I'm disappointed. Not exactly surprised, but disappointed. Sigh. I know I totally overreacted last night, though, which is why the post is gone. It's hard to be fair when you feel like crap. I guess I should give him the benefit of the doubt, hey? What other choice do I have?
I know y'all are wondering what I'm talking about, but just be thankful you didn't see last night's post. Coz it was stupid. A totally un-called for reaction and I should slap myself for it.
Right now, though, I'm thinking more rationally... But hell. I admit there is a little nagging doubt. But heck. There's an explanation for everything. Maybe not what one wants to hear... But an explanation, nevertheless.
Oh.. And I deleted the post because it would cause unnecessary heartache. On my part, mostly. Oh well. It's sufficient to know that while I'm a little down, I'm also thinking straight again. Which is more than can be said for last night.
Thank God I could delete it before it caused any trouble. I really need to check my emotions so they don't get overboard.
Dammit.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Sunday, October 30, 2005
-nothing-
Aahh.. After a month or so of stressing and watching other people stress out, it's so NICE just to be able to sit back and relax. Exams really do make you appreciate the simpler things in life. Like being able to sleep as early as you want, and wake up as late as you want. Haha. It was sooo nice to wake up at 7 today (sorry la.. internal alarm doesn't allow me to wake up later than that) and know that I could go back to sleep again... Which I did! Aaaaaahhhh... BLISS!
Didn't do much today.. Just sent my bro and his friends to JJ for them to go check out a movie. I didn't go, though. My poor mum had loads to do at home.. and it's a good thing I didn't go out, too, otherwise she would've collapsed or something. So I was her driver for the morning.. although she can never quite resist making out like she thinks I can't drive to save my life. Literally. Pah. Haha.. Oh well. At least she let's me take the car 'round by myself. That itself is an improvement!
With any luck, I'll watch all the movies I want to see this holidays :) Well, with the exception of those which haven't come out la! I'm sick of missing all the movies I've wanted to see coz of bloody exams and school.
Oops. Have to stop now.. Sigh. Mom's home and I've been online for, like, 5 hours already! Yikes! I'll just have to continue some other time!
HAPPY DEEPAVALI and SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all my Indian and Malay friends!! Love y'all!
Didn't do much today.. Just sent my bro and his friends to JJ for them to go check out a movie. I didn't go, though. My poor mum had loads to do at home.. and it's a good thing I didn't go out, too, otherwise she would've collapsed or something. So I was her driver for the morning.. although she can never quite resist making out like she thinks I can't drive to save my life. Literally. Pah. Haha.. Oh well. At least she let's me take the car 'round by myself. That itself is an improvement!
With any luck, I'll watch all the movies I want to see this holidays :) Well, with the exception of those which haven't come out la! I'm sick of missing all the movies I've wanted to see coz of bloody exams and school.
Oops. Have to stop now.. Sigh. Mom's home and I've been online for, like, 5 hours already! Yikes! I'll just have to continue some other time!
HAPPY DEEPAVALI and SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all my Indian and Malay friends!! Love y'all!
Silly Personality Thingamajigs
| Your Personality Profile |
 You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval. |
| How You Life Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them. |
| You Are 60% Weird |
 You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks! |
| You Should Learn Chinese |
 Surprised? You shouldn't be - Chinese is perfect for an ambitious person like you. You're a natural entrepreneur, and a billion people are waiting to do business with you! |
Your Love Number is |
Who you fall in love with is all about who you trust. Loyalty is important to you, and you want the most faithful of lovers. In return, you never let your heart or eyes wander. Open and honest, your relationships tend to be free of secrets. |
What Is Your Love Number?
| How You Are In Love |
 You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
| You're a Shy Kisser |
 You *do* love to kiss, once your comfortable with it And that means knowing the person you're kissing pretty well You usually don't make the first move when it comes to making out But you've got plenty of intensity in return |
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Elaine + Thinking = Potential Disaster
I've had a bit of time to think since yesterday.. Yeah. Exams are OVER, baby!
WOoooOOOooHOoooOOOoooO!
Okay. Digression over. Back to what I was thinking.
Well... I think I've written this same thing some time ago. Something about how it was impossible for a relationship to work if one party like the other party more than he/she liked him/her. I believe this was the actual quote:
"Another thing - loving someone more than they love you is not the best scenario. But having someone love you more than you love them isn't any better. Here's the way I figure it - in both cases, things like jealousy, discontentment, possessiveness are likely to crop up."
~ wildorchid 17, April 26 2005.
Oh gosh. You have no idea how TRUE that is! At that time I was just blah blah-ing as I usually do.. But now, gosh! I've just found out how TOTALLY true that is. And to think I said it all those months back.. Bloody freaky, I tell ya!
Hm. Anyhow, I figure I should stop making an ass of myself and start making decisions. Fast. Do I really want to be with a guy who likes me LESS than I like him? You know:
Him Like Me < Me Like Him
In Math speak. And what brought this about? Well, I was talking to Shih Chung the other day, and this was his response to my question about whether a guy's world would really revolve around the girl he liked:
"Yeah I guess it's natural. I mean the tendency is there that the guy would want to spend as many moments with the girl he likes. He'd think of her when he awakes, when he washes up, when he eats, when he works, when he clicks the mouse his mind would just wander.
"He'd wonder how she is, he'd wonder where she is, he'd wonder if she's well. The feelings are there, but it's whether the guy brings it out in the right way. You know, instead of being over-protective or obviously insecure.
"There are moments when he thinks of her and if he can't reach her, he can just stare at her picture for hours. Be enchanted with her smile, over and over and over again."
That's a direct quote, mind!
[Sorry Shih Chung! It was so beautiful a sentiment that I had to post it! *Puss-In-Boots eyes*]
God, he has the heart of a poet this guy... I'd give you a big hug, SC, but I think a better gift for you would be NOT to hug you, eh? :P
All right. Digressing again. See, THAT, right up there, is why I'm pretty much convinced that we're not on the same level, about this whole thing. No, not me and Shih Chung. Me and the OTHER guy. Sigh.
You see, I can't bring myself to accept anything less than 100 %. Things just don't work that way. But how'm I supposed to know huh? I mean, I could just assume that it's a two way thing and end up with a broken heart in the long run. Or I could just jump to the obvious conclusion and get out while I still have SOME smidgen of pride left. Not that there's much... Sigh.
And to think it isn't some gorgeous blue-eyed brunette who's reducing me to this. ARGH! Life is SO unfair, I tell you! MICHAEL! *sniffles* [Sorry, I had to say that].
