The 21st Day

Okay, so I know I've been lousy at updating. 3 weeks, if my brain doesn't fail me. A personal record. Sigh. I haven't been writing coz I just don't know what to write! Or rather, HOW to write it. Do you know what that means? Do you? It means... I CAN'T WRITE ANYMORE!

*sobs* *heart breaks*

Ah melodrama. How I miss the days when I could do it properly. God, I used to be such a drama queen! I wonder where that part of me's gone...

ANYWAY.

Time to catch up on stuff... 3 whole weeks of it! *shakes head in wonder*

Random Things Elaine Thinks You Should Know Whether You Want To Or Not

1. Rat dissection isn't as gross as one would think it is. Aside from the fact after about 5 minutes they start to stink like soiled sanitary napkins. And we have to continue cutting them up for at least another 1/2 an hour. Or more. If you're fastidious enough to endure the stink.

I'm not exactly proving my case, am I? Lol.

2. I've written Jules TWICE, but haven't gotten 'round to posting them letters yet *sheepish grin* So Ju, if you're suddenly flooded with letters, you'll know what happened :P

3. Elaine has just discovered that she can cry - because of a song! And no, it isn't one about heartbreak, either. She cries to Michael Bolton's Butterfly Kisses.

[The reason Elaine has switched to the 3rd person is self-explanatory.]

4. Oh! Big news! I am currently crush free! Yep, folks. The all-time crush maniac has taken a much needed vacation. And for those of you who don't believe me - well, BELIEVE ME, dammit!
Lol.

5. As I'm sure you all know, point No. 4 is - under normal circumstances - a near impossibility. Therefore, said person has been diagnosed with a severe case of "romance-novelitis". What is THAT, you might ask. Well, it is a condition caused by the reading of too many, well, romance novels.

And the problem with that is... This. The guys in romance novels (as any girl will tell you) are virtually PERFECT. Smart, sensitive, funny, strong, understanding, romantic, gorgeous, TALL, and COMPLETELY masculine. Oh, and most of them can cook, too.

Of course, to find someone like that in real life is... also a near impossibility. No one said the patient wasn't delusional. It just means that the guys she knows don't cut it - for now.

[For the record, though, this diagnosis is merely temporary. I'm more than sure the symptoms will let up after awhile. After all, this IS Ms. Elaine Fernandez we're talking about!]
6. I miss MGS soooo much! I do I do I surely do! I miss prefect briefings every morning (even though we had to be in school before 7 a.m.), I miss grumbling about everything from our juniors, to boys, to teachers.., I miss laughing and talking and laughing some more with the Insanely Sane, I miss choir practice, and most of all, I miss the CLOSENESS. Ah, MGS. Truly, the MGS spirit never dies in true MGSians. No, sirree!

[Is it just me or does my writing style really change with each paragraph? :S]

7. I love American Idol this year. I want Elliott to win, of course, but I think the Top 6 are all fantastic in their own way, and as long as Kellie doesn't win, I'll be happy. Lol.

Okay. I'm gonna have coffee with me mum. Excuse me while I argue with her about who has to make the coffee this time. (It's HER turn, I swear it is!)

Bye people! Until next time... (Which won't be too long away... I hope :P)

I Back

Hey all! I'm back!

Well, for the time being anyway. I can't believe I haven't blogged for so long.. It's weird to start again. Sigh. That's the whole problem with not having regular access to a computer. When I DO get on, I rarely have the time - or the urge, for that matter - to write anything.

The couple of weeks when I DIDN'T write, I had so much that I wanted to write. Now, though, it's just all flown out of my head. Sigh. Sad, ain't it.

One of the few nice things that've happened over these past 2 weeks or so is the fact that I got to play netball again, if only for awhile. Gosh, I love that game! Maybe it's coz it's one of the few - FEW, mind - games that I'm relatively good at. Oh, and I've been asked to coach the school netball team. LOL! Beat that :P I was shocked, too. I know, I know. DON'T LAUGH!

