Nana

I can't write much right now coz I'm running out of time.. Er. That didn't sound right. I'm just using my cousins' comp, and I have to go home now, is all.

SO. A lot of things have been going on lately, not all of it good. It's been a tough month or so, and just last week my grandmother, whom I've been helping to look after a little, passed away on the 2nd of August. She was 92, so she's lived a good long life. I know that, and I also know that she's in a better place, free from all the pain and suffering that is part of this life.

However, I can't help missing her presence in my life. It feels so weird, especially since there was a time when I couldn't stand spending so much time with her. But now, I'm glad that I did. I have memories that no one else will ever have of her, and I can reassure myself that she knew I cared, right up to the end.

It's still pretty hard to accept - she's been a fixture in my life for 19 years, a constant, if you will. But now she's gone. And a whole generation with her. I never did get to learn the songs she wanted to teach me "when she got better", or her cream puffs and custards, which she was supposed to teach me to make during the holidays. A lot of wasted chances, and I guess the regrets are just starting to surface, since the fact that she's gone forever is only just starting to sink in.

Anyway, I'll end this depressing thing now. But I have absolute faith that she's happier now than she's ever been in her looong life. And I really do thank God for that.

Bye peeps.. I LOVE YOU ALL!