Oh hell. I'm being ridiculous. But I can't help it. After all, tis my heart at stake, no?
WOoooOOOooHOoooOOOoooO!
Okay. Digression over. Back to what I was thinking.
Well... I think I've written this same thing some time ago. Something about how it was impossible for a relationship to work if one party like the other party more than he/she liked him/her. I believe this was the actual quote:
"Another thing - loving someone more than they love you is not the best scenario. But having someone love you more than you love them isn't any better. Here's the way I figure it - in both cases, things like jealousy, discontentment, possessiveness are likely to crop up."
~ wildorchid 17, April 26 2005.
Oh gosh. You have no idea how TRUE that is! At that time I was just blah blah-ing as I usually do.. But now, gosh! I've just found out how TOTALLY true that is. And to think I said it all those months back.. Bloody freaky, I tell ya!
Hm. Anyhow, I figure I should stop making an ass of myself and start making decisions. Fast. Do I really want to be with a guy who likes me LESS than I like him? You know:
Him Like Me < Me Like Him
In Math speak. And what brought this about? Well, I was talking to Shih Chung the other day, and this was his response to my question about whether a guy's world would really revolve around the girl he liked:
"Yeah I guess it's natural. I mean the tendency is there that the guy would want to spend as many moments with the girl he likes. He'd think of her when he awakes, when he washes up, when he eats, when he works, when he clicks the mouse his mind would just wander.
"He'd wonder how she is, he'd wonder where she is, he'd wonder if she's well. The feelings are there, but it's whether the guy brings it out in the right way. You know, instead of being over-protective or obviously insecure.
"There are moments when he thinks of her and if he can't reach her, he can just stare at her picture for hours. Be enchanted with her smile, over and over and over again."
That's a direct quote, mind!
[Sorry Shih Chung! It was so beautiful a sentiment that I had to post it! *Puss-In-Boots eyes*]
God, he has the heart of a poet this guy... I'd give you a big hug, SC, but I think a better gift for you would be NOT to hug you, eh? :P
All right. Digressing again. See, THAT, right up there, is why I'm pretty much convinced that we're not on the same level, about this whole thing. No, not me and Shih Chung. Me and the OTHER guy. Sigh.
You see, I can't bring myself to accept anything less than 100 %. Things just don't work that way. But how'm I supposed to know huh? I mean, I could just assume that it's a two way thing and end up with a broken heart in the long run. Or I could just jump to the obvious conclusion and get out while I still have SOME smidgen of pride left. Not that there's much... Sigh.
And to think it isn't some gorgeous blue-eyed brunette who's reducing me to this. ARGH! Life is SO unfair, I tell you! MICHAEL! *sniffles* [Sorry, I had to say that].
Oh hell. I'm being ridiculous. But I can't help it. After all, tis my heart at stake, no?
The Not-So-Boyish-Anymore Boys Are B A C K!!!!
Oh. My. God. I can't believe Westlife are back with a new album! Oh wow. I'm still in shock. But what the hell. I'm NOT complaining! YES! FINALLY!
WooOOOooOOOOooHHOOOOooOOOOoOOO! They are BACK, baby! *does a typical idiotic-looking Elaine dance*
What? Don't look at me like that! I LOVE WESTLIFE. Yeah, so there! I don't care if they're all fluffy buffy pop. They rule the world, as far as I'm concerned. Yep that's right!
And I don't bloody care if they're all husbands or fathers or gay. I mean, so what? T'wasn't like I was gonna marry bloody Mark. Why should I care if he's gay? Bah humbug. So much the better. At least it'll be fun to see if full grown men start showing up at their concerts. MUAHAHA! Okay sorry. I'm being a complete pig. [And if you're wondering about the "bloody"s, blame it on bloody Jill Mansell.]
Aaah Westlife. Brings back some pretty luvly memories, that does... NOSTALGIA!
WESTLIFE FACE TO FACE RELEASE DATE: 31 OCTOBER 2005!
Officially, at least. I think it's in the UK though. Gah.
Saturday, October 22, 2005
I Am So Gonna Flunk My Exams... (And This Is Why!)
Yesterday was funny. Dave, mum and I went for a movie. Yes, yes. Another one. YES, I know my exams are like, next week. Hey, I know I'm screwed, so I've given up. I'll use the remaining year or so to buck up and redeem myself. Muahaha.
Anyway, yeah. Cinema. We decided to go for a movie, at like 5 in the evening (thank David for that). And well, we didn't have all that many options. So when we got to the cinema, we opted for the 7.15 show of "Four Brothers". Like, randomly.
So, selamba-ly, we bought our stuff and went to the cinema.. Which was empty. And just happened to remain empty for the entire duration of the movie!
WOOOOOOHOOOOO!
The whole bloody theatre to ourselves, man! How do you beat THAT! David was singing "Hard Day's Night" at the top of his lungs, and when they screened the trailer for April Snow, I screamed "Bae Yong Jun!!!" at the top of my lungs and hey! No one to shut you up, y'know what I'm sayin'? HAHA!
Seriously, man, it was SO cool to just be able to lepak, laugh as loud and as long as you want, leave pop corn on the seat next to you coz you're tired of carrying it, putting your legs up... Yeehaw! Best la, I tell you!
Only thing though. Lack of people = SUPER FREEZING HYPOTHERMIA-INDUCING COLD!
Hm. That was my only complaint, but heck. Can't have everything, right? HAHA. The movie wasn't worth the 27 bucks, but who cares? The experience was danged fun and I wouldn't trade it in for a better movie in a packed theatre.
Hahahehehihihohohuhu.
And I'm outta here! (Time to attempt to study in an effort not to get a big fat 0 in the exam :P)
Anyway, yeah. Cinema. We decided to go for a movie, at like 5 in the evening (thank David for that). And well, we didn't have all that many options. So when we got to the cinema, we opted for the 7.15 show of "Four Brothers". Like, randomly.
So, selamba-ly, we bought our stuff and went to the cinema.. Which was empty. And just happened to remain empty for the entire duration of the movie!
WOOOOOOHOOOOO!
The whole bloody theatre to ourselves, man! How do you beat THAT! David was singing "Hard Day's Night" at the top of his lungs, and when they screened the trailer for April Snow, I screamed "Bae Yong Jun!!!" at the top of my lungs and hey! No one to shut you up, y'know what I'm sayin'? HAHA!