Oh, ol' Sharm's gone for National Service, the poor bored soul. But goodness. I think I saw her almost everyday, the 2 months or so that she was around. Was like she never left :) Although.... my cash DID run out pretty quickly. Both of us, actually. Accumulated mamak trips can turn out to be darned hard on the slow-to-be-refilled pocket.

7 months to go til D Day. Seven. Tujuh. Sieben. Or however it's spelt. Gosh oh gosh. That ain't all that much time, come to think of it. Which is both a blessing and a curse, I guess. Although it'll ened soon, it also means less time to prepare. And boy, do I have my work cut out for me! And the miniscule number of people getting straight As are pretty discouraging too. I know getting A minuses or Bs are already pretty darn good for this standard, but to get a 4.0 is the only way anyone is even guaranteed consideration to courses of our choice in uni. Sigh.

Oh well. I hope I can write again soon, and about something more worth reading, too. Seems like I don't have much to say anymore. Sigh. Oh WHAT is happening to my writing?! *sniffles*

All righty then. G'night.

Updato!

I haven't written in AGES. Wow. I don't know what's happening to me. Writing skills going down the drain lately. I'm scared.

Anyhow, a recap of the odd things that've happened this past 2 weeks.

- Being broke in Sunway Pyramid. Literally. Sharm and I had only 60 cents between us by the end of the day. We had to buy dinner with a McD's coupon for crying out loud! God bless free refills!

- I now officially have mum's car with me in PJ. HAHA! Awesome, no? Although... I don't exactly have time to appreciate the actual awesomeness of it all...

- One week before exam. 3 days of maxed out pain. Get-out-of-bed-and-risk-spewing-bile grade pain. And on the days I'd scheduled to study Chemistry, too. Not surprising that my teacher just informed my friend and me that, "if either of you get over 50, you should belanja (re: treat) each other!" OUCH!

- I have just proven my theory that if you've got an amazing singing voice, but look like a Middle Eastern pixie, I'll fall in love with you anyway. LONG LIVE ELLIOT YAMIN! (Maybe being a dentist's daughter has a something to do with it.. those teeth! They're a goldmine! *cackles*)

- I have actually found my perfect guy. Physically, that is. And dammit. I cannot get my hands on him! That, folks, is the most frustrating thing - EVER. And no, he's no celeb.

- I'm losing my patience. I have quite a short temper to begin with. And it's getting shorter by the day. I'll blow myself up one of these days if I'm not careful.

- I have a screwed up bowling average. The mean of my scores is not in the least reliable. I shall have to make a chart and find the median. And possibly make a boxplot.

Oh gosh. You know I'm losing it if I voluntarily talk about Math. I shall stop here. Will update when I feel like it. Which may not be so soon at the rate I'm going these days. Sigh.

Whatever the case... I love you ALL! Much peace and love all around. Whee.

PnP

I just watched Pride and Prejudice. Oh. My. God.

Matthew Macfadyen Is SO HOT!!!!

*swoons*

Oh, and for those uninformed, he's the guy who played Mr. Darcy. But oh woe is me! He's married. Sigh.

Okay. I'm being ridiculous. But honestly.. DAMN! Vinder baby you were SO right. I love love love love love the guy!

So much for not being ridiculous. Muahahaha!

I know this is a sorry excuse of a post, but I'm not much in a writing mood right now so.... Will write when I actually feel like it!

MatthewMacfadyenMatthewMacfadyenMatthewMacfadyen....

V Day!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

To all of you who have Valentines - LUCKY YOU.

To the rest of you (me included.. lol) - just be happy that you don't have to fork out big bucks today! [Save that for my birthday! *insert innocent, angelic face* Hehehe.]

I love you guys!!!

The JETTY!

The (in)famous jetty! Doesn't it look awesome? And believe me, it's even better when you're there!

We took loads of *ahem* amazing pictures there (cam whores that we are).. But I have yet to receive them from Steph, so I'll only be able to put 'em up when I do.

Anyway, short one this time. Gotta go back to PJ.

No!

It burns us, precious, it burns!

