1. At Lunch Time, Sit in Your Parked Car with Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer at Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down.
2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice.
3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries with that.
4. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It "In".
5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once everyone has gotten over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso.
6. In the Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write "For Smuggling Diamonds"
7. Finish All Your sentences with "In Accordance With the Prophecy."
8. Don't use any punctuation
9. as Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk.
10. Order diet water with a serious face whenever you go out to eat.
11. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is "To Go."
12. Sing Along At The Opera.
13. Go To A Poetry Recital And Ask Why The Poems Don't Rhyme.
14. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play Tropical Sounds All Day.
15. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You're not in the Mood.
16. Have Your Co-workers Address You by Your Wrestling Name, Rock Bottom.
17. When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream "I Won! I Won!"
18. When Leaving the Zoo, Start Running towards the Parking lot, yelling "Run for Your Lives, They're Loose!!"
19. Tell Your Children Over Dinner, "Due To the Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go."
Growing older is mandatory, Growing up is optional, and Laughing at yourself is therapeutic!
~ Another bulletin, courtesy of Friendster ~
PS: The time on these 2 posts are a lil off.. can't seem to change the time, so don't worry. I'm not writing this at 5 or 6 a.m. Lol.
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Dumdeedoo
Short one today. A bit lazy to write at the mo.. LOL.
Saw Harry Potter on Monday with the cousins, David and Donovan. I must say GOF is DEFINITELY a much better movie than the other 3. Oh I know, I hate the fact that they altered so much of it (NO WINKY!!! HOW DARE THEY?!) but all the same, it was a much much nicer watch. Not boring at all.
Yesterday was "stay at home and watch TV day". A LOT of TV. I won't say how much though. I can't quite remember either. But I do know I should quit watching so much TV. Oh.. and I finished reading the Lord of the Rings book (which I've just gotten back after a YEAR of separation.. *sobs* my precious!!) for the um... Okay. I can't remember how many-th time. LOL. Let's just say it's a lot-th.
And today! The great Lord of the Rings movie marathon! Participants: Me, I Ting, I Yin. Challenge: Watch all 3 without falling asleep by tomorrow morning. And so far, we've finished 7 discs out of 12 :D How cool's that! Only 5 more to go! We can do it!
Well.. it's been fun. Especially when Miss Lim I Ting asks questions that 2 seconds BEFORE she asks the question, was answered in the movie. LOL! The ears are made for listening.... Hehe.
Yay! Vinder's coming back! I know she hates the idea.. but whaddaheck. It'll be awesome to have her back. Really missed you, girlie!!!!!!!
Okay.. lazier now. Ta all!
Saw Harry Potter on Monday with the cousins, David and Donovan. I must say GOF is DEFINITELY a much better movie than the other 3. Oh I know, I hate the fact that they altered so much of it (NO WINKY!!! HOW DARE THEY?!) but all the same, it was a much much nicer watch. Not boring at all.
Yesterday was "stay at home and watch TV day". A LOT of TV. I won't say how much though. I can't quite remember either. But I do know I should quit watching so much TV. Oh.. and I finished reading the Lord of the Rings book (which I've just gotten back after a YEAR of separation.. *sobs* my precious!!) for the um... Okay. I can't remember how many-th time. LOL. Let's just say it's a lot-th.
And today! The great Lord of the Rings movie marathon! Participants: Me, I Ting, I Yin. Challenge: Watch all 3 without falling asleep by tomorrow morning. And so far, we've finished 7 discs out of 12 :D How cool's that! Only 5 more to go! We can do it!
Well.. it's been fun. Especially when Miss Lim I Ting asks questions that 2 seconds BEFORE she asks the question, was answered in the movie. LOL! The ears are made for listening.... Hehe.
Yay! Vinder's coming back! I know she hates the idea.. but whaddaheck. It'll be awesome to have her back. Really missed you, girlie!!!!!!!
Okay.. lazier now. Ta all!
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Jumbled Thoughts
I'm confused. If you consider someone a friend.. would you ignore them? Or at least ignore them until THEY came up and spoke to you. Or smsed you. Or whatever. Does that seem like a friendship to you?
Why would you WANT that sort of friendship? Where you, for some reason, don't think you can trust the other person to respect your wishes? Because it's really obvious that you don't. The wary look in your eyes says it all.
You do realize, don't you, that friendship takes work? On BOTH sides. The other person can't always be the one saying "hi" first, or smiling at you first, or catching your eye. YOU have to put in some sort of effort, too. Otherwise there is no way you can even begin to call that person a friend.
Also another thing. I've played around with the idea of "desperation". But then, isn't being desperate grabbing the first thing that comes along? Isn't it being fine with anything, as long as there's SOMETHING?
But I don't think I can settle for just anything. Oh believe me, I've tried thinking about it.. as in contemplating someone else. But it just doesn't work. For some reason, only one seems to cut it for me. No one else can. Apparently. At this point. Maybe a few days, weeks, months, years down the road... I don't know. But now? I am only haunted by one person. I can't change that and it sucks!
Wouldn't it be easier for it just to be a case of "damn, I need A guy!" as opposed to, "damn! I need THAT guy!" Sigh. But of course, life's like that so... suck it up, I will! Sometimes I have to remind myself that some things just aren't worth pining over. Except that my idiotic, brainless (d'oh) heart keeps telling me that it MIGHT be worth it.
Blah. Oh well. I shall enjoy myself. Or at least try to, what with all this er.. "emotional baggage" lying around. And for the record, this whole thing's the LEAST of my problems. 'Cept that it could well be the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back. Not that I'm a camel. Metaphorically. But, you knew that. Duh.
Okay bye bye. Nonsensical rambling's over.
Why would you WANT that sort of friendship? Where you, for some reason, don't think you can trust the other person to respect your wishes? Because it's really obvious that you don't. The wary look in your eyes says it all.
You do realize, don't you, that friendship takes work? On BOTH sides. The other person can't always be the one saying "hi" first, or smiling at you first, or catching your eye. YOU have to put in some sort of effort, too. Otherwise there is no way you can even begin to call that person a friend.
Also another thing. I've played around with the idea of "desperation". But then, isn't being desperate grabbing the first thing that comes along? Isn't it being fine with anything, as long as there's SOMETHING?