Seriously, man, it was SO cool to just be able to lepak, laugh as loud and as long as you want, leave pop corn on the seat next to you coz you're tired of carrying it, putting your legs up... Yeehaw! Best la, I tell you!
Only thing though. Lack of people = SUPER FREEZING HYPOTHERMIA-INDUCING COLD!
Hm. That was my only complaint, but heck. Can't have everything, right? HAHA. The movie wasn't worth the 27 bucks, but who cares? The experience was danged fun and I wouldn't trade it in for a better movie in a packed theatre.
Hahahehehihihohohuhu.
And I'm outta here! (Time to attempt to study in an effort not to get a big fat 0 in the exam :P)
Friday, October 21, 2005
=untitled=
Haha. Haha. Haha. I don't know whether to laugh or cry at what my darling cousin and her boyfriend tried to pull yesterday. Seriously... Okay. So I think laughing would be the better choice. HAHAHAHAHA.
Let's just say it still turned out pretty fun, even though ol' Ted was blatantly trying to turn it into a date. We were out for... 7 1/2 hours! Gosh, wonder what we did for so long. And I discovered that I still suck at pool. Nothing's changed since 2002. Whoopee. Nice to know that some things never do *insert sarcastic laugh*
Exams start on Monday. Yeehaw. Dontcha just LOVE the feeling of being totally unprepared? Without a doubt, my maths is screwed. I'll probably just scrape through my Bio, and I'll be jumping for joy if I get over 60 for Chem. So yep. All in all, I've resigned myself to doing badly this time. And if I do, it'll be a much needed kick in the butt for me. As in "BUCK UP YOU FOOL!"
Sigh. To be totally honest, I can't concentrate on my studies. Why? Coz I feel like a bloody yoyo. One second he has me on Cloud Nine, the next he's knocking my feet out from under me and I go crashing back to earth. Blah. It's the same ol' thing again and again... I don't know what he wants. Just friendship? Fine! Tell me so. NOW. And be over and done with it. Y'know? I hate mixed signals. All they do is screw with your mind and it's NOT FUN.
Oh well. This week hasn't been a complete waste, at least. Made a new.. well, acquaintance. Which is a good thing, eh?
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Because of You
Chorus of a song by Kelly Clarkson.. I know I'm taking it out of context, but it's appropriate for someone whom, long ago, made me the scardey cat that I am today. Wheeha. Hurray for traumatic experiences. Gah.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Stuffies
First off, I have one VERY important thing to say:
NO MORE JAPANESE FOOD TIL I CLEAR ALL THAT DAMNED FISH FROM MY SYSTEM!
Thanks to my brilliat cousins, the sight of Jap food now makes me want to run away and jump into the nearest monsoon drain. Eeeeek! Remind me not to go to a Japanese food buffet with those kiddos again! Although... they DID eat their money's worth. More than their money's worth, I think. *shudders* All that fish....
One thing confuses me: Have we gotten the purpose of dating all wrong? I mean, dating's supposed to be a way for 2 people who are attracted to each other to get to know each other better, no? Well, initially, anyway. Thing is, everyone seems to have this concept that you actually have to be a couple to date. Hm...
Coz the way I see it is, it's IMPOSSIBLE to get to know anyone properly without dates. Mainly coz friends have this tendency to watch slyly out of the corners of their eyes. And make snide remarks. No offence to friends [I do it too, guilty guilty.. :P] heehee. But seriously. Dating was invented for a reason. Better to date before starting a relationship, right? Then can date more people. HAHA. Oops. Just kidding. Sort of.
Okay. I don't know what I'm saying. *knocks self on head*
EXAMS IN LESS THAN TWO WEEKS. Eeps. I'm sososo dead. Deadness of choice? MATHS!!!!!
Like, are you SURPRISED? Hah. Thought not.
I miss Jujulili at times like these. Exams and stuff were much less stressful with her around. Don't ask me why. JUWEEEEE! *sniffles*
Whaaat am I going to dooooo??? Oh help. People ask me Bio questions. I try to answer them. I hope I answer correctly, coz if I'm wrong, I'm just screwing a whole lot of people over! Oh no. SORRY GUYS! I hope I'm right. I really really do.
Oh well. Blabbering's up.
Oh btw, I'm going to be an MC for a teacher's retirement in my school next Tuesday. Eeps. Me. MC. Cue to laugh now, folks. Oh well. Gotta try sometime. Wish me luck!
NO MORE JAPANESE FOOD TIL I CLEAR ALL THAT DAMNED FISH FROM MY SYSTEM!
Thanks to my brilliat cousins, the sight of Jap food now makes me want to run away and jump into the nearest monsoon drain. Eeeeek! Remind me not to go to a Japanese food buffet with those kiddos again! Although... they DID eat their money's worth. More than their money's worth, I think. *shudders* All that fish....
One thing confuses me: Have we gotten the purpose of dating all wrong? I mean, dating's supposed to be a way for 2 people who are attracted to each other to get to know each other better, no? Well, initially, anyway. Thing is, everyone seems to have this concept that you actually have to be a couple to date. Hm...
Coz the way I see it is, it's IMPOSSIBLE to get to know anyone properly without dates. Mainly coz friends have this tendency to watch slyly out of the corners of their eyes. And make snide remarks. No offence to friends [I do it too, guilty guilty.. :P] heehee. But seriously. Dating was invented for a reason. Better to date before starting a relationship, right? Then can date more people. HAHA. Oops. Just kidding. Sort of.
Okay. I don't know what I'm saying. *knocks self on head*
EXAMS IN LESS THAN TWO WEEKS. Eeps. I'm sososo dead. Deadness of choice? MATHS!!!!!
Like, are you SURPRISED? Hah. Thought not.
I miss Jujulili at times like these. Exams and stuff were much less stressful with her around. Don't ask me why. JUWEEEEE! *sniffles*
Whaaat am I going to dooooo??? Oh help. People ask me Bio questions. I try to answer them. I hope I answer correctly, coz if I'm wrong, I'm just screwing a whole lot of people over! Oh no. SORRY GUYS! I hope I'm right. I really really do.
Oh well. Blabbering's up.
Oh btw, I'm going to be an MC for a teacher's retirement in my school next Tuesday. Eeps. Me. MC. Cue to laugh now, folks. Oh well. Gotta try sometime. Wish me luck!
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Quizzie!
GUYS! Quiz time! If you've read my blog before, this should be NO problem at all :) So take it, aight? Especially you, Insanely Saners!!! :D
QUIZ ONE (easy)
I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!
