Monday Blues

I missed all my old friends so much today. I was so down, I had no idea what I was doing half the time. Making mistakes is part and parcel of life, but they're always easier when you have a shoulder to cry on.

I've probably never felt so alone before. There is so much I wanted to say today, but I had no one to say it to. At least, no one who would understand and take it for what it was. Then I remember how Ju was always there were I needed someone, how I could just talk to her about anything at anytime, cry (and have her make fun of me afterwards, but that's not the point :P) and generally make a fool out of myself over a totally undeserving guy, and she wouldn't mind. She'd just tell me that I'm an idiot and to snap out of it. After she let me cry, that is :)

Okay, so it's finally gotten through my thick skull that I'm wasting my time. I knew that before, but it never really sunk in. Why should I bother anyway? It makes no difference what I feel. If it's not reciprocated, hell. What's the big old point?

I just wish good ol' Reality had better timing. Taken together with the onset of the flu... Well let's just say I've had better days. A piece of good news though. Our NiE deadline has been extended so I don't have to split my head in two just yet.

Aiks. Okay. Have tuition now so I'll just stop. Hope tomorrow's a better day! (Doubt it could be any worse.)