But I don't think I can settle for just anything. Oh believe me, I've tried thinking about it.. as in contemplating someone else. But it just doesn't work. For some reason, only one seems to cut it for me. No one else can. Apparently. At this point. Maybe a few days, weeks, months, years down the road... I don't know. But now? I am only haunted by one person. I can't change that and it sucks!
Wouldn't it be easier for it just to be a case of "damn, I need A guy!" as opposed to, "damn! I need THAT guy!" Sigh. But of course, life's like that so... suck it up, I will! Sometimes I have to remind myself that some things just aren't worth pining over. Except that my idiotic, brainless (d'oh) heart keeps telling me that it MIGHT be worth it.
Blah. Oh well. I shall enjoy myself. Or at least try to, what with all this er.. "emotional baggage" lying around. And for the record, this whole thing's the LEAST of my problems. 'Cept that it could well be the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back. Not that I'm a camel. Metaphorically. But, you knew that. Duh.
Okay bye bye. Nonsensical rambling's over.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Whatever.
I'm sorry 'bout the depressing nature of the last written post, i.e. not the lovey-dovey one. I don't know what's wrong with me lately. Sigh. But I guess it's true that bad things don't happen one by one... they just sort of pile up on you til you can't breathe.
Oh lordy. I'm being depressing again. Bit difficult to think about cheerful things at this time, though. Although one thing to be thankful for is that we're ALMOST done with our ecology project.. Just a thing or two here and there. And I'm still waiting for a reply from JY at this time - I need that folio! Sigh. The faster I get it, the faster I can get this over and done with.
I'm tired. I really am. It's difficult to find something to feel happy about, or look forward to. I don't have the strength to fight this depression. I don't see the point... coz everytime I manage to crawl out of it, something else pops up and down down down I go again. It's just not worth the effort.
I guess things'll get better in their own time. Honestly, they can hardly get worse. Or wait. They can, but that's a pretty far-fetched scenario, thank God.
Anyway, I shall leave you with the chorus of my current favourite song from Westlife's Face to Face album (which isn't as good as the first 2, but a little better than Turnaround :P). Song's called "In This Life". I love it! Bye peeps.
Oh lordy. I'm being depressing again. Bit difficult to think about cheerful things at this time, though. Although one thing to be thankful for is that we're ALMOST done with our ecology project.. Just a thing or two here and there. And I'm still waiting for a reply from JY at this time - I need that folio! Sigh. The faster I get it, the faster I can get this over and done with.
I'm tired. I really am. It's difficult to find something to feel happy about, or look forward to. I don't have the strength to fight this depression. I don't see the point... coz everytime I manage to crawl out of it, something else pops up and down down down I go again. It's just not worth the effort.
I guess things'll get better in their own time. Honestly, they can hardly get worse. Or wait. They can, but that's a pretty far-fetched scenario, thank God.
Anyway, I shall leave you with the chorus of my current favourite song from Westlife's Face to Face album (which isn't as good as the first 2, but a little better than Turnaround :P). Song's called "In This Life". I love it! Bye peeps.
Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you
"Thoughts On Love"
There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world, it's the beginning of a new life.
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives.
A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for him, it's when he ignores you and still you long for him. It's when he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say I'm happy for you.
If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.
The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize there should never be regrets, only a life-long appreciation of the choices you've made.
A true friend understands when you say, I forgot, waits forever when you say, just a minute, stays when you say leave me alone, opens the door even before you knock and say can I come in?
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever.
In love, very rarely do we win but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself.
There comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we let go.
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available.
Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around.
Best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.
Sometimes the one you love turns out to be the one who hurts you the most, and sometimes the friend who takes you into his arms and cries when you cry turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted.
If you really love someone never let go, don't believe that letting go means that you love best, instead fight for your love, that's what true love is.
(PS from Me: I didn't write this, but I agree with it.. so.. Yeah. Another bulletin from Friendster.)
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives.
A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for him, it's when he ignores you and still you long for him. It's when he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say I'm happy for you.
If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.
The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize there should never be regrets, only a life-long appreciation of the choices you've made.
A true friend understands when you say, I forgot, waits forever when you say, just a minute, stays when you say leave me alone, opens the door even before you knock and say can I come in?
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever.
In love, very rarely do we win but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself.
There comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we let go.
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available.
Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around.
Best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.
Sometimes the one you love turns out to be the one who hurts you the most, and sometimes the friend who takes you into his arms and cries when you cry turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted.
If you really love someone never let go, don't believe that letting go means that you love best, instead fight for your love, that's what true love is.
(PS from Me: I didn't write this, but I agree with it.. so.. Yeah. Another bulletin from Friendster.)
Friday, November 25, 2005
Brain Dead
I am exhausted. Which is weird, coz I slept for 14 hours yesterday. But then again, I only slept for 45 minutes the day before, so I guess it's to be expected.
I don't know why my sleeping patterns are so weird. Or maybe I do. See, a person's life isn't always what it looks like on the surface. There are loads of things going on.. and sometimes, it isn't the things that happen TO you that keep you up at night, rather the things happening around you, to the people around you.
In my case, it's a lot of the latter, and a little of thr former. But I don't know which is affecting me more. What I do know, though, is my sanity is being bombarded from all sides, and I don't know how much more I can take before more than my sleeping patterns get screwed up.
I know I could be overreacting to one or two things, but it's kind of hard NOT to when so many other things are happening at the same time. I wish I could be 100 % open about what they are, but privacy doesn't permit me to, so I shall have to be satisfied with this.
It's funny... there is something going on now that I could normally handle. I should normally be able to. I'm guessing that it's affecting me more than it should because of all the other shit going on.
Or at least that's what I'm trying to convince myself of. Because the alternative is something I would much rather not consider. That it's affecting me because I "care" too much. Not a pretty thought, that one. At least, not under THESE circumstances.
I'm sorry for being so cryptic, but you must understand that I have no choice. I have no other outlet. Writing in my diary hasn't helped, so I guess trying this is one of my limited options I guess.
Sorry again.
I don't know why my sleeping patterns are so weird. Or maybe I do. See, a person's life isn't always what it looks like on the surface. There are loads of things going on.. and sometimes, it isn't the things that happen TO you that keep you up at night, rather the things happening around you, to the people around you.
In my case, it's a lot of the latter, and a little of thr former. But I don't know which is affecting me more. What I do know, though, is my sanity is being bombarded from all sides, and I don't know how much more I can take before more than my sleeping patterns get screwed up.
