactly proving my case, am I? Lol.
2. I've written Jules TWICE, but haven't gotten 'round to posting them letters yet *sheepish grin* So Ju, if you're suddenly flooded with letters, you'll know what happened :P
3. Elaine has just discovered that she can cry - because of a song! And no, it isn't one about heartbreak, either. She cries to Michael Bolton's Butterfly Kisses.
[The reason Elaine has switched to the 3rd person is self-explanatory.]
4. Oh! Big news! I am currently crush free! Yep, folks. The all-time crush maniac has taken a much needed vacation. And for those of you who don't believe me - well, BELIEVE ME, dammit!
Lol.
5. As I'm sure you all know, point No. 4 is - under normal circumstances - a near impossibility. Therefore, said person has been diagnosed with a severe case of "romance-novelitis". What is THAT, you might ask. Well, it is a condition caused by the reading of too many, well, romance novels.
And the problem with that is... This. The guys in romance novels (as any girl will tell you) are virtually PERFECT. Smart, sensitive, funny, strong, understanding, romantic, gorgeous, TALL, and COMPLETELY masculine. Oh, and most of them can cook, too.
Of course, to find someone like that in real life is... also a near impossibility. No one said the patient wasn't delusional. It just means that the guys she knows don't cut it - for now.
[For the record, though, this diagnosis is merely temporary. I'm more than sure the symptoms will let up after awhile. After all, this IS Ms. Elaine Fernandez we're talking about!]
6. I miss MGS soooo much! I do I do I surely do! I miss prefect briefings every morning (even though we had to be in school before 7 a.m.), I miss grumbling about everything from our juniors, to boys, to teachers.., I miss laughing and talking and laughing some more with the Insanely Sane, I miss choir practice, and most of all, I miss the CLOSENESS. Ah, MGS. Truly, the MGS spirit never dies in true MGSians. No, sirree!
[Is it just me or does my writing style really change with each paragraph? :S]
7. I love American Idol this year. I want Elliott to win, of course, but I think the Top 6 are all fantastic in their own way, and as long as Kellie doesn't win, I'll be happy. Lol.
Okay. I'm gonna have coffee with me mum. Excuse me while I argue with her about who has to make the coffee this time. (It's HER turn, I swear it is!)
Bye people! Until next time... (Which won't be too long away... I hope :P)
Saturday, April 01, 2006
I Back
Hey all! I'm back!
Well, for the time being anyway. I can't believe I haven't blogged for so long.. It's weird to start again. Sigh. That's the whole problem with not having regular access to a computer. When I DO get on, I rarely have the time - or the urge, for that matter - to write anything.
The couple of weeks when I DIDN'T write, I had so much that I wanted to write. Now, though, it's just all flown out of my head. Sigh. Sad, ain't it.
One of the few nice things that've happened over these past 2 weeks or so is the fact that I got to play netball again, if only for awhile. Gosh, I love that game! Maybe it's coz it's one of the few - FEW, mind - games that I'm relatively good at. Oh, and I've been asked to coach the school netball team. LOL! Beat that :P I was shocked, too. I know, I know. DON'T LAUGH!
Oh, ol' Sharm's gone for National Service, the poor bored soul. But goodness. I think I saw her almost everyday, the 2 months or so that she was around. Was like she never left :) Although.... my cash DID run out pretty quickly. Both of us, actually. Accumulated mamak trips can turn out to be darned hard on the slow-to-be-refilled pocket.
7 months to go til D Day. Seven. Tujuh. Sieben. Or however it's spelt. Gosh oh gosh. That ain't all that much time, come to think of it. Which is both a blessing and a curse, I guess. Although it'll ened soon, it also means less time to prepare. And boy, do I have my work cut out for me! And the miniscule number of people getting straight As are pretty discouraging too. I know getting A minuses or Bs are already pretty darn good for this standard, but to get a 4.0 is the only way anyone is even guaranteed consideration to courses of our choice in uni. Sigh.
Oh well. I hope I can write again soon, and about something more worth reading, too. Seems like I don't have much to say anymore. Sigh. Oh WHAT is happening to my writing?! *sniffles*
All righty then. G'night.
Well, for the time being anyway. I can't believe I haven't blogged for so long.. It's weird to start again. Sigh. That's the whole problem with not having regular access to a computer. When I DO get on, I rarely have the time - or the urge, for that matter - to write anything.
The couple of weeks when I DIDN'T write, I had so much that I wanted to write. Now, though, it's just all flown out of my head. Sigh. Sad, ain't it.
