Head In The Clouds? Maybe.

I've been getting a lot of this lately:

"Why are you so fussy?" "You should lower your standards la." "He's okay what. What's wrong with him?"

I'm sure it ain't hard to figure out what they're talking about. Especially since I constantly gripe about it. Hehe. Whatever it is, I'm incapable of liking someone just because they really like me. And though I might seem like the world's biggest fussy pot, I truly don't mean to be.

Let's look at it this way: For all my spoutings about "the perfect guy", what I really mean to say is, think jigsaw puzzle. You want a piece that will fit perfectly, right? Not something that looks the size and shape but yet isn't the correct piece. That's what I really want in a guy. And it isn't a feeling that I can simply shake off. It's part of my make up - I can't settle for anything less than that.

Another thing - loving someone more than they love you is not the best scenario. But having someone love you more than you love them isn't any better. Here's the way I figure it - in both cases, things like jealousy, discontentment, possessiveness are likely to crop up. However if you can find someone who's one on the same level, there's less likelihood of that happening because you couldn't imagine ever being with anyone else - and neither could he.

Okay, so I'm an incurable romantic. I admit that. I still think a relationship without that spark, that little bit of romance, that feeling of rightness.. isn't complete. I know there are a billion other things - practical things - that come into play, but I figure if you have that kind of certainty, you can work anything out in time.

We'll just say what I'm looking for is really "the other half". As in the right one to make a whole. Is that too much to ask?

I thought not.