I know I could be overreacting to one or two things, but it's kind of hard NOT to when so many other things are happening at the same time. I wish I could be 100 % open about what they are, but privacy doesn't permit me to, so I shall have to be satisfied with this.
It's funny... there is something going on now that I could normally handle. I should normally be able to. I'm guessing that it's affecting me more than it should because of all the other shit going on.
Or at least that's what I'm trying to convince myself of. Because the alternative is something I would much rather not consider. That it's affecting me because I "care" too much. Not a pretty thought, that one. At least, not under THESE circumstances.
I'm sorry for being so cryptic, but you must understand that I have no choice. I have no other outlet. Writing in my diary hasn't helped, so I guess trying this is one of my limited options I guess.
Sorry again.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
More Of The Same..
Today was another typical day at school. School during the holidays, that is. Ordered chaos. And as usual - a trip to Gasing Hill. God, I feel like I know that place backwards and forwards and upside down now.
Today's "expedition" had a few more people than normal... 6 of us, to be exact. We decided to be different and follow the stream, i.e, wade through it. Initially we were busy trying to keep our shoes from getting soaked, but in the end, all of us ended up with water at the very least up to our ankles. Sigh. My toes will never be the same again!
And for our efforts, we caught... a moth (which died, was thrown out... then was fished out again by Jen Yaw... sad :P), a grasshopper with HUGE eyes, and two big ants. All that in 1 1/2 hours. I don't know when I've ever felt so pathetic... Wait. Oh yes. I have. That dragonfly. Right.
Anyway, we're halfway done with all our projects... Kind of. The plants one has just been started, but we're making pretty good progress thanks to Jess' and Dickie's (lol!) efforts. Wheee! The faster we're done, the faster I can paarrrtaaayyy! Oh wait. I forgot. Math homework. ARRGHHH!
Sigh. I just received a message on Friendster about missing people. I wonder... Can you miss someone when they're standing right in front of you? Is it possible? Coz if it isn't.. I must be a weirder nut than I thought!
All righty... Bible class now! See you people when I next get to a computer. Sigh... I wish the see was literal, but oh well. One day, someday...
What talking me?
BYE BYE.
Today's "expedition" had a few more people than normal... 6 of us, to be exact. We decided to be different and follow the stream, i.e, wade through it. Initially we were busy trying to keep our shoes from getting soaked, but in the end, all of us ended up with water at the very least up to our ankles. Sigh. My toes will never be the same again!
And for our efforts, we caught... a moth (which died, was thrown out... then was fished out again by Jen Yaw... sad :P), a grasshopper with HUGE eyes, and two big ants. All that in 1 1/2 hours. I don't know when I've ever felt so pathetic... Wait. Oh yes. I have. That dragonfly. Right.
Anyway, we're halfway done with all our projects... Kind of. The plants one has just been started, but we're making pretty good progress thanks to Jess' and Dickie's (lol!) efforts. Wheee! The faster we're done, the faster I can paarrrtaaayyy! Oh wait. I forgot. Math homework. ARRGHHH!
Sigh. I just received a message on Friendster about missing people. I wonder... Can you miss someone when they're standing right in front of you? Is it possible? Coz if it isn't.. I must be a weirder nut than I thought!
All righty... Bible class now! See you people when I next get to a computer. Sigh... I wish the see was literal, but oh well. One day, someday...
What talking me?
BYE BYE.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
What HOLIDAY?!
Ah.. it's such a relief to know that I'm not the only who's slow at updating blogs. Well, with the exception of a certain Mr. KP Chen, who's updated his blog again, thank God. Otherwise I'd have a real lack of reading material online. Sigh. Why is it that people tend to blog simultaneously? (Or so it seems la..) I either have absolutely NOTHING to read, or I end up taking hours to finish reading everything. Gawsh.
In response to Mr. Dane-skee, au contraire, I am NOT on holiday. Only in name. The amount of time I spend in school, I might as well not BE on holiday. As most of classmates can attest to. For more info, you should read Kok Pun's blog. A really amusing take on the 3 projects we have to complete by January. I know it sounds like we have plenty of time, but in reality we don't. Sigh.
I just found out that A Level's students have a choice on whether to take Ecology as part of Biology. Bloody hell. Lucky a***s. How nice is THAT? The bloody quadrat and line transect sampling thingies are giving me a headache. Why oh why... Head of bloody Ecology. Graaaaaaaaaah! Anyone wanna trade?
I like the insect catching part, though. Highly frustrating, but fun all the same. Only... You have NO idea how difficult it is to get a variety of bugs big enough to preserve. 25, to be exact. Sounds easy, no? Except that PJ has an extremely limited selection of bugs, and the forest reserve has yet to yield anything larger than the average cricket. Oh, plenty of big spiders.. but unfortunately those are arachnids so.. Pah. Technicalities. The look like bugs.. that should be good enough for everyone. Hahahohohaha.
Honestly, though, it's been good fun. Especially when 4 of us were outsmarted by a dragonfly. Yep, you read right. We spent half an hour trying to catch a bloody DRAGONFLY! And guess what. We didn't. Bah. Humbug. (Don't know why I like typing that.. hehe.) I can't believe it! A DRAGONFLY managed to outsmart us. EEEEEEEEEEEEE! That is just SO bad for morale, man! *roflmao*
Anyway. Yeah. There you have it. My pathetic holiday in a nutshell. School school school, with a couple of movies thrown in here and there. Okay, maybe not a couple. I think I've seen almost all the movies... Except Zorro. And Harry Potter? I'll probably be seeing that soon. At least, I hope so.
I miss my friends. I miss my cousins. But most of all I miss the camaraderie I once had with someone. It's saddening, but not exactly unexpected. Oh well. I'll either learn to forget about it, or maybe we'll get it back again someday. God, I hope it's the latter! I hate the fact that we're like strangers now... Sigh.
Christmas is coming. Wow. I can't wait for that... But it does seem a shame that the year's gone so fast. We just don't seem to have as much time as we once did. I can't help feeling rather sad about that. I guess this is what it feels like to grow up, huh?
I guess I'd better stop before I start getting all depressing again. LOL! Ladeeda everyone, til the next time I actually post anything worth reading!
In response to Mr. Dane-skee, au contraire, I am NOT on holiday. Only in name. The amount of time I spend in school, I might as well not BE on holiday. As most of classmates can attest to. For more info, you should read Kok Pun's blog. A really amusing take on the 3 projects we have to complete by January. I know it sounds like we have plenty of time, but in reality we don't. Sigh.