Oh lord. I can't think, I can't feel.. Or maybe it's just that I'm feeling too much. It's insane. I don't want to feel this way. I want it to stop.

Why did I let myself fall into this trap? I knew it would lead nowhere - I KNEW. But I still went ahead and did it. Now I'm stuck in a quagmire of "could have been"s. It isn't pleasant. No sirree.

Do you know the feeling of wanting to cry but never being able to? Of having only one thing on your mind all the damn day long? And worse - of wanting something you know you can never ever have, not in this lifetime, unless some change of fate and circumstance allows it.

Dammit. Why did I allow myself to get into this? Knowing the consequences. I'd do anything - ANYTHING to get back that chance... or even to create a new one. But I can't. It's out of my power - no longer my decision. And the decision was made.

So it was not meant to be. I should just swallow it up and face up to it. It's difficult. It's damned difficult.

To see him, just to hear his voice one more time.. Damn. I really would do anything. But now, it's too late.

He's gone.

Super Bowl!

Hm.. Tis an odd thing. I'm feeling strangely better today. Or maybe coz the world isn't as inside out as I thought....

AH! Yes. On Friday night, we had another bowling competition - uncles and aunts versus the cousins. We played two games - the first for supper (winners choose, losers pay), and for the second, the losers payed for the game. And guess WHAT, baby?? WE WON BOTH! Hahahaha! In the Pyramid lanes too! Bloody international lanes, baby! Who da man, eh, who da MAN! Haha.

LOL.

Okay, that paragraph was just plain weird. Anyhow, since we won and all, we chose to go to T.G.I Friday's. Haha. Yep.... we chose one of the most expensive places open at that hour ('bout 11 something p.m.). Poor souls had to spend almost RM 400 on our dinner. Haha. We were meanies - we ordered SOOOO much...

Anyway, we just had a replay (i.e., Saturday night). Two more games, same concept. Except that this time, we won the first, lost the second. But that's also because we became complacent when we were in the lead... Sigh. Oh well. At least we didn't have to pay for supper! (Which was in Lotus, PJ New Town).

All in all, the last two days have served to be a welcome distraction. Otherwise, I think too much about him and what could be and I start screwing myself up. But, God help me, he's hot!

MU vs Fulham's going on, and MU is currently 2 goals up in the 20th minute. Wooohooo! I shall stop now to go watch the rest of it. Buhbye darlings!

Melancholy Day

I can't think right now. It's like the world's gone upside down, inside out, whatever. I don't think I'll ever have the courage to trust my instincts again. At least not where I'm concerned.

Oh it's not like anything BAD has happened. Quite the contrary. At least, it's happened for the better. I should be grateful, really. It could be much worse.

Now before I start scaring you guys, I'm all right. I just need to wake up a little. It's been a rough couple of days. But I guess I'll get over it soon enough.

It's a tough thing to swallow, reality is. Maybe this'll help me get my head out of the clouds a little. They certainly aren't doing me any good, these clouds. I should stop dreaming. Concentrate on what's real in the world, not what's all made up in my head.

I wish I could think of a way to make myself feel better. But as usual I can't. So I'll just go exchange my vouchers for some booksies, and hope that'll take my mind off things. Yeah.

God, I should stop doing this to myself.

Bowling Fiasco! (Coz We Lost... :P)

WooohOoooOoo! Today was a heck of a lot more fun than I thought it would be. Well, initially it wasn't. Then someone (til now I have no idea who) got the grand idea of a bowling tournament. Nieces and nephew (that's singular for a reason :P) versus uncles and aunts. Six on six.

O'course, us having just bowled on Sunday, thought that we'd be in for an easy win... But our star bowlers kept missing the target while the uncle we thought wouldn't be a threat beat our highest scorers by 19 points. BLAH. Talk about memalufying! :P

But it was good fun... Especially coz everyone was so into it. We were screaming, yelling, booing, high-fiving.. so much so that everyone around us - including those waiting for lanes - actually came to see what the hell was going on, we were that noisy :D

Although.. I don't know why I'm surprised. We seem to attract attention wherever we go.... singing Backstreet Boys and Barney songs at the top of our lungs in a seafood restaurant, greeting ol' Sharmo with banners and flowers and screaming like she was some big celebrity person at the airport... Loads more. Just can't remember them now, we've done stuff like this sooooo many times!

