I love the sound of the rain pouring outside my window. Snuggling up in bed with a book, all warm and comfy underneath the blanket...
I love the smell of the earth after a thunderstorm. It all feels so fresh and renewed...
I love the sights and sounds of the dawn, sunlight just peeking out above the clouds, slowly bathing the world in a shining golden light...
I love the feel of the cool evening breeze against my skin as I stand in the middle of the garden, surrounded by beautiful, carefully tended flowers blooming in an astonishing array of colors...
I love standing at the ledge of a cliff, looking over a deep valley surrounded by majestic mountains, in awe of the terrible beauty of their treacherous landscapes, of trees and vegetation growing tall and thick and strong...
I love walking down the edge of the water, feeling the waves lapping against my bare feet, the wind in my hair...
I love watching the sun set over the sea, casting a comforting glow over the water, a warm goodbye til the dawn breaks once again...
There's so much peace to be found in nature. So much comfort. How often do we take the time to truly appreciate the beauty around us? I wrote this to remind myself of just how much there is to be in awe of and inspired by in this world :)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
When Titles Elude You..
Last night, Daddy posed what seemed like rather mundane, every day questions to us in the weekly ABF sessions to help us in our search for our mission in life. Things like: which TV shows do you like most and why, what drives you, etc. Rationale being what you're passionate about should provide a good clue as to what your mission should be.
Normally I would list a dozen shows, books, genres that I love simply because they're fun as hell, but when it comes to the things I really get hooked to, I discovered 2 things:
1. I like seeing change. Both physical and in terms of confidence, assurance, self belief... And it doesn't really matter so much that the shows are more than crap half the time, it's the people that fascinate me.
2. The reason I like profiling stories so much is because it comes down to understanding human behavior. Being able to see the patterns in why people act the way they do, and in the case of criminals, recognize how and why a pattern deviates. It's endlessly fascinating.
And as for the driving force in my life? The answer should be pretty obvious by now -- people. I don't mean in the sense of socializing so much as that I'm genuinely interested in people. Even though I can talk non-stop if you let me (under most circumstances, anyway :P), I actually prefer to listen. Unless someone's pissing me off, in which case it'd be crazy hard to keep my mouth shut, I would generally rather have you tell me about yourself than vice versa.
So... no BIG surprises there, since it pretty much confirms what I already know I want to do, i.e. work with people. It's just a matter of figuring out in what capacity. However, it was interesting to note how the things I gravitate towards actually mirror what I'm really all about. It's something that I must admit I never noticed before, let alone thought about. Now if I could just figure out what it all means... :)
Normally I would list a dozen shows, books, genres that I love simply because they're fun as hell, but when it comes to the things I really get hooked to, I discovered 2 things:
1. I like seeing change. Both physical and in terms of confidence, assurance, self belief... And it doesn't really matter so much that the shows are more than crap half the time, it's the people that fascinate me.
2. The reason I like profiling stories so much is because it comes down to understanding human behavior. Being able to see the patterns in why people act the way they do, and in the case of criminals, recognize how and why a pattern deviates. It's endlessly fascinating.
And as for the driving force in my life? The answer should be pretty obvious by now -- people. I don't mean in the sense of socializing so much as that I'm genuinely interested in people. Even though I can talk non-stop if you let me (under most circumstances, anyway :P), I actually prefer to listen. Unless someone's pissing me off, in which case it'd be crazy hard to keep my mouth shut, I would generally rather have you tell me about yourself than vice versa.
So... no BIG surprises there, since it pretty much confirms what I already know I want to do, i.e. work with people. It's just a matter of figuring out in what capacity. However, it was interesting to note how the things I gravitate towards actually mirror what I'm really all about. It's something that I must admit I never noticed before, let alone thought about. Now if I could just figure out what it all means... :)
Monday, April 27, 2009
To The Hill And Back!
And so, after 6 long years, the Fernandez family heads up to Fraser's Hill. What has changed? Everything and nothing.
There's lots of renovation going on, most of the old places are getting new looks or being shifted around... But at the end of the day the result is still the same -- there's nothing to do! :P
Unless of course you're like me and are quite content enjoying the cool breeze (bliss!), absolutely stunning hilltop scenery, a good book and your favorite songs playing on a trusty Pod :D
The rest of the family got restless though, so after one night we're back home where there's air-conditioning and to quote the dad: "People!!!!"
But what is a Fernandez trip without it's fair share of mishaps? The casualties this time round were:
1. My running shoes (wore them out, poor souls).
2. Dad's running shoes.
3. Our digicam! *mourns*
Daddy and his butterfingers. Sigh. Tis why the number of pics taken this time around were severely limited. Sigh again.