I just found out that A Level's students have a choice on whether to take Ecology as part of Biology. Bloody hell. Lucky a***s. How nice is THAT? The bloody quadrat and line transect sampling thingies are giving me a headache. Why oh why... Head of bloody Ecology. Graaaaaaaaaah! Anyone wanna trade?
I like the insect catching part, though. Highly frustrating, but fun all the same. Only... You have NO idea how difficult it is to get a variety of bugs big enough to preserve. 25, to be exact. Sounds easy, no? Except that PJ has an extremely limited selection of bugs, and the forest reserve has yet to yield anything larger than the average cricket. Oh, plenty of big spiders.. but unfortunately those are arachnids so.. Pah. Technicalities. The look like bugs.. that should be good enough for everyone. Hahahohohaha.
Honestly, though, it's been good fun. Especially when 4 of us were outsmarted by a dragonfly. Yep, you read right. We spent half an hour trying to catch a bloody DRAGONFLY! And guess what. We didn't. Bah. Humbug. (Don't know why I like typing that.. hehe.) I can't believe it! A DRAGONFLY managed to outsmart us. EEEEEEEEEEEEE! That is just SO bad for morale, man! *roflmao*
Anyway. Yeah. There you have it. My pathetic holiday in a nutshell. School school school, with a couple of movies thrown in here and there. Okay, maybe not a couple. I think I've seen almost all the movies... Except Zorro. And Harry Potter? I'll probably be seeing that soon. At least, I hope so.
I miss my friends. I miss my cousins. But most of all I miss the camaraderie I once had with someone. It's saddening, but not exactly unexpected. Oh well. I'll either learn to forget about it, or maybe we'll get it back again someday. God, I hope it's the latter! I hate the fact that we're like strangers now... Sigh.
Christmas is coming. Wow. I can't wait for that... But it does seem a shame that the year's gone so fast. We just don't seem to have as much time as we once did. I can't help feeling rather sad about that. I guess this is what it feels like to grow up, huh?
I guess I'd better stop before I start getting all depressing again. LOL! Ladeeda everyone, til the next time I actually post anything worth reading!
Sunday, November 20, 2005
I Will Love Again
The Insanely Saners "theme song"... At least on the journey to One Utama it was! :P Nice song though... And I must say amazingly appropriate. Haha.
PS: I will write a proper post when I'm not so tired. I promise.
I Will Love Again ~ Lara Fabian
Did I ever tell you how you live in me
Every waking moment, even in my dreams
And if all this talk is crazy
And you don't know what I mean
Does it really matter
Just as long as I believe
I will love again
Though my heart is breaking
I will love again
Stronger than before
I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
Heaven only knows
I will love again
People never tell you
The way they truly feel
I would die for you gladly
If I knew it was for real
So if all this talk sounds crazy
And the words don't come out right
Does it really matter
If it gets me through this night
I will love again
Though my heart is breaking
I will love again
Stronger than before
I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
Heaven only knows
I will love again
If I'm true to myself
Nobody else can take the place of you
But I've got to move on, tell me what else can I do
I will love again
Though my heart is breaking
I will love again
Stronger than before I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
Heaven only knows
I will love again
I will love again
One day I know
I will love again
You can't stop me from loving again, breathing again
Feeling again
I know, one day, I'll love again
PS: I will write a proper post when I'm not so tired. I promise.
I Will Love Again ~ Lara Fabian
Did I ever tell you how you live in me
Every waking moment, even in my dreams
And if all this talk is crazy
And you don't know what I mean
Does it really matter
Just as long as I believe
I will love again
Though my heart is breaking
I will love again
Stronger than before
I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
Heaven only knows
I will love again
People never tell you
The way they truly feel
I would die for you gladly
If I knew it was for real
So if all this talk sounds crazy
And the words don't come out right
Does it really matter
If it gets me through this night
I will love again
Though my heart is breaking
I will love again
Stronger than before
I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
Heaven only knows
I will love again
If I'm true to myself
Nobody else can take the place of you
But I've got to move on, tell me what else can I do
I will love again
Though my heart is breaking
I will love again
Stronger than before I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
Heaven only knows
I will love again
I will love again
One day I know
I will love again
You can't stop me from loving again, breathing again
Feeling again
I know, one day, I'll love again
"What's LoooOOvvVvVveeEee.."
I got this from the Friendster bulletin board again. I like it coz a lot of it is true. We're all so used to the "romancy" version of love, that we forget the little things. Trust kids to observe them! Pick your favourite quotes people.. Personally, I like No. 1, 2 (it's hilarious! :P), 5, 6, 8, 13, 14, 15, 16 and definitely 18. A lot of wisdom for an 8-year-old, methinks. But read it. After all, out of the mouths of babes...
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
1) "When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." - Rebecca, age 8
2) "Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." - Karl, age 5
3) "Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." - Chrissy, age 6
4) "Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." - Terri, age 4
5) Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." - Danny, age 7
6) "Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss." - Emily, age 8
7) "Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." - Bobby, age 7
8) "If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." - Nikka, age 6
9) "There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them." - Jenny, age 8
10) "Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." - Noelle, age 7
11) "Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." - Tommy, age 6
12) "Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." - Elaine, age 5
13) "Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." - Chris, age 7
14) "Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." - Mary Ann, age 4
15) "I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." - Lauren, age 4
16) "When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." - Karen, age 7
17) "Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." - Mark, age 6
18) "You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." - Jessica, age 8
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
1) "When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." - Rebecca, age 8
2) "Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." - Karl, age 5
3) "Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." - Chrissy, age 6
4) "Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." - Terri, age 4
5) Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." - Danny, age 7
6) "Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss." - Emily, age 8
7) "Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." - Bobby, age 7
8) "If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." - Nikka, age 6
9) "There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them." - Jenny, age 8
10) "Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." - Noelle, age 7
11) "Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." - Tommy, age 6
12) "Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." - Elaine, age 5
13) "Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." - Chris, age 7
14) "Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." - Mary Ann, age 4
15) "I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." - Lauren, age 4
16) "When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." - Karen, age 7
17) "Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." - Mark, age 6
18) "You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." - Jessica, age 8
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Just Filling In The Time...