QUIZ TWO (hard)
I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!
(Just realized that the other one was WAAAAY too simple. Heehee. Try this one out too! :P)
QUIZ ONE (easy)
I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!
QUIZ TWO (hard)
I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!
(Just realized that the other one was WAAAAY too simple. Heehee. Try this one out too! :P)
Ah.. Ideals!
I just had to post this off the Friendster bulletin board! I mean, there you have it! In a nutshell.. the almost perfect guy! :D Read and give me feedback, modifications, disagreements.. whatever. But to me, this is EXACTLY the kind of guy I want :P
I am the guy that will come home from work and ask how your day was
I am the guy that will help with the dishes after eating dinner
I am the guy that will stay up late and watch movies with you
I am the guy that will get up with the kids so you can sleep in
I am the guy that will hold you to feel your heart beat with mine
I am the guy that will tell bad jokes just to hear you laugh
I am the guy that will always be by your side no matter what
I am the guy that will do the little things that matter to you
I am the guy that will push you to your limits
I am the guy that will hold your hair out of your face when you are sick
I am the guy that will kill the spiders before they crawl on you
I am the guy that will call you from work just to hear your voice
I am the guy that will be there every night when you go to bed and there every morning when you wake up
I am the guy that will kiss you in the morning before leaving to work
I am the guy that will show you how much I love you
I am the guy that wants to be loved as much as I love
I am the guy that will come home from work and ask how your day was
I am the guy that will help with the dishes after eating dinner
I am the guy that will stay up late and watch movies with you
I am the guy that will get up with the kids so you can sleep in
I am the guy that will hold you to feel your heart beat with mine
I am the guy that will tell bad jokes just to hear you laugh
I am the guy that will always be by your side no matter what
I am the guy that will do the little things that matter to you
I am the guy that will push you to your limits
I am the guy that will hold your hair out of your face when you are sick
I am the guy that will kill the spiders before they crawl on you
I am the guy that will call you from work just to hear your voice
I am the guy that will be there every night when you go to bed and there every morning when you wake up
I am the guy that will kiss you in the morning before leaving to work
I am the guy that will show you how much I love you
I am the guy that wants to be loved as much as I love
Can't think of a title... Blah.
Whoopsie. It's been ages since I've blogged for real. I've got so much to write about, I'm kinda contemplating not writing about it at all! Save me some brain power. Although.. the stuff I write usually doesn't require any. Haha. Double kick for the same old self slamming. I need to cut it out. Like, totally.
[Hey, has anyone ever noticed how easy it is to talk like a bimbo??? Just a random thought.. that probably just made me look pretty damned foolish. Haha!]
My cousins were down over the weekend plus a few days. One from Australia, the other from Singapore. 24 and 17 respectively. Don't think I've had so much fun in a LOOONNNGG time. Although staying up til 2 and getting up at 5.45 completely screwed up my immune system (in other words, I'm a sick duck right now). Goshes. I miss 'em already!!! Darn.
I do have some updates, but they're for Insanely Sane eyes only, so girls. You know where to go! (Jono.. you know this stuff already, so yeah *grins*)
Okay, since I've been tagged by Jenna (and she conveniently took the "physical" out of the question), I'll answer this one. Since I apparently have nothing to say. At this present moment in time.
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Seven traits I look for in the opposite sex:
1. Knows his own mind. Will not expect me to lead him by the nose, tell him what to do all the time. That's bloody BORING! He's gotta be his own man, able to function without me around 24/7. Independence is key, folks!
2. Chivalry. Hold doors open, pull out chairs, help you across the drain... Hell, feminism is in but being treated like a lady ain't no crime! Oh yeah. And waiting for a girl to finish her meal before darting off is also a good idea. Just a note. In case some people have no clue.
3. Sense of humour. He's gotta be able to laugh at himself... And ESPECIALLY take the sarcastic remarks that I'll be inclined to throw at him. Coz it's like a reflex with me, sarcasm is. Oh, but first he's actually got to UNDERSTAND that I'm being sarcastic. I've met more than my fair share of duh-brains in my short lifetime. It's NOT funny.
4. Gotta be smarter than me. I don't like explaining things too much. Translating, sure. NOT explaining. Especially when something's so blatantly "in your face" that a blind man could see it.
5. Takes the initiative. I am a staunch believer in the "THE GUY ALWAYS MAKES THE FIRST MOVE" mantra. Yeah yeah. I'm old fashioned. So sue me.
6. Can make me feel secure. Kind of like a protector. Where I know that he'll always stick up for me. That I can hide in his arms and feel like everything's gonna be all right... Bah. I'm a sentimental humbugish blagger. Whatever that is. But I mean it! Sentimental humbugishness and all!
7. How he treats the people around him. Mustn't put others down to make himself look cool. Always willing to the extra mile for a friend. Is the kind who doesn't let a relationship get in the way of friendship... Basically understands the importance of it. Coz no way in hell am I EVER giving up time with my friends or cousins just for one guy. So there! [Haha.. couldn't resist that :P]
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Aight! That's 7. I'll probably think of more as I go along... so I'd better stop. Just count your lucky stars that I haven't gone into the specifics! Hooo boy. Now THAT would be long winded.
Okay. Will go now. I need to start thinking more in terms of personal rather than Q&As. This blog is getting DULL, folks! I need to rejuvenate.
Ta babes.
[Hey, has anyone ever noticed how easy it is to talk like a bimbo??? Just a random thought.. that probably just made me look pretty damned foolish. Haha!]
My cousins were down over the weekend plus a few days. One from Australia, the other from Singapore. 24 and 17 respectively. Don't think I've had so much fun in a LOOONNNGG time. Although staying up til 2 and getting up at 5.45 completely screwed up my immune system (in other words, I'm a sick duck right now). Goshes. I miss 'em already!!! Darn.
I do have some updates, but they're for Insanely Sane eyes only, so girls. You know where to go! (Jono.. you know this stuff already, so yeah *grins*)
Okay, since I've been tagged by Jenna (and she conveniently took the "physical" out of the question), I'll answer this one. Since I apparently have nothing to say. At this present moment in time.
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Seven traits I look for in the opposite sex:
1. Knows his own mind. Will not expect me to lead him by the nose, tell him what to do all the time. That's bloody BORING! He's gotta be his own man, able to function without me around 24/7. Independence is key, folks!