One of the few nice things that've happened over these past 2 weeks or so is the fact that I got to play netball again, if only for awhile. Gosh, I love that game! Maybe it's coz it's one of the few - FEW, mind - games that I'm relatively good at. Oh, and I've been asked to coach the school netball team. LOL! Beat that :P I was shocked, too. I know, I know. DON'T LAUGH!
Oh, ol' Sharm's gone for National Service, the poor bored soul. But goodness. I think I saw her almost everyday, the 2 months or so that she was around. Was like she never left :) Although.... my cash DID run out pretty quickly. Both of us, actually. Accumulated mamak trips can turn out to be darned hard on the slow-to-be-refilled pocket.
7 months to go til D Day. Seven. Tujuh. Sieben. Or however it's spelt. Gosh oh gosh. That ain't all that much time, come to think of it. Which is both a blessing and a curse, I guess. Although it'll ened soon, it also means less time to prepare. And boy, do I have my work cut out for me! And the miniscule number of people getting straight As are pretty discouraging too. I know getting A minuses or Bs are already pretty darn good for this standard, but to get a 4.0 is the only way anyone is even guaranteed consideration to courses of our choice in uni. Sigh.
Oh well. I hope I can write again soon, and about something more worth reading, too. Seems like I don't have much to say anymore. Sigh. Oh WHAT is happening to my writing?! *sniffles*
All righty then. G'night.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Updato!
I haven't written in AGES. Wow. I don't know what's happening to me. Writing skills going down the drain lately. I'm scared.
Anyhow, a recap of the odd things that've happened this past 2 weeks.
- Being broke in Sunway Pyramid. Literally. Sharm and I had only 60 cents between us by the end of the day. We had to buy dinner with a McD's coupon for crying out loud! God bless free refills!
- I now officially have mum's car with me in PJ. HAHA! Awesome, no? Although... I don't exactly have time to appreciate the actual awesomeness of it all...
- One week before exam. 3 days of maxed out pain. Get-out-of-bed-and-risk-spewing-bile grade pain. And on the days I'd scheduled to study Chemistry, too. Not surprising that my teacher just informed my friend and me that, "if either of you get over 50, you should belanja (re: treat) each other!" OUCH!
- I have just proven my theory that if you've got an amazing singing voice, but look like a Middle Eastern pixie, I'll fall in love with you anyway. LONG LIVE ELLIOT YAMIN! (Maybe being a dentist's daughter has a something to do with it.. those teeth! They're a goldmine! *cackles*)
- I have actually found my perfect guy. Physically, that is. And dammit. I cannot get my hands on him! That, folks, is the most frustrating thing - EVER. And no, he's no celeb.
- I'm losing my patience. I have quite a short temper to begin with. And it's getting shorter by the day. I'll blow myself up one of these days if I'm not careful.
- I have a screwed up bowling average. The mean of my scores is not in the least reliable. I shall have to make a chart and find the median. And possibly make a boxplot.
Oh gosh. You know I'm losing it if I voluntarily talk about Math. I shall stop here. Will update when I feel like it. Which may not be so soon at the rate I'm going these days. Sigh.
Whatever the case... I love you ALL! Much peace and love all around. Whee.
Anyhow, a recap of the odd things that've happened this past 2 weeks.
- Being broke in Sunway Pyramid. Literally. Sharm and I had only 60 cents between us by the end of the day. We had to buy dinner with a McD's coupon for crying out loud! God bless free refills!
- I now officially have mum's car with me in PJ. HAHA! Awesome, no? Although... I don't exactly have time to appreciate the actual awesomeness of it all...
- One week before exam. 3 days of maxed out pain. Get-out-of-bed-and-risk-spewing-bile grade pain. And on the days I'd scheduled to study Chemistry, too. Not surprising that my teacher just informed my friend and me that, "if either of you get over 50, you should belanja (re: treat) each other!" OUCH!
- I have just proven my theory that if you've got an amazing singing voice, but look like a Middle Eastern pixie, I'll fall in love with you anyway. LONG LIVE ELLIOT YAMIN! (Maybe being a dentist's daughter has a something to do with it.. those teeth! They're a goldmine! *cackles*)
- I have actually found my perfect guy. Physically, that is. And dammit. I cannot get my hands on him! That, folks, is the most frustrating thing - EVER. And no, he's no celeb.
- I'm losing my patience. I have quite a short temper to begin with. And it's getting shorter by the day. I'll blow myself up one of these days if I'm not careful.