This thingie was rounding Friendster ... and the heading was "12 Signs Of Falling In Love". What do you guys think? Is this a representation of love? Or merely infatuation? Methinks it's infatuation LOR (take THAT, baby brudder :P)... But I don't know. All those who've really been in love... (like my darling big sista ;P), kindly do tell. Haha.
12. You'll read his/her IMS over and over again
11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her
10. You'll feel shy whenever you're with him/her
9. While thinking bout him/her... your heart will beat faster and faster...
8. When listening to his/her voice, you'll smile for no reason
7. While looking at him/her, you cant see the other people around you... you can only see that person
6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs
5. He/She becomes all you think about
4. You'll get high just by their smell
3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them
2. You'll do anything for him/her
1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.
12. You'll read his/her IMS over and over again
11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her
10. You'll feel shy whenever you're with him/her
9. While thinking bout him/her... your heart will beat faster and faster...
8. When listening to his/her voice, you'll smile for no reason
7. While looking at him/her, you cant see the other people around you... you can only see that person
6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs
5. He/She becomes all you think about
4. You'll get high just by their smell
3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them
2. You'll do anything for him/her
1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Drove Drive Driven Driver Driving...
It's so nice to have a car! I can go wherever I want, whenever I want. Well, technically. Coz I'm banned from certain places, like Bangsar, for one. Although... I don't usually have even the tiniest inclination of going there, so. Doesn't matter. Hehe.
Can't believe it's been more than a year since I got that license. It's taken my parents this long to actually trust me to drive around by myself. How sad. Okay, by drive around I mean in an area larger than within a 5 mile radius.
So I've been happily going here and going there... To Mid Valley, and Sunway Pyramid.. Aaaah bliss. Except for the traffic jams. Those suck. Big time. And crazy-assed male drivers who think looking into your car and not noticing the traffic moving is a good way of getting your attention. Well, yeah it was... but totally for all the wrong reasons :)
I'm going out with Dav tonight... I wish Ee May and Jen weren't busy with exams and assignments! Then we could all go together-gether! Haha. And JU LI! You see? Now I can drive everywhere and you're not to be seen on this side of the planet. Bah. Humbug.
It's such a NICE feeling to have a car to yourself.. I mean, knowing that you'll never want for transport. That is THE best feeling, ever! Okay, one of the best, anyway. Oh well. Time to go pick ol' Dav up. I'm just writing this coz I can :)
Can't believe it's been more than a year since I got that license. It's taken my parents this long to actually trust me to drive around by myself. How sad. Okay, by drive around I mean in an area larger than within a 5 mile radius.
So I've been happily going here and going there... To Mid Valley, and Sunway Pyramid.. Aaaah bliss. Except for the traffic jams. Those suck. Big time. And crazy-assed male drivers who think looking into your car and not noticing the traffic moving is a good way of getting your attention. Well, yeah it was... but totally for all the wrong reasons :)
I'm going out with Dav tonight... I wish Ee May and Jen weren't busy with exams and assignments! Then we could all go together-gether! Haha. And JU LI! You see? Now I can drive everywhere and you're not to be seen on this side of the planet. Bah. Humbug.
It's such a NICE feeling to have a car to yourself.. I mean, knowing that you'll never want for transport. That is THE best feeling, ever! Okay, one of the best, anyway. Oh well. Time to go pick ol' Dav up. I'm just writing this coz I can :)
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Decisions, Decisions...
Holidays have officially begun. Whoopee. I say OFFICIALLY coz we still have extra classes. Meaning, at least 3 almost-school-like days next week. Sigh. And the whole of this week was spent doing nothing but preserve cockroaches, flies, and one or two other unfortunate bugs. Gah. Cockroaches ain't so scary when they can't run around, though. Hehe.
It's official. Operation "Give Up On Him" has been set into motion. Sigh. I wish I could come to any other conclusion. God, you have no idea how much I wish that! But... I can't. How can I conclude anything else when he obviously doesn't care enough to make time for me? Lol. That's a clear indication as any that he DOESN'T feel the same. Coz I would've found time for him, whenever, do the best I could, no matter the circumstances.
Oh well. I guess I'm beginning to accept it. After all, one person can only make you cry so much... right? Haha. And the last thing I am, or want to be, is a clinger-on. Someone who can't let go. He can't meet me halfway, so I shall not force the issue. Instead, I shall leave him be. In the "liking" arena, at least.
Sometimes I wonder if this is really such a bad thing. I mean, I wouldn't mind fading back to invisible status. That's the whole trouble when you fall for someone with a lot of friends. You end up feeling like a specimen under a microscope. People who've never even given you a second glance suddenly greet you, treat you like an old friend. Sigh.
Also, he seems perfectly happy with the way things are. He definitely does NOT feel the way I do... Unless, of course, he's a superb actor and is able to mask his feelings. Highly unlikely, I think. So .. why rock the boat? I should just leave him be. He'd be happier. Is happier.
So in conclusion. I suppose you guys agree with me too, right? Sigh. I need advice, people! Although only people who've seen us interact would be able to properly tell. Uck. Oh well. Let's just take it as, if he doesn't tell me something directly, I shall assume that it's time to give up, let go and move on.
Oh, btw, my results so far a pretty okay... except for maths. Sigh. Disappointing, but not unexpected. Lol. Only the Bio paper left. Faster, Pn. Felicia!!!! Faster!!!!
It's official. Operation "Give Up On Him" has been set into motion. Sigh. I wish I could come to any other conclusion. God, you have no idea how much I wish that! But... I can't. How can I conclude anything else when he obviously doesn't care enough to make time for me? Lol. That's a clear indication as any that he DOESN'T feel the same. Coz I would've found time for him, whenever, do the best I could, no matter the circumstances.
Oh well. I guess I'm beginning to accept it. After all, one person can only make you cry so much... right? Haha. And the last thing I am, or want to be, is a clinger-on. Someone who can't let go. He can't meet me halfway, so I shall not force the issue. Instead, I shall leave him be. In the "liking" arena, at least.
Sometimes I wonder if this is really such a bad thing. I mean, I wouldn't mind fading back to invisible status. That's the whole trouble when you fall for someone with a lot of friends. You end up feeling like a specimen under a microscope. People who've never even given you a second glance suddenly greet you, treat you like an old friend. Sigh.
Also, he seems perfectly happy with the way things are. He definitely does NOT feel the way I do... Unless, of course, he's a superb actor and is able to mask his feelings. Highly unlikely, I think. So .. why rock the boat? I should just leave him be. He'd be happier. Is happier.