2. Chivalry. Hold doors open, pull out chairs, help you across the drain... Hell, feminism is in but being treated like a lady ain't no crime! Oh yeah. And waiting for a girl to finish her meal before darting off is also a good idea. Just a note. In case some people have no clue.
3. Sense of humour. He's gotta be able to laugh at himself... And ESPECIALLY take the sarcastic remarks that I'll be inclined to throw at him. Coz it's like a reflex with me, sarcasm is. Oh, but first he's actually got to UNDERSTAND that I'm being sarcastic. I've met more than my fair share of duh-brains in my short lifetime. It's NOT funny.
4. Gotta be smarter than me. I don't like explaining things too much. Translating, sure. NOT explaining. Especially when something's so blatantly "in your face" that a blind man could see it.
5. Takes the initiative. I am a staunch believer in the "THE GUY ALWAYS MAKES THE FIRST MOVE" mantra. Yeah yeah. I'm old fashioned. So sue me.
6. Can make me feel secure. Kind of like a protector. Where I know that he'll always stick up for me. That I can hide in his arms and feel like everything's gonna be all right... Bah. I'm a sentimental humbugish blagger. Whatever that is. But I mean it! Sentimental humbugishness and all!
7. How he treats the people around him. Mustn't put others down to make himself look cool. Always willing to the extra mile for a friend. Is the kind who doesn't let a relationship get in the way of friendship... Basically understands the importance of it. Coz no way in hell am I EVER giving up time with my friends or cousins just for one guy. So there! [Haha.. couldn't resist that :P]
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Aight! That's 7. I'll probably think of more as I go along... so I'd better stop. Just count your lucky stars that I haven't gone into the specifics! Hooo boy. Now THAT would be long winded.
Okay. Will go now. I need to start thinking more in terms of personal rather than Q&As. This blog is getting DULL, folks! I need to rejuvenate.
Ta babes.
Some Random Picsies Of The People I Love Most..
1. Insanely Sane's Borders expedition. Ju Li's taking the shot, so she ain't in the pic. Dang it. Those gelatos were pretty good, though!
2. Insanely Sane at Ju's farewell gathering. That shot's in front of my house in PJ. I know it's a little blur, so from l - r: Ee May, Ju Li, ME, Davina and Xin Yi! [Missing: Jenna. Hmph.]
3. Me and my girly cuzzies! Ting, Sheryll, Su and me.. Missing are Yin and Vinder. One coz she was too busy barbecuing.. the other coz she's busy chasing random Swiss blokes :)
4. My baby brother and me. He's much bigger than me, but he still insists on sitting on my lap. Sheesh! It's a miracle I could walk after that! [I love the dude though, so... aih.]
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Seven - Ze Perfect Number!
I wanted to blog today, but I can't think straight coz there's cartoons and kids blaring in the background, so I thought I'd do this. Since Ee May tagged me and all.. Haha. And yeah, girl! What's with the Js and Ms???
Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. Travel 'round Europe
2. Have a huge family reunion, for both the Fernandezes and Lims.
3. Learn how to salsa :)
4. Find THE guy
5. Play in the rain with THE guy
6. Go on a cruise with the gang
7. Go for a two week long holiday (at least!) with Insanely Sane
Seven things I could do:
1. Sing Nursery Rhymes during Biology and earn incredulous looks from my tablemates.
2. Use my lab chair as a prop for "Row Row Row Your Boat"
3. Have three hours sleep for 5 nights running and wonder why I don't feel so hot.
4. Read the same page of Bio for one hour straight and not have a clue what it's about.
5. Watch Power Puff Girls and find it funny.
6. Watch 6 - 8 straight hours of TV every alternate day. Muahaha.
7. COOK! Maggi Mee, that is. Heehee.
Seven Celebrity Crushes:
1. GERARD BUTLER! (He's so hot!!!!! *swoons*)
2. Jonathan Togo (Ryan Wolfe on CSI Miami)
3. Jesse McCartney (Hey, me too, May! Best looking 18 year old, hey? :P)
4. Josh Lucas (Er.. May? I think we have a problem with the Js here... LOL!)
5. James Marsters (Spike on Buffy... strange, I know, but I find him sexy as hell!)
6. Josh Duhamel (Aiks. 5 Js and counting.. not good.)
7. Adam Garcia
Seven often repeated words:
1. I'm sleepy..
2. Huh?
3. What'd you say??
4. HUH?
5. Ya... right.
6. Yay!
7. Like,...
Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex:
1. Eyes
2. Smile
3. Bod ;)
4. Height
5. Lips
6. Smile
7. EYES!
Seven people to tag:
1. Ju Li
2. Jenna
3. Yee Feng
4. Yuen Li (I know you're a bit old for this, but heck. Gonna tag you anyway :P)
5. Jono
6. Steph
7. Sharm-o
And I am done! Hoo boy. Wasn't easy. Kids can be danged noisy when they have a mind to. Eeks! Toodles all! Gonna go find something to stuff in my ears. Phew!
Note: R.i.P Michael - 4th October 2003 (I can't believe I still miss him! I'm so weird....)
Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. Travel 'round Europe
2. Have a huge family reunion, for both the Fernandezes and Lims.
3. Learn how to salsa :)
4. Find THE guy
5. Play in the rain with THE guy
6. Go on a cruise with the gang
7. Go for a two week long holiday (at least!) with Insanely Sane
Seven things I could do:
1. Sing Nursery Rhymes during Biology and earn incredulous looks from my tablemates.
2. Use my lab chair as a prop for "Row Row Row Your Boat"
3. Have three hours sleep for 5 nights running and wonder why I don't feel so hot.
4. Read the same page of Bio for one hour straight and not have a clue what it's about.
5. Watch Power Puff Girls and find it funny.
6. Watch 6 - 8 straight hours of TV every alternate day. Muahaha.
7. COOK! Maggi Mee, that is. Heehee.
Seven Celebrity Crushes:
1. GERARD BUTLER! (He's so hot!!!!! *swoons*)
2. Jonathan Togo (Ryan Wolfe on CSI Miami)
3. Jesse McCartney (Hey, me too, May! Best looking 18 year old, hey? :P)
4. Josh Lucas (Er.. May? I think we have a problem with the Js here... LOL!)
5. James Marsters (Spike on Buffy... strange, I know, but I find him sexy as hell!)
6. Josh Duhamel (Aiks. 5 Js and counting.. not good.)
7. Adam Garcia
Seven often repeated words:
1. I'm sleepy..
2. Huh?
3. What'd you say??
4. HUH?
5. Ya... right.
6. Yay!
7. Like,...
Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex:
1. Eyes
2. Smile
3. Bod ;)
4. Height
5. Lips
6. Smile
7. EYES!
Seven people to tag:
1. Ju Li
2. Jenna
3. Yee Feng
4. Yuen Li (I know you're a bit old for this, but heck. Gonna tag you anyway :P)
5. Jono
6. Steph
7. Sharm-o
And I am done! Hoo boy. Wasn't easy. Kids can be danged noisy when they have a mind to. Eeks! Toodles all! Gonna go find something to stuff in my ears. Phew!
