An Attempt To Explain... Sigh

Oops. Oh dear. Elaine has just realized that previous posts were a little dramatic. Even for Elaine's standards. And totally unexplained. So she's been asked by various parties to reveal source of said outburst.

Aih. I wish I could explain it. I'd like to hear the explanation myself, actually. It should be a good one. Provided my brain decides to come back for the long siesta it has obviously taken. For now, I'm being controlled solely by emotions, and everyone knows an emotional Elaine is NEVER a good thing. Nah uh *shakes head vigorously*

Said posts have also extracted responses from parties that ... require an explanation. Mainly coz the language used was so strong. Sigh. I KNEW I was going to regret that post. If Insanely Sane are in knots wondering what was going on, sorry girls. It was just me having one of my "let's all go nuts and over-react" days. You shall have an explanation and decide for yourself, though.

Hm.. Another point that I need to clarify - the posts were full of "he" and "him" and what "he" should be doing. Hm. In this instance I wasn't directing said unexplainable fury at HIM (you know, the "him" him..). It was merely the easiest way to express myself, so I used it. If I had to talk in general all the time... Mati la saya! A bit difficult to worry about whether my sentences are correct or not when all I felt like doing was throwing a vase or a plate or something that would shatter satisfyingly enough. Hehe.

Oh and the parts about not being upfront and stuff, and just saying it and all... Well. That, funnily enough, wasn't directed at him either. Technically not, anyway. Coz it wasn't HIM I was angry at. The whole situation was pretty much my fault and well... someone else's. Let's just call that person "Voldemort" [easier than He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named lerr.. lol].

The whole situation really arose from me being gullible enough to listen to Voldemort. Not a smart move, wouldn't you say? Listening to Voldemort. Can get one into SERIOUS trouble. Which it did. And now there's ANOTHER misunderstanding. Which I'm at a loss as to how to clear up.

Gah. Next time I need to censor my fingers. Or at the very least, type straightforwardly. Everytime I have a meaning behind a meaning, I wind up confusing everybody. Especially the ones who matter. ARGH.

You know what? I'm being confusing again. Sigh. WHHHHY? This needs clearing up ASAP.

Is it enough just to know that I'm over being an angry idiot? And that I really don't know what possessed me to lash out like that? I did warn you... I did! It wasn't good for you to see that. Not at all.

Sigh... one consolation for me. Does that qualify me to be a 15th century writer? I'm an expert at beating around the bush and having hidden meanings that no one gets. Really! I am...