So in conclusion. I suppose you guys agree with me too, right? Sigh. I need advice, people! Although only people who've seen us interact would be able to properly tell. Uck. Oh well. Let's just take it as, if he doesn't tell me something directly, I shall assume that it's time to give up, let go and move on.
Oh, btw, my results so far a pretty okay... except for maths. Sigh. Disappointing, but not unexpected. Lol. Only the Bio paper left. Faster, Pn. Felicia!!!! Faster!!!!
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Of Crazy Friends and Food-Critic-ing
Yesterday has got to be one of the strangest - but funnest - days ever. Started the day off with lunch at Adrien's grandma's place (she makes EXCELLENT ayam masak merah, btw and Ade actually baked a pretty great chocolate cake - ALL BY HIMSELF! :D)... and lepaked there til about 4 something, taking pics and watching TV.
We were pretty bored, and kinda free too, so that led to plans to "go somewhere". Trouble is, it took us almost an hour to decide where that "somewhere" was. Haha. Anyway. We finally agreed to go to Bangsar.
Parked at Bangsar Village, took a mandatory stroll around the mall, then proceeded to shops BEHIND the mall to check things out. And BOY can Ee May and Davina shop! We went into almost every boutique we came across... But at least I have something to show for it. Got myself a bag. Haha. I KNOW I need clothes more than I do a bag but... aiya. Lazy la!
By 8, we were all REALLY hungry. Problem was, we couldn't decide where to eat. Walked around two blocks, nearly went into La Bodega... Then Ade says he knows Hartamas better. So we decided to go there instead...
But we missed the turning. And ended up on the road to Mid Valley. Which we had distinctly wanted to avoid from the get-go. Talk about sad! Anyway, since we were too hungry to wait much longer, we headed to MV instead. We THOUGHT about seeing a movie - but seeing the LINE at the cinema was more than a turn off.
Adey wanted to eat at Piccolo Mondo.. so we went there. (BTW, I hate the decor at PM MV. It's so... unconducive to cosiness.) We ordered a pizza and stuffed pasta (I can't remember what it's called.. something ripieni or something like that). The pizza was WEIRD la! The toppings were like, categorized. Two slices had ONLY olives, another two slices had ONLY chicken ham... You get the picture. But the pasta thingy was GORGEOUS! But oh-so-expensive. Sigh. But Adrien paid for it all. Yay!
Were still not all that full from PM... so we went next door to Madam Kwan's! Yep, folks! We were restaurant hopping... Like bleedin' food critics. Hehe. Anyway, we found the prices TOTALLY unreasonable to the sort of food (whaddaheck? 13.50 for a nasi lemak?!!), so we ordered just dessert. Which was bad enough. 9.60 for goreng pisang and ice cream? Hah! Small plate some more! The waiter was a little bemused with us... but I don't think he'd have been too happy when he saw the last thing we did to "make his day" (or at least Davina did)... she took out the carnation that was part of the table decor... and poured Ee May's gula melaka sauce on it!!!!!!
After leaving MV... I was still hungry. So we went to Lotus to have nasi lemak! YAY! I love food... and eating. Oh oh oh... and there was this guy in Lotus who wasn't exactly that good-looking.. but oh-so-attractive! When I met his eyes it was like *PING* WOW! And I could tell he noticed too.. Coz he was smiling at me after that. But gosh. Wow. Hot Hot Hot. (Methinks Jen would like him, too *winks*)
Anyway... Yesterday was FUN! We should do that again when we replenish our monetary supplies. Hehe.
Today, I went for karaoke with Kenny, Shih Chung and Eugene in Bangsar. Phwoar!! Fun man! Almost 4 hours of sing, sing, sing! But fuuuyoooh! I didn't know ol' Shih Chung was a rocker! Haha. And Kenny... wahlau! He can sing Mariah Carey, man! Awesome! And I was right - Eugene IS one of the hottest 30 something year old guys I know :) Haha!
Right. This one has been LOOOONNNG. So I shall stop. But thanks to all you people who've made my holiday so enjoyable! I love you guys!
We were pretty bored, and kinda free too, so that led to plans to "go somewhere". Trouble is, it took us almost an hour to decide where that "somewhere" was. Haha. Anyway. We finally agreed to go to Bangsar.
Parked at Bangsar Village, took a mandatory stroll around the mall, then proceeded to shops BEHIND the mall to check things out. And BOY can Ee May and Davina shop! We went into almost every boutique we came across... But at least I have something to show for it. Got myself a bag. Haha. I KNOW I need clothes more than I do a bag but... aiya. Lazy la!
By 8, we were all REALLY hungry. Problem was, we couldn't decide where to eat. Walked around two blocks, nearly went into La Bodega... Then Ade says he knows Hartamas better. So we decided to go there instead...
But we missed the turning. And ended up on the road to Mid Valley. Which we had distinctly wanted to avoid from the get-go. Talk about sad! Anyway, since we were too hungry to wait much longer, we headed to MV instead. We THOUGHT about seeing a movie - but seeing the LINE at the cinema was more than a turn off.
Adey wanted to eat at Piccolo Mondo.. so we went there. (BTW, I hate the decor at PM MV. It's so... unconducive to cosiness.) We ordered a pizza and stuffed pasta (I can't remember what it's called.. something ripieni or something like that). The pizza was WEIRD la! The toppings were like, categorized. Two slices had ONLY olives, another two slices had ONLY chicken ham... You get the picture. But the pasta thingy was GORGEOUS! But oh-so-expensive. Sigh. But Adrien paid for it all. Yay!
Were still not all that full from PM... so we went next door to Madam Kwan's! Yep, folks! We were restaurant hopping... Like bleedin' food critics. Hehe. Anyway, we found the prices TOTALLY unreasonable to the sort of food (whaddaheck? 13.50 for a nasi lemak?!!), so we ordered just dessert. Which was bad enough. 9.60 for goreng pisang and ice cream? Hah! Small plate some more! The waiter was a little bemused with us... but I don't think he'd have been too happy when he saw the last thing we did to "make his day" (or at least Davina did)... she took out the carnation that was part of the table decor... and poured Ee May's gula melaka sauce on it!!!!!!