Note: R.i.P Michael - 4th October 2003 (I can't believe I still miss him! I'm so weird....)
Saturday, October 01, 2005
I'm BACK! (Or rather.. the computer is..:P)
Hi all... I know I've been missing for ages. Sorry la.. Blame the monitor and the bloody hard drive. It's all their fault, I tell ya! And y'know.. If I hadn't saved my Aussie and Insanely Sane pics online, they all would've been wiped out! Augh! THANK GOD!
Anyway, I can't write long today... Don't have much time to spare, so I can't exactly update y'all on anything. Not like there's much to update on anyway.
On the studies front - well.. let's just say I'm being the same ol' Elaine and screwing up my Maths all the bloody time. Weeha. Prasad'll be SO proud of me. "*hears loooooong lecture on how one mustn't be lazy and use one's brains, OKAY?*
The whole nutty guy situation? Still unresolved. But I've resolved not to care anymore. If he decides that he does indeed like me, all well and good. Otherwise, hey. I'm not exactly the most hard up person in the world. *launches into feministic tirade in head* Who needs men anyway? Eh?
Okay. Shall stop here. No time. Sigh. Such a long absences requires me to devote some time to clearing up my hopelessly backlogged inboxes. Yikes.
Anyway, I can't write long today... Don't have much time to spare, so I can't exactly update y'all on anything. Not like there's much to update on anyway.
On the studies front - well.. let's just say I'm being the same ol' Elaine and screwing up my Maths all the bloody time. Weeha. Prasad'll be SO proud of me. "*hears loooooong lecture on how one mustn't be lazy and use one's brains, OKAY?*
The whole nutty guy situation? Still unresolved. But I've resolved not to care anymore. If he decides that he does indeed like me, all well and good. Otherwise, hey. I'm not exactly the most hard up person in the world. *launches into feministic tirade in head* Who needs men anyway? Eh?
Okay. Shall stop here. No time. Sigh. Such a long absences requires me to devote some time to clearing up my hopelessly backlogged inboxes. Yikes.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Insanely INsane Am I!
Okay, this post is only coz I'm feeling guilty for neglecting this poor page. I don't really have anything to say at this point.. Nothing specific anyway. So I'll just type and see what my fingers produce. Rest assured, I am SO not thinking as I'm writing this. At least not consciously.
Or wait. Do I ever think in the first place? Coz I don't quite seem to, sometimes. I mean, I have a real knack of getting myself into the most awkward of positions! Mainly coz I absolutely refuse to use the tiny bit of grey matter that hasn't yet evaporated from the poor, under-used thing I call my "brain". [Yes Ju, unlike yours, I still have a LITTLE left intact *grins wickedly*]
Oh yes. We have just found out why they call the whole love-thingy (or is it lust?? :P), Chemistry. Things like attraction between different charges, and stuff, how one atom has an affinity towards another because of certain conditions, and is repulsed by others...
And this thing called polarising power and polarisibility. Which is, the ability of an atom to form bonds, and the ability to allow those bonds to be formed, respectively. At least, that's the general idea. Anyway, it's amazing how very like humans these atom thingamajigs are. An atom with high polarising power isn't necessarily able to form bonds, not unless the other atom's polarisibility is high enough for it to. And in regular relationships... Aren't we all like that?
How cool is chemistry, man! Haha! And you know something? I think my teachers have romance on the brain. Just the other day our Bio teacher was describing irreversible andreversible inhibitors (in enzyme activity) and she asks a what sort of bond the reversible inhibitor forms with the enzyme, and all of a sudden she goes, "Engagement bond!"
And we're all like, HUH?
Apparently, the bond isn't called an engagement bond. D'oh. She just meant that the reversible inhibitor's bond is like an engagement - it can be broken. But the irreversible inhibitor's bond cannot be broken, therefore it is like a marriage. Coz, y'know, enzymes don't have solicitors and stuff. No courts, so divorce isn't an option for them. Teehee.
And we also found out that 3/4 of the guys in my class are really old-fashioned blokes. Teacher asked them whether any of them wanted a wife who worked, and there was this resounding "NO!" that basically, made me and my friend burst out laughing - in shock. As in shocked laughter. Y'know? Man! Apa la ni... All fellas want housewifes ah? Habislah aku! I shall die a spinster in the throes of feminism.
Or I shall just avoid marrying any of my classmates. Muahahaha. Unless... all men think like that? OH NO! Damn.
I am doomed! Doomed I tell you!
And I shall stop now. Apparently, not thinking isn't a very good idea with me. Toodles all!
[I'd appreciate it if you didn't call up the Happy Hospital. Just this once. Please? THANK YOU!! *hugs and kisses everyone*]
Or wait. Do I ever think in the first place? Coz I don't quite seem to, sometimes. I mean, I have a real knack of getting myself into the most awkward of positions! Mainly coz I absolutely refuse to use the tiny bit of grey matter that hasn't yet evaporated from the poor, under-used thing I call my "brain". [Yes Ju, unlike yours, I still have a LITTLE left intact *grins wickedly*]
Oh yes. We have just found out why they call the whole love-thingy (or is it lust?? :P), Chemistry. Things like attraction between different charges, and stuff, how one atom has an affinity towards another because of certain conditions, and is repulsed by others...
And this thing called polarising power and polarisibility. Which is, the ability of an atom to form bonds, and the ability to allow those bonds to be formed, respectively. At least, that's the general idea. Anyway, it's amazing how very like humans these atom thingamajigs are. An atom with high polarising power isn't necessarily able to form bonds, not unless the other atom's polarisibility is high enough for it to. And in regular relationships... Aren't we all like that?
How cool is chemistry, man! Haha! And you know something? I think my teachers have romance on the brain. Just the other day our Bio teacher was describing irreversible andreversible inhibitors (in enzyme activity) and she asks a what sort of bond the reversible inhibitor forms with the enzyme, and all of a sudden she goes, "Engagement bond!"
And we're all like, HUH?