- I have a screwed up bowling average. The mean of my scores is not in the least reliable. I shall have to make a chart and find the median. And possibly make a boxplot.
Oh gosh. You know I'm losing it if I voluntarily talk about Math. I shall stop here. Will update when I feel like it. Which may not be so soon at the rate I'm going these days. Sigh.
Whatever the case... I love you ALL! Much peace and love all around. Whee.
Saturday, February 25, 2006
PnP
I just watched Pride and Prejudice. Oh. My. God.
Matthew Macfadyen Is SO HOT!!!!
*swoons*
Oh, and for those uninformed, he's the guy who played Mr. Darcy. But oh woe is me! He's married. Sigh.
Okay. I'm being ridiculous. But honestly.. DAMN! Vinder baby you were SO right. I love love love love love the guy!
So much for not being ridiculous. Muahahaha!
I know this is a sorry excuse of a post, but I'm not much in a writing mood right now so.... Will write when I actually feel like it!
MatthewMacfadyenMatthewMacfadyenMatthewMacfadyen....
Matthew Macfadyen Is SO HOT!!!!
*swoons*
Oh, and for those uninformed, he's the guy who played Mr. Darcy. But oh woe is me! He's married. Sigh.
Okay. I'm being ridiculous. But honestly.. DAMN! Vinder baby you were SO right. I love love love love love the guy!
So much for not being ridiculous. Muahahaha!
I know this is a sorry excuse of a post, but I'm not much in a writing mood right now so.... Will write when I actually feel like it!
MatthewMacfadyenMatthewMacfadyenMatthewMacfadyen....
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
V Day!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
To all of you who have Valentines - LUCKY YOU.
To the rest of you (me included.. lol) - just be happy that you don't have to fork out big bucks today! [Save that for my birthday! *insert innocent, angelic face* Hehehe.]
I love you guys!!!
To all of you who have Valentines - LUCKY YOU.
To the rest of you (me included.. lol) - just be happy that you don't have to fork out big bucks today! [Save that for my birthday! *insert innocent, angelic face* Hehehe.]
I love you guys!!!
Sunday, February 12, 2006
The JETTY!
The (in)famous jetty! Doesn't it look awesome? And believe me, it's even better when you're there!
We took loads of *ahem* amazing pictures there (cam whores that we are).. But I have yet to receive them from Steph, so I'll only be able to put 'em up when I do.
Anyway, short one this time. Gotta go back to PJ.
Thursday, February 09, 2006
No!
It burns us, precious, it burns!
Oh lord. I can't think, I can't feel.. Or maybe it's just that I'm feeling too much. It's insane. I don't want to feel this way. I want it to stop.
Why did I let myself fall into this trap? I knew it would lead nowhere - I KNEW. But I still went ahead and did it. Now I'm stuck in a quagmire of "could have been"s. It isn't pleasant. No sirree.
Do you know the feeling of wanting to cry but never being able to? Of having only one thing on your mind all the damn day long? And worse - of wanting something you know you can never ever have, not in this lifetime, unless some change of fate and circumstance allows it.
Dammit. Why did I allow myself to get into this? Knowing the consequences. I'd do anything - ANYTHING to get back that chance... or even to create a new one. But I can't. It's out of my power - no longer my decision. And the decision was made.
So it was not meant to be. I should just swallow it up and face up to it. It's difficult. It's damned difficult.
To see him, just to hear his voice one more time.. Damn. I really would do anything. But now, it's too late.
He's gone.
Oh lord. I can't think, I can't feel.. Or maybe it's just that I'm feeling too much. It's insane. I don't want to feel this way. I want it to stop.
Why did I let myself fall into this trap? I knew it would lead nowhere - I KNEW. But I still went ahead and did it. Now I'm stuck in a quagmire of "could have been"s. It isn't pleasant. No sirree.
Do you know the feeling of wanting to cry but never being able to? Of having only one thing on your mind all the damn day long? And worse - of wanting something you know you can never ever have, not in this lifetime, unless some change of fate and circumstance allows it.
Dammit. Why did I allow myself to get into this? Knowing the consequences. I'd do anything - ANYTHING to get back that chance... or even to create a new one. But I can't. It's out of my power - no longer my decision. And the decision was made.
So it was not meant to be. I should just swallow it up and face up to it. It's difficult. It's damned difficult.
To see him, just to hear his voice one more time.. Damn. I really would do anything. But now, it's too late.
He's gone.
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