After leaving MV... I was still hungry. So we went to Lotus to have nasi lemak! YAY! I love food... and eating. Oh oh oh... and there was this guy in Lotus who wasn't exactly that good-looking.. but oh-so-attractive! When I met his eyes it was like *PING* WOW! And I could tell he noticed too.. Coz he was smiling at me after that. But gosh. Wow. Hot Hot Hot. (Methinks Jen would like him, too *winks*)
Anyway... Yesterday was FUN! We should do that again when we replenish our monetary supplies. Hehe.
Today, I went for karaoke with Kenny, Shih Chung and Eugene in Bangsar. Phwoar!! Fun man! Almost 4 hours of sing, sing, sing! But fuuuyoooh! I didn't know ol' Shih Chung was a rocker! Haha. And Kenny... wahlau! He can sing Mariah Carey, man! Awesome! And I was right - Eugene IS one of the hottest 30 something year old guys I know :) Haha!
Right. This one has been LOOOONNNG. So I shall stop. But thanks to all you people who've made my holiday so enjoyable! I love you guys!
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Jen Jen Is 18!!! :)
Wow. The weeks almost over. It's back to school on Monday. Eek. Talk about a looming death sentence!!! My poor poor report card *sniffles* It's gonna be all red... :(
On Wednesday Ee May, Dav and I took ol' Jen out for her 18th birthday. Yay! Now all us IS-ers are 18! Wheee! Hm. Ok. Back to the point. Anyway, we lepaked at Jenna's house first... and methinks Ee May single-handedly (okay, so I helped her a little :P) finished one and a half jars of murukku! Small jars laa.. Oh, and the cookies were divine! Thanks Jen :D [I love Deepavali.. hehe]
After eating as much as possible of Jen's cookies without effectively spoiling our lunch, we took a REALLY SLOW drive to pick Davina up. And when I say SLOW, I mean SSLLLOOOOOWWWWW. Haha. That was fun. You go girl, Ee May! :D
Went to One Utama for a change of scene... And we were bawling our lungs out to songs like "The Trouble With Love Is" and "I Will Love Again". Haha. It's so NICE to have girlfriends to just let loose with and generally behave like maniacs with. Ooooh. Our theme songs. How sad. Hehe.
Lunch at Chilli's. As per usual :) Goodness, their servings are HUGE! When will we ever learn? *shakes head sadly* I felt like a stuffed cow the whole day after that!
Aaah.. there is nothing better than a good meal, and hilarious conversation with the people you're closest to. And it is so nice to have someone to moan to about the blurness and dumbness and all around insensitivity of the male species. Okay, maybe not all.. but just the guys we seem to come into contact with. Gah. With one or two minor exceptions.. none of whom we're attracted to, however. SIGH. Tis a sad state of affairs, that.
But it's okay! As the theme song of the day went... "I will looooooooooovvvvvveeeee aaaaggaaaiiiinnnn!"
So yeah. I love you Insanely Saners, and welcome to the club Jenna! :D
[P/S: Ju.. wish you could've been there!]
On Wednesday Ee May, Dav and I took ol' Jen out for her 18th birthday. Yay! Now all us IS-ers are 18! Wheee! Hm. Ok. Back to the point. Anyway, we lepaked at Jenna's house first... and methinks Ee May single-handedly (okay, so I helped her a little :P) finished one and a half jars of murukku! Small jars laa.. Oh, and the cookies were divine! Thanks Jen :D [I love Deepavali.. hehe]
After eating as much as possible of Jen's cookies without effectively spoiling our lunch, we took a REALLY SLOW drive to pick Davina up. And when I say SLOW, I mean SSLLLOOOOOWWWWW. Haha. That was fun. You go girl, Ee May! :D
Went to One Utama for a change of scene... And we were bawling our lungs out to songs like "The Trouble With Love Is" and "I Will Love Again". Haha. It's so NICE to have girlfriends to just let loose with and generally behave like maniacs with. Ooooh. Our theme songs. How sad. Hehe.
Lunch at Chilli's. As per usual :) Goodness, their servings are HUGE! When will we ever learn? *shakes head sadly* I felt like a stuffed cow the whole day after that!
Aaah.. there is nothing better than a good meal, and hilarious conversation with the people you're closest to. And it is so nice to have someone to moan to about the blurness and dumbness and all around insensitivity of the male species. Okay, maybe not all.. but just the guys we seem to come into contact with. Gah. With one or two minor exceptions.. none of whom we're attracted to, however. SIGH. Tis a sad state of affairs, that.
But it's okay! As the theme song of the day went... "I will looooooooooovvvvvveeeee aaaaggaaaiiiinnnn!"
So yeah. I love you Insanely Saners, and welcome to the club Jenna! :D
[P/S: Ju.. wish you could've been there!]
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Quizzy Time!
Hey all... This is me being bored again. And I promise.. It's EASY this time! Really!
Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!
Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Kidsies
I am bored. I love the holidays, don't get me wrong. But I'm bored. And you know something? A week really is waaaaaaay too short. Especially if there are public holidays thrown in. Coz you really DON'T feel like going out on those days. Unless of course you love being in gigantic crowds, where you can't breathe, let alone move...
Sigh. Sometimes I think I'm a masochist. But I really can't help it! It's scary how much he means to me. I'm just not willing to give it up until I'm 100% sure that there's no chance at all.
Okay.. on to less depressing stuff. The Sunday School year is almost over. *sobs* I'm dreading it.. I've really come to love those kids a whole lot. They're great.. and at that age, so lovable! Coz you get to see the transformation from timid little pre-schoolers to a little more mature, "know-it-all" 7-year-olds! Once they're 8, that endearing innocence is lost... Sigh. How do teachers do it? I wish I could be there, watching them grow up. But I can't so.. oh well.
It's so weird.. I can't believe I'm old enough to be called "teacher"! Sometimes it doesn't really register.. "Teacher Elaine". HAHA. God.. And last Sunday, at Mass, one of the kids spotted me, and was like, "Teacher, come sit here!" Well, how not to go, right? So I had to sit with her and her sister throughout the Mass.... and their guardians were looking at me funny. Haha. I was flattered.. but seriously damn uncomfortable :P
I love kids.. I really do. I can picture myself working with them 24/7. There's nothing more fulfilling than watching them grow and learn and know that you had something to do with the way they've turned out. A positive impact. If they just learned one good thing, it would be more than satisfactory.
Wheee. Maybe I should forget dentistry and go join I Yin's staff. Lol.