I enjoyed the trip, though... I'm glad I'm finally fit enough to run around the hill to my favorite spots without keeling over after two steps. If only there'd been more time.. I would've liked to have been able to watch the sun set and go over a few things in a place where my mind is clear and without needless distractions.
Still.. it was nice to get away with the family. Even the bickering was fun, as always :) Here's to more random trips in the future (and may they be at least a day longer)!!!
There's lots of renovation going on, most of the old places are getting new looks or being shifted around... But at the end of the day the result is still the same -- there's nothing to do! :P
Unless of course you're like me and are quite content enjoying the cool breeze (bliss!), absolutely stunning hilltop scenery, a good book and your favorite songs playing on a trusty Pod :D
The rest of the family got restless though, so after one night we're back home where there's air-conditioning and to quote the dad: "People!!!!"
But what is a Fernandez trip without it's fair share of mishaps? The casualties this time round were:
1. My running shoes (wore them out, poor souls).
2. Dad's running shoes.
3. Our digicam! *mourns*
Daddy and his butterfingers. Sigh. Tis why the number of pics taken this time around were severely limited. Sigh again.
I enjoyed the trip, though... I'm glad I'm finally fit enough to run around the hill to my favorite spots without keeling over after two steps. If only there'd been more time.. I would've liked to have been able to watch the sun set and go over a few things in a place where my mind is clear and without needless distractions.
Still.. it was nice to get away with the family. Even the bickering was fun, as always :) Here's to more random trips in the future (and may they be at least a day longer)!!!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
The Good Life :)
Emo days are over! I'm back to the "whatever" mode, which I like :P I just read something and realized the implications of it... and surprisingly enough, it didn't cut me to the heart, or some other drama-fied thing like that. Yay me! :D
On another note, I always thought it would be hard to cut back and eat healthily. The reality is, it actually isn't all that difficult. It's just a matter of making the right choices. Healthy food can be incredibly tasty if you know what to do with it :) And interestingly enough, once you get a taste for it, greasy and sugar-filled foods become less palatable. I'm not saying I don't like my desserts any more, but I don't crave them now, nor do I eat more than I should when I do have them, which I is what I used to do.
Most importantly, I feel better physically than I have in years... And all thanks to a more balanced diet and regular exercise :) Give it a shot ... you might just be surprised ;)
On another note, I always thought it would be hard to cut back and eat healthily. The reality is, it actually isn't all that difficult. It's just a matter of making the right choices. Healthy food can be incredibly tasty if you know what to do with it :) And interestingly enough, once you get a taste for it, greasy and sugar-filled foods become less palatable. I'm not saying I don't like my desserts any more, but I don't crave them now, nor do I eat more than I should when I do have them, which I is what I used to do.
Most importantly, I feel better physically than I have in years... And all thanks to a more balanced diet and regular exercise :) Give it a shot ... you might just be surprised ;)
Sunday, April 19, 2009
*sigh*
Every once in awhile the feeling of "if only..." tends to sneak up on me, and tonight it's doing a fine job.
I guess the melancholy is more down to the fact that I've never really known what it's like. Partially my fault for being so damn picky, but yea. It's not that I'm unhappy. Sometimes it's just nice to have someone to call or think about, to do stuff with, to rant to...
Mmm... I shall let myself indulge a bit more and then snap myself out of it. Thank goodness that typically isn't a hard thing to do :)
I guess the melancholy is more down to the fact that I've never really known what it's like. Partially my fault for being so damn picky, but yea. It's not that I'm unhappy. Sometimes it's just nice to have someone to call or think about, to do stuff with, to rant to...
Mmm... I shall let myself indulge a bit more and then snap myself out of it. Thank goodness that typically isn't a hard thing to do :)
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Break!
I just realized a possible reason why my taste has been so... eclectic.
The similarity theory apparently holds very true with me.
Geeks = attractive because me = geek.
Sigh.
Pumpkin soup with basil and cherry tomatoes + whole grain bread = a better meal than I expected :)
Okay, it's back to reading about the cerebellum I go!
"Little brain". How apt.
The similarity theory apparently holds very true with me.
Geeks = attractive because me = geek.
Sigh.
Pumpkin soup with basil and cherry tomatoes + whole grain bread = a better meal than I expected :)
Okay, it's back to reading about the cerebellum I go!
"Little brain". How apt.
Monday, April 13, 2009
A Dream
Oh, to spend the day in a quiet bookstore with a steaming cup of coffee, rain beating down outside the window as I lose myself in the world my imagination constructs with the aid of the book in my hands..
I can almost get a whiff of the wonderful smell of freshly brewed coffee mingling with the distinctly comforting scent of books, both old and new, and the freshness of the rain soaked air as the door opens every now and again to admit a slightly bedraggled customer or two.
