Argh! What's with me and misrepresenting myself?? I cannot describe my personality to save my LIFE! Oh help! The latest incident had me making myself out to be a scarily snobbish sarcastic biatch whose goal in life is to look smart. Sigh. And if you tell me that's true, I shall very likely knock you flat. Hehe. ARGH!
Okay, so I'll admit that I'm a crazy, complicated goop of a girl. I can make a complete fool out of myself when I'm comfortable, as my friends will very well testify. But when I'm not, people mistake being uncomfortable for aloofness. What makes me uncomfortable around people I don't know? Honestly? I don't know.
But you know what? It's when I approach people that they realize I'm not half as snobbish as I look. Problem with that is, I can't be approaching all the people who are "scared"
of me. Half the time I don't KNOW that they're scared of me until I approach them and they tell me somewhere down the line.
I smile at anyone I come into eye contact with, but I guess that still isn't enough. I have a permanent scary look on my face, hey. Sigh.
It would be nice to be known as the nutter I really am. But how do I be a nutter when people don't dare to get close enough to find that out? Hell, even saying hello to me is a chore for some. Why is that? Am I really that much of a freaky person? Am I?
I'm pretty tired of the conflicting reports. I don't know which is which anymore, but to my thinking I respond in pretty much the same way to any situation. Maybe I'm wrong. I need help, people! How do I get away from image of the scary bitch I portray and let people see the crazy nut that lurks inside my brain?
Or maybe they'd better not see that part. I can't decide which is scarier. Lol.
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- wild orchid
- I write what I feel and as such, my posts are all opinion based. Feel free to disagree -- they may seem conclusive, but this is only because it's easier to write that way :)
6 comments:
just be yourself. worked for me. :)
As it happens "myself" is currently up for debate :P
My dear girl, the first thing you do is:
SMILE LIKE AN IDIOT
Of course, I won't guarantee people will talk to you, but at least they don't find you scary. Creepy, perhaps, maybe insane, but you can live with that. Teehee
Ju Li, smiling like an idiot will scare the heck off ppl too, you know...
It's YOU on the outside as well as inside, Elaine. How can you try not to be..er..YOU?!
You know how it's often recommended you picture other people nude so that you don't feel so scared of 'em? Well, you could try something similar: actually taking off all YOUR clothes. I guarantee that a) half the people you meet (most of the gals and some gay guys) will think you a crazy nut, whilst b) the other half (most of the guys, and lesbian gals) will be falling over themselves their rush to get to know you. Missions accomplished.
Now, about my consultation fee...
Haha. Or I could scare all groups off. Permanently :P Ju - don't I ALWAYS smile like an idiot???
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