Sigh. Sometimes I think I'm a masochist. But I really can't help it! It's scary how much he means to me. I'm just not willing to give it up until I'm 100% sure that there's no chance at all.
Okay.. on to less depressing stuff. The Sunday School year is almost over. *sobs* I'm dreading it.. I've really come to love those kids a whole lot. They're great.. and at that age, so lovable! Coz you get to see the transformation from timid little pre-schoolers to a little more mature, "know-it-all" 7-year-olds! Once they're 8, that endearing innocence is lost... Sigh. How do teachers do it? I wish I could be there, watching them grow up. But I can't so.. oh well.
It's so weird.. I can't believe I'm old enough to be called "teacher"! Sometimes it doesn't really register.. "Teacher Elaine". HAHA. God.. And last Sunday, at Mass, one of the kids spotted me, and was like, "Teacher, come sit here!" Well, how not to go, right? So I had to sit with her and her sister throughout the Mass.... and their guardians were looking at me funny. Haha. I was flattered.. but seriously damn uncomfortable :P
I love kids.. I really do. I can picture myself working with them 24/7. There's nothing more fulfilling than watching them grow and learn and know that you had something to do with the way they've turned out. A positive impact. If they just learned one good thing, it would be more than satisfactory.
Wheee. Maybe I should forget dentistry and go join I Yin's staff. Lol.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Whee.
Patience. That's what I need. Patience. I can't believe this is the third time I'm blogging today. Sigh. I must be out of my mind. Talk about no life!
Today was boring. Slept for most of it. Now have a headache due to um.. sleeping too much, on top of the fact that the dam burst last night. Blah. I look like someone punched me in both eyes. And I feel like I've been punched in the gut. Oh, and knocked over the head with a sledgehammer.
My mum bought me the Cinderella VCD! Yay! But she only did that to try and cheer me up.. Poor thing. She's worried about me. Can't say I blame her. I'm worried about me too. HAHA.
God, I'm an idiot. A fool. A stupid dumb ... whatever. Suffice to say I sorely lack brains these days. I just wish I knew why I'm acting like an illogical duh-brain. I should be going, "who cares?"
But dammit. This time, I care. I bloody care too bloody much and I hate myself for it. Sigh.
The last time I was this foolish was 2 years ago.. and at least then I had a valid reason. This one just stinks.
Today was boring. Slept for most of it. Now have a headache due to um.. sleeping too much, on top of the fact that the dam burst last night. Blah. I look like someone punched me in both eyes. And I feel like I've been punched in the gut. Oh, and knocked over the head with a sledgehammer.
My mum bought me the Cinderella VCD! Yay! But she only did that to try and cheer me up.. Poor thing. She's worried about me. Can't say I blame her. I'm worried about me too. HAHA.
God, I'm an idiot. A fool. A stupid dumb ... whatever. Suffice to say I sorely lack brains these days. I just wish I knew why I'm acting like an illogical duh-brain. I should be going, "who cares?"
But dammit. This time, I care. I bloody care too bloody much and I hate myself for it. Sigh.
The last time I was this foolish was 2 years ago.. and at least then I had a valid reason. This one just stinks.
Oldies!!
You know.. sometimes oldies are much much nicer than the newer songs. Take these two, for example. They totally sum up stuff that girls go through.. or rather, feel. I know they're both on opposite ends of the feeling spectrum, but phwoar! The lyrics really touch a nerve... Especially the first song *grins wickedly*
I Need A Hero
- Footloose OST
Where have all good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where’s the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn’t there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and I turn and I dream of what I need
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong
And he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the morning light
He’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life (larger than life...)
Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There’s someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It’s gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong
And he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the morning light
He’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there is someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like a fire in my blood
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong
And he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the morning light
He’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life
(Repeat 1x)
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
HOPELESSLY DEVOTED TO YOU
- Olivia Newton-John
Guess mine is not the first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know
There's just no getting over you
You know I'm just a fool who's willing
To sit around and wait for you
But, baby, can't you see
There's nothing else for me to do?
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
My head is saying, "Fool, forget him."
My heart is saying, "Don't let go. Hold on till the end."
And that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
I Need A Hero
- Footloose OST
Where have all good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where’s the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn’t there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and I turn and I dream of what I need
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong
And he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the morning light
He’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life (larger than life...)
Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There’s someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It’s gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong
And he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the morning light
He’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there is someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like a fire in my blood
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong
And he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the morning light
He’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life
(Repeat 1x)
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ‘til the end of the night
HOPELESSLY DEVOTED TO YOU
- Olivia Newton-John
Guess mine is not the first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know
There's just no getting over you
You know I'm just a fool who's willing
To sit around and wait for you
But, baby, can't you see
There's nothing else for me to do?
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
My head is saying, "Fool, forget him."
My heart is saying, "Don't let go. Hold on till the end."
And that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Sigh.
I'm disappointed. Not exactly surprised, but disappointed. Sigh. I know I totally overreacted last night, though, which is why the post is gone. It's hard to be fair when you feel like crap. I guess I should give him the benefit of the doubt, hey? What other choice do I have?
I know y'all are wondering what I'm talking about, but just be thankful you didn't see last night's post. Coz it was stupid. A totally un-called for reaction and I should slap myself for it.
Right now, though, I'm thinking more rationally... But hell. I admit there is a little nagging doubt. But heck. There's an explanation for everything. Maybe not what one wants to hear... But an explanation, nevertheless.
Oh.. And I deleted the post because it would cause unnecessary heartache. On my part, mostly. Oh well. It's sufficient to know that while I'm a little down, I'm also thinking straight again. Which is more than can be said for last night.
Thank God I could delete it before it caused any trouble. I really need to check my emotions so they don't get overboard.
Dammit.
I know y'all are wondering what I'm talking about, but just be thankful you didn't see last night's post. Coz it was stupid. A totally un-called for reaction and I should slap myself for it.
Right now, though, I'm thinking more rationally... But hell. I admit there is a little nagging doubt. But heck. There's an explanation for everything. Maybe not what one wants to hear... But an explanation, nevertheless.
Oh.. And I deleted the post because it would cause unnecessary heartache. On my part, mostly. Oh well. It's sufficient to know that while I'm a little down, I'm also thinking straight again. Which is more than can be said for last night.
Thank God I could delete it before it caused any trouble. I really need to check my emotions so they don't get overboard.
Dammit.
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