Apparently, the bond isn't called an engagement bond. D'oh. She just meant that the reversible inhibitor's bond is like an engagement - it can be broken. But the irreversible inhibitor's bond cannot be broken, therefore it is like a marriage. Coz, y'know, enzymes don't have solicitors and stuff. No courts, so divorce isn't an option for them. Teehee.
And we also found out that 3/4 of the guys in my class are really old-fashioned blokes. Teacher asked them whether any of them wanted a wife who worked, and there was this resounding "NO!" that basically, made me and my friend burst out laughing - in shock. As in shocked laughter. Y'know? Man! Apa la ni... All fellas want housewifes ah? Habislah aku! I shall die a spinster in the throes of feminism.
Or I shall just avoid marrying any of my classmates. Muahahaha. Unless... all men think like that? OH NO! Damn.
I am doomed! Doomed I tell you!
And I shall stop now. Apparently, not thinking isn't a very good idea with me. Toodles all!
[I'd appreciate it if you didn't call up the Happy Hospital. Just this once. Please? THANK YOU!! *hugs and kisses everyone*]
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Insanely Sane and the Citizens Park (correct ah? :P)
Lazy lazy me never thought walking could be so much fun. I've been deflecting exhortations from my poor parents to follow them to the Taman Rakyat in Andalas for ages...
But yesterday, when Ee May asked whether I wanted to go with her, I agreed. In like, 2 seconds flat [not including the time it took to call my dad and ask permission :P]. And seeing as the original plan was to go for breakfast with Jenna and Dav, we convinced those two poor souls to tag along.
So this morning, I got up at 6. Yep, on a Saturday. And saw a message from Jen sent at 2.53 a.m. - "Elaine!! Do you know where my house is or not???" [Yeeesss, Jen :P] And on calling Ee May at 6.50, I found she was still in the shower. Whee. Could've slept an extra half hour. Hmph. Hehe.
Which is what Ee May found Davina doing, when she reached HER house (where I picked them both up from). Our dear dear friend thought that we were JOKING about going for that walk... and promptly proceeded to sleep in! Gah. *knocks Davina's head* I TOLD you I was going to pull up outside your house anyway!
We picked Jen up after Dav took 10 minutes to "brush her teeth" and woohoo! You shoulda seen the - I quote - "pimpin'" gold and white shoes ol' Jen had on! And boy was she in a good mood. All smiley and giggly and ... haha. I don't blame her. I'd be on Cloud 9 too, if the same thing had happened to me.
Anyway, we reached TR without any mishaps (thank God!) and managed to find parking due to excellent, EXCELLENT timing. [Okay, so it was more like pure luck... lol]. My angle sucked, so Ee May - who wanted to try driving a "normal car" for once - re-parked it. Really well, I might add!
So we huffed and we puffed, all the way along the 200 metres or so it took to the foot of the "jungle" trail. Teehee. [What to do, all lazy pigs.. haven't had proper exercise in YEARS! :P] And with much protestation from poor, sleepy Davina, we took the stairs to the trail. Y'know, I had NO idea there were stairs there! Shows how long it's been since I've been there... Ok.
We weren't so much exercising our legs, as we were out mouths, though. And at certain inclines, we thought about ol' Ju and how LUCKY she is to have a group of hunks to help her out, while all we had was.. well.. us. Hmph. Heehee.
Oh and I discovered I can do monkey bars [Harhar I know... Shouldn't be a surprise right? *rolls eyes at Uncle Chris*] First time EVER I've managed to complete the one in Taman Rakyat. Woohooo! Maybe it's all those books I carry to school everyday. More than enough to build muscles, those. Haha.
After a little over half hour, we decided to call it a day. Better not to strain our poor delicate un-exercised selves. And then we proceeded to destroy all the good it'd done. Muahaha. Went to a mamak in Chi Liung and gorged (well, not quite.. :P) ourselves on one apam, one roti canai, nasi lemak and a roti telur. Only Jen abstained. Oh, for a TOUCH of her self-control! [Oi, budak.. did you eat those fruits like we told you to???]
Aaaahhh... Being with Insanely Sane is ALWAYS fun. For some reason we NEVER run out of things to talk about. Which is awesome, and the kind of friendship that's really hard to find. Woohoo! So... In the name of exercise, mamaks and the Insanely Sane spirit, we've decided to make this a weekly affair.
After I complete all those extra Saturdays of school that we're forced to attend. Pah.
Ooh gosh. Can't wait! Insanely Saners rock the house! Or the hill. Or um.. nevermind.
We just rock!
Heehee.
(Pretty obvious that I don't know how to end this eh? :P)
But yesterday, when Ee May asked whether I wanted to go with her, I agreed. In like, 2 seconds flat [not including the time it took to call my dad and ask permission :P]. And seeing as the original plan was to go for breakfast with Jenna and Dav, we convinced those two poor souls to tag along.
So this morning, I got up at 6. Yep, on a Saturday. And saw a message from Jen sent at 2.53 a.m. - "Elaine!! Do you know where my house is or not???" [Yeeesss, Jen :P] And on calling Ee May at 6.50, I found she was still in the shower. Whee. Could've slept an extra half hour. Hmph. Hehe.
Which is what Ee May found Davina doing, when she reached HER house (where I picked them both up from). Our dear dear friend thought that we were JOKING about going for that walk... and promptly proceeded to sleep in! Gah. *knocks Davina's head* I TOLD you I was going to pull up outside your house anyway!
We picked Jen up after Dav took 10 minutes to "brush her teeth" and woohoo! You shoulda seen the - I quote - "pimpin'" gold and white shoes ol' Jen had on! And boy was she in a good mood. All smiley and giggly and ... haha. I don't blame her. I'd be on Cloud 9 too, if the same thing had happened to me.
Anyway, we reached TR without any mishaps (thank God!) and managed to find parking due to excellent, EXCELLENT timing. [Okay, so it was more like pure luck... lol]. My angle sucked, so Ee May - who wanted to try driving a "normal car" for once - re-parked it. Really well, I might add!
So we huffed and we puffed, all the way along the 200 metres or so it took to the foot of the "jungle" trail. Teehee. [What to do, all lazy pigs.. haven't had proper exercise in YEARS! :P] And with much protestation from poor, sleepy Davina, we took the stairs to the trail. Y'know, I had NO idea there were stairs there! Shows how long it's been since I've been there... Ok.
