*sighs*

I hate feeling insecure. I absolutelye do. I hate it even more when I have no reason to be.

*smacks self on head*

Why do I allow myself to give in to these negative feelings anyway? No matter how I remind myself of certain things, I can't help but feel like I'm fighting a losing battle...

But 10 minutes later I perk up again and become all optimistic.

Sigh.

I should be WAY past (or still a loooong way from) the age where such crazy mood swings are a common part of life. But god.. sometimes it's hard not to doubt my sanity. Like, why do I do this to myself?

In my head I understand there are reasons.

My heart, however, is terrified beyond belief that it's being set up to being broken again.

Even if that isn't true, it's a hard feeling to get over. I'm trying though, I really am.

Maybe I've just got to try a little harder.