Early Morning Musings...

It is a wonderful thing to be able to stand alone. To be strong enough to face hell on your own. But in the past week I've learned that it also takes a different kind of courage to admit that there are things we are just can't do by ourselves, that sometimes, we need to be able to give up pride and rely on the strength of others. It isn't weakness to say I can't do this on my own. We were not created in isolation and there will come a point in time when we will have to learn to trust in the people who love us. It isn't easy being vulnerable, and it sure doesn't give the ego a boost to realize that I'm exposing my weaknesses to someone else. But giving up that need for control, the idea that strength lies only in the ability to face the world alone... it brings with it a sense of peace that I never really thought to experience. As well as an accountability that we all need, regardless of who we are. True, it is important to be able to be independent and stand up for ourselves in this world... but to me, being able to turn to someone else and say "I need your help" is equally as important in order for us to have a balance in our lives. Otherwise, we run a serious danger of becoming egotistical and that, maybe more than anything else, is what drove home this point for me. It is something I shall continue to strive for every day -- the humility to accept that I cannot always turn my life around on my own, and I pray that I will one day come to a point where I can fully accept that I am no superwoman, as much as I would like to think I am :)