We weren't so much exercising our legs, as we were out mouths, though. And at certain inclines, we thought about ol' Ju and how LUCKY she is to have a group of hunks to help her out, while all we had was.. well.. us. Hmph. Heehee.
Oh and I discovered I can do monkey bars [Harhar I know... Shouldn't be a surprise right? *rolls eyes at Uncle Chris*] First time EVER I've managed to complete the one in Taman Rakyat. Woohooo! Maybe it's all those books I carry to school everyday. More than enough to build muscles, those. Haha.
After a little over half hour, we decided to call it a day. Better not to strain our poor delicate un-exercised selves. And then we proceeded to destroy all the good it'd done. Muahaha. Went to a mamak in Chi Liung and gorged (well, not quite.. :P) ourselves on one apam, one roti canai, nasi lemak and a roti telur. Only Jen abstained. Oh, for a TOUCH of her self-control! [Oi, budak.. did you eat those fruits like we told you to???]
Aaaahhh... Being with Insanely Sane is ALWAYS fun. For some reason we NEVER run out of things to talk about. Which is awesome, and the kind of friendship that's really hard to find. Woohoo! So... In the name of exercise, mamaks and the Insanely Sane spirit, we've decided to make this a weekly affair.
After I complete all those extra Saturdays of school that we're forced to attend. Pah.
Ooh gosh. Can't wait! Insanely Saners rock the house! Or the hill. Or um.. nevermind.
We just rock!
Heehee.
(Pretty obvious that I don't know how to end this eh? :P)
Thursday, September 08, 2005
I can't
I cannot do this anymore.
But how do I stop?
I can't face him.
Sometimes I don't even want to.
But doing that just tears me up inside.
I hate having to ignore him.
But I feel like I have no choice.
I can't be friends with him.
Not with so much hanging between us.
It isn't my fault.
Isn't exactly his either.
Or maybe we're both to blame.
I should never have said anything.
And he should have told me the truth.
What is rejection but a temporary thing?
One can recover from rejection.
But what is the cure for uncertainty?
Nothing but the truth.
I know it's hard to speak your mind.
To tell someone that you don't care about them,
as much as they do about you.
But telling them would be the best thing for them
And you, too.
So, speak your mind, boy.
Don't be afraid of hurting me.
You've done that already.
One more time won't make much difference.
You may never love me.
And maybe I don't love you.
But for now I'd like to know what you're really thinking.
Just so I can end this feeling of hanging by a thread.
Just so I can look at you again.
I can get over you - but you have to help me.
Crush my hopes, just once.
That's all you have to do.
Then maybe - finally - I'll be free of you.
Is this what you wanted to read, Ju? :) Sorry. I'm depressed.
But how do I stop?
I can't face him.
Sometimes I don't even want to.
But doing that just tears me up inside.
I hate having to ignore him.
But I feel like I have no choice.
I can't be friends with him.
Not with so much hanging between us.
It isn't my fault.
Isn't exactly his either.
Or maybe we're both to blame.
I should never have said anything.
And he should have told me the truth.
What is rejection but a temporary thing?
One can recover from rejection.
But what is the cure for uncertainty?
Nothing but the truth.
I know it's hard to speak your mind.
To tell someone that you don't care about them,
as much as they do about you.
But telling them would be the best thing for them
And you, too.
So, speak your mind, boy.
Don't be afraid of hurting me.
You've done that already.
One more time won't make much difference.
You may never love me.
And maybe I don't love you.
But for now I'd like to know what you're really thinking.
Just so I can end this feeling of hanging by a thread.
Just so I can look at you again.
I can get over you - but you have to help me.
Crush my hopes, just once.
That's all you have to do.
Then maybe - finally - I'll be free of you.
Is this what you wanted to read, Ju? :) Sorry. I'm depressed.
Saturday, September 03, 2005
JUWWWEEEE!!!!!!
Ju Li's going. Tomorrow. In 12 hours time.
Sobs.
What'm I gonna do without her? For EIGHT MONTHS! Oh no oh no oh no. The thought just totally makes me wanna bawl my eyes out. For real.
Sigh.
I know I hardly see her anyway, but it was always a great comfort to know that I could just pick up the phone and call anytime. Or say, "hey, let's go for lunch" on a whim and she'd be there.
I don't think there's anyone else on EARTH who gets me like she does. Which may not be such a good thing for her, but heck. Lol. I just know that I can tell her anything. And most times, she's the only one I can turn to.
God, I feel so depressed right now. I just know I'm gonna flood KLIA tomorrow. Gosh. Never cried at airports before. Eeks.
See Ju? You've turned me into a sentimal wuss! Help!
Dammit, I miss her already!
Sobs.
What'm I gonna do without her? For EIGHT MONTHS! Oh no oh no oh no. The thought just totally makes me wanna bawl my eyes out. For real.
Sigh.
I know I hardly see her anyway, but it was always a great comfort to know that I could just pick up the phone and call anytime. Or say, "hey, let's go for lunch" on a whim and she'd be there.
I don't think there's anyone else on EARTH who gets me like she does. Which may not be such a good thing for her, but heck. Lol. I just know that I can tell her anything. And most times, she's the only one I can turn to.
God, I feel so depressed right now. I just know I'm gonna flood KLIA tomorrow. Gosh. Never cried at airports before. Eeks.
See Ju? You've turned me into a sentimal wuss! Help!
Dammit, I miss her already!
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Do or Die (So "drama", eh? Heehee.)
I had a weird dream last night. Let's just say it involved him and it weren't good. I still have this terrible sense of "you've made a fool of yourself, girl!" Blah. I suppose I have.
Which is why I've reached a decision. No matter how friggin' painful it's gonna be, I think I have to go through with it. Because, really. What am I getting out of trying to figure out where this is heading? Is it even heading anywhere? Y'see? I can't answer that. So what's the point?
There IS no point. Which is exactly why I am resolving to get my head back on straight and FORGET IT. Sigh.
This is short coz I gotta go. Just thought I'd let those of you who've been following my nonsense know.
PS: Selamat Hari Merdeka to all you Malaysians out there!
Which is why I've reached a decision. No matter how friggin' painful it's gonna be, I think I have to go through with it. Because, really. What am I getting out of trying to figure out where this is heading? Is it even heading anywhere? Y'see? I can't answer that. So what's the point?
There IS no point. Which is exactly why I am resolving to get my head back on straight and FORGET IT. Sigh.
This is short coz I gotta go. Just thought I'd let those of you who've been following my nonsense know.
PS: Selamat Hari Merdeka to all you Malaysians out there!
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