A proper, quaint little book cafe, filled with books from wall to wall. Oh, to spend a quiet evening in such a place!
But for now,... I dare only dream.
I can almost get a whiff of the wonderful smell of freshly brewed coffee mingling with the distinctly comforting scent of books, both old and new, and the freshness of the rain soaked air as the door opens every now and again to admit a slightly bedraggled customer or two.
A proper, quaint little book cafe, filled with books from wall to wall. Oh, to spend a quiet evening in such a place!
But for now,... I dare only dream.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Maybe...
Maybe one dayYou will open your eyes and see
That what you hold in your hands
Without even knowing
Was always yours
Freely given
But fragile, even so
Maybe one day
You will open your eyes and see
That you never really had to
Search far and wide
Always looking for a sign
All you really had to do
Was open your eyes and see
Passion need not be all flame
Love need not always be a whirlwind
A gentle touch, a tender word
A light that shines
Constant and true in the darkest night
Maybe one day
You will open your eyes and see
That the promise of forever
Is standing right here
Heretofore, unseen
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
*love*
In 1993...So many wonderful memories... So much love :) These are the three most important people in my life -- have been and always will be. It took me some time to truly appreciate their value, but now I know that in spite of the ups and downs, nothing can ever take the place of the love of my family.
15 years later...:)
15 years later...:)Sunday, April 05, 2009
And So...
I haven't slept so much in such a long time. It feels good to be able to close my eyes and relax as I listen to the rain pour down outside my bedroom window. It's been so long since relax has even been part of my vocabulary. "Chill-ax" has been more the thing since all we've been doing is work and even the most even tempers get frayed.. :)
I've been given a lot to think about these past couple of days and I have to admit I'm afraid. But there's no place for fear in this world, is there? The only way to win is to go ahead and try. What may seem like an easy thing for some people is daunting for me and I will need to dredge up some inner source of strength to keep myself from finding an excuse to bolt in the opposite direction. Because scared or not, I need this. More to the point, I actually WANT to do it. And as much dissonance as that creates, I'm sure enough of myself now to recognize fear for what it is and all I have to do is steel myself to face it.
On a happier note, the holidays are drawing near and an interesting but horribly emotionally taxing semester is almost at a close... Time does fly, huh? I hope the next semesters bring a little less drama and controversy but that's a very unlikely dream in my world :) Oh well, I can't say as I haven't had any fun in spite of all the American high school drama type nonsense that was floating around for a bit. Sometimes all you can do in the face of idiocy is find its funny side and laugh.
The beginning of 2009 has been eventful... I wonder what the rest of the year will bring...
I've been given a lot to think about these past couple of days and I have to admit I'm afraid. But there's no place for fear in this world, is there? The only way to win is to go ahead and try. What may seem like an easy thing for some people is daunting for me and I will need to dredge up some inner source of strength to keep myself from finding an excuse to bolt in the opposite direction. Because scared or not, I need this. More to the point, I actually WANT to do it. And as much dissonance as that creates, I'm sure enough of myself now to recognize fear for what it is and all I have to do is steel myself to face it.
On a happier note, the holidays are drawing near and an interesting but horribly emotionally taxing semester is almost at a close... Time does fly, huh? I hope the next semesters bring a little less drama and controversy but that's a very unlikely dream in my world :) Oh well, I can't say as I haven't had any fun in spite of all the American high school drama type nonsense that was floating around for a bit. Sometimes all you can do in the face of idiocy is find its funny side and laugh.
The beginning of 2009 has been eventful... I wonder what the rest of the year will bring...
Friday, April 03, 2009
Tell Me Why Love Story Is So Hard To Forget! :(
I can't believe I've had two teeny bopper songs stuck in my head the past few days!
On the one hand, lil Archie's warbling "Tell me whhhyyyy you're so hard to forget..." and on the other, Taylor Swift's singing the strangest lyrics a girl her age could sing: "Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone..."
I swear to you, it's the strangest combination of sounds ever. And to make things worse, I start singing along to my own version of Sweet Sixteen FM -- in baby tones, no less!
Why oh why can't I get a cool song stuck in my head for once? Then maybe I wouldn't annoy the people around me by singing the same old lines over and over again like a kid out of Barney.
Hmph.
On the one hand, lil Archie's warbling "Tell me whhhyyyy you're so hard to forget..." and on the other, Taylor Swift's singing the strangest lyrics a girl her age could sing: "Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone..."
I swear to you, it's the strangest combination of sounds ever. And to make things worse, I start singing along to my own version of Sweet Sixteen FM -- in baby tones, no less!
Why oh why can't I get a cool song stuck in my head for once? Then maybe I wouldn't annoy the people around me by singing the same old lines over and over again like a kid out of Barney.
Hmph.
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