Decisions, Decisions...

Holidays have officially begun. Whoopee. I say OFFICIALLY coz we still have extra classes. Meaning, at least 3 almost-school-like days next week. Sigh. And the whole of this week was spent doing nothing but preserve cockroaches, flies, and one or two other unfortunate bugs. Gah. Cockroaches ain't so scary when they can't run around, though. Hehe.

It's official. Operation "Give Up On Him" has been set into motion. Sigh. I wish I could come to any other conclusion. God, you have no idea how much I wish that! But... I can't. How can I conclude anything else when he obviously doesn't care enough to make time for me? Lol. That's a clear indication as any that he DOESN'T feel the same. Coz I would've found time for him, whenever, do the best I could, no matter the circumstances.

Oh well. I guess I'm beginning to accept it. After all, one person can only make you cry so much... right? Haha. And the last thing I am, or want to be, is a clinger-on. Someone who can't let go. He can't meet me halfway, so I shall not force the issue. Instead, I shall leave him be. In the "liking" arena, at least.

Sometimes I wonder if this is really such a bad thing. I mean, I wouldn't mind fading back to invisible status. That's the whole trouble when you fall for someone with a lot of friends. You end up feeling like a specimen under a microscope. People who've never even given you a second glance suddenly greet you, treat you like an old friend. Sigh.

Also, he seems perfectly happy with the way things are. He definitely does NOT feel the way I do... Unless, of course, he's a superb actor and is able to mask his feelings. Highly unlikely, I think. So .. why rock the boat? I should just leave him be. He'd be happier. Is happier.

So in conclusion. I suppose you guys agree with me too, right? Sigh. I need advice, people! Although only people who've seen us interact would be able to properly tell. Uck. Oh well. Let's just take it as, if he doesn't tell me something directly, I shall assume that it's time to give up, let go and move on.

Oh, btw, my results so far a pretty okay... except for maths. Sigh. Disappointing, but not unexpected. Lol. Only the Bio paper left. Faster, Pn. Felicia!!!! Faster!!!!