Oh! I like his voice... I don't know why. Now it's time to see if it suits his face :D

Saiful's song, Ku Juga Mencintaimu is pretty nice, considering it's SAIFUL. I'll put up the chorus of it and translate it.. Ta people!

Ku juga mencintai dirimu
Mengapa sukar ku luahkan
Bukan sengaja ku menahan
Bibir membeku lidah terkelu
Ku juga mencintai dirimu
Kau amat sempurna buatku
Bukan saja aku biarkan
Kan ku ucap jua padamu

I love you too
Why is it so hard for me to say
I'm not holding back on purpose
My lips are frozen, my tongue is tied
I love you too
You're so perfect to me
I'm not just letting go
"As I've told you before" (I don't know for sure what this last line means... anyone? Help?)

The Rules of Chocolate!

Hey people.. I'm in Malacca now, and damn! I've been eating and eating and eating... Damn. I'll really be a hippo by the time the week's through :P

Anyway, I got this from A Joke A Day, and I swear that anyone who's a chocoholic will agree with this, so.. enjoy! (And eat chocolates! :D)

-THE RULES OF CHOCOLATE-
1) If you've got melted chocolate all over your hands, you're eating it too slowly.
2) Chocolate covered raisins, cherries, orange slices and strawberries all count as fruit, so eat as many as you want.
3) The problem: How to get 2 pounds of chocolate home from the store in hot car.
The solution: Eat it in the parking lot.
4)Diet tip: Eat a chocolate bar before each meal. It'll take the edge off your appetite and you'll eat less.
5) A nice box of chocolates can provide your total daily intake of calories in one place. Isn't that handy?
6) If I eat equal amounts of dark chocolate and white chocolate, is that a balanced diet? Don't they actually counteract each other?
7) Q. Why is there no such organization as Chocoholics Anonymous?
A. Because no one wants to quit.
8) Money talks. Chocolate sings. Beautifully.
9) Chocolate has many preservatives. Preservatives make you look younger. Therefore, you need to eat more chocolate.
10) Put "eat chocolate" at the top of your list of things to do today. That way, at least you'll get one thing done.
11) If you can't eat all your chocolate, it will keep in the freezer. But if you can't eat all your chocolate, what's wrong with you?

Two Days To CNY... < 24 Hours To Vinder! :D

It's amazing - even now I'm still able to get so hyped up about Chinese New Year. Probably it's coz we always have something to look forward to - Malacca :D

Malacca is what makes CNY so special - not only for me, I think but for all the kids in our family. At least the ones who were born in 1987 and after. Mama's house (dunno why we never called it "Kong Kong's house" .. lol), the food, the walks to Aunty Doreen's house (taking the longest route possible, at times..), the food, 20 people sharing one bathroom, the food, and last but not least.... The Jetty!

I know. We're obsessed with the jetty, but we have a reason to be. It's one of the nicest places in the world! To me, at least... and it's soooo romantic at night *sighs*

And you know what's going to make it THAT much better? VINDER's coming home!!! In less than 24 hours! OMG. Haha.. Man I sound like she's some sort of celebrity.. lol. Sorry Vin! Can't help it.. :) We'll all be together again! *dances around the room*

Oh and for those of you who want to know... The Pancake Cookies turned out just fine the second time 'round. Yummy yum yum! (Really.... They were excellent for novice bakers... and we did it all by ourselves! So THERE! :P)

Anyway... Wishing all you guys a very happy and properous (esp. in "Maths tuition" a.k.a gambling.. :P) Chinese New Year!!!!

PS: Anyone wants to give me any ang pow, you're totally welcome to! ;D

Pancake Cookies.. YUM! :D

Wooh. American Idol's started again. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm serious! It's hilarious. But damn, the sixteen year olds we've seen so far are - WOW! They sound twice their age! *wide-eyed wonder*

Have you heard of pancake cookies? No? You should try em one day. They're Yin's and my invention. They're really good! Taste just like Famous Amos cookies. Except.. they're thinner. A LOT thinner.

In fact, they're flat. Skinny. I think the edge of one was only about 1 mm thick. *grins*

Wanna know the secret ingredient to making soft, skinny chocolate chip cookies? Oh whoops. I mean pancake cookies. (Sorry, my bad :P) I don't know if I should reveal it. Should I?

Okay. The secret to making cookies that spread out from individual, er, blobs, into "banjaran" lookalikes is... *drumroll*

CHEAP BUTTER!

Yep, that's right, folks. Butter that's more watery than margerine is the key to making really AWESOME pancake cookies. You can follow any old chocolate chip cookie recipes.. but make sure you use cheap butter for the BEST results! :D

Okay. I'm being stupid. But they were actually pretty nice? Right, Yin? Right? Right?

Haha. Whatever it is, we're giving it another shot this Saturday. Let's see if we can make NORMAL chocolate chip cookies this time 'round. Haha.

Wish us luck!

Wake Me Up!

I'm floating. Okay.. It MAY just be the cough mixture, but still.. Sigh. (Oh for the record, I absolutely DETEST cough mixtures. EUGH!!! *pukes*)

I feel like I've been knocked on the head with those big bat things you see in Tom and Jerry cartoons. The kind that make you have birds flying round and round your head and your tongue stick out. I've been in such a daze lately it's freaky.

What's happening to me? My heart just suddenly speeds up, and big, silly grins cross my face, making me look like a weirded out clown. Not that I don't normally already look like one, but still...

"Late at night I toss and I turn and I dream of what I need". Hah! Prophetic indeed.

Reading doesn't help. (Maybe because all the books I have left to read are romance-based ones :S) Jumping around to Footloose and other random songs doesn't seem to work either. It just makes me wonder what it'd be like to jump around with... company.

Oh. AND it actually makes it worse that Holding Out For A Hero is on my favourite compilation. Hm... Maybe I should take it off repeat.

Oh I know I know. I'm doing this to myself. Well. Sort of. I guess. I make about as much sense as a two year old trying to read Shakespeare huh. Oh well.

I just wish I didn't have such an active and God help me, vivid, imagination. It really screws up my life. Oh, it HAS helped me get damn good grades in English, but other than that... Sigh Sigh and Sigh again.

Tis sad. I need a life. A life other than .. you know. The "life" I want right now. Whatever that means.

If I'm being a confusing prick again, forgive me. I'm probably just as confused as you are.

Oh watch Hitz.TV's Blast Off 2 if you're a Malaysian with Astro. It's good for a few laughs :D

I miss my baby. :(

Briefly..

I have the flu. Yeah. Again. And apparently it's exactly the same type of "seal" flu I just had last year. In other words, my voice has gotten all deep and "sexy". Or to be completely honest - I sound like a guy. Proof? I call up my piano teacher to change my lesson, and she think's I'm David. BAH!

Anyway.. I was thinking about old times, being on the MGS Prefectorial Board.. And I started to wonder if I could remember any of the "briefings" we used to do. Apparently, I can at the very least recall the general duties :D

I THINK I can remember some of the canteen duties, so I'll try typing out the duty for Canteen Position 2 ;) [Ju.. correct me if you can still remember yeah? ;P]

General Duties:
Be punctual for duty.
Be alert of rubbish and offenders.
Make sure position is clean.
Duty starts.. (er, I think it's 5 mins before recess starts.. but I can't remember :P)

Duty:
Position 2 is at the kuih and drinks stalls.
Max lines for the kuih stall are 3, max items are 2.
Max lines for the drinks stall are 2, max items are 2.
Make sure the girls line up while buying food.
Make sure they don't push each other.
Make sure they don't jump queue.
Make sure those who aren't buying food do not crowd around the stalls.
When the whistle is blown, stop the girls from buying.