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There's always a price to pay. No matter how long it takes. There's always a price. I understand that now. I just never thought it would hurt quite this much. But I deserve it. So I shan't complain. I brought this upon myself and have no other but me to blame.

Hm

How strange that time is so relative. When I see 7 minutes remaining on a series, I know there's a whole bunch of stuff still left to happen. 7 minutes left on a deadline is almost negligible. Wonder why.

Walls

I need clarity. Focus. Something. I woke up from a dream that's left me a tad disoriented but at the same time, it made hilariously aware that some things are quite deeply ingrained, even in my subconscious. I'm trying my best to learn. To remain two steps back. So much so I'm getting good at building walls. I doubt it's healthy but it helps keep me sane for the moment. No one needs to know how what they do affects me. Why should they? Life is complicated enough as it is. Funny how I never was this way til last year. But people change, I suppose. I just guard myself more than I used to. Is that so bad? Considering the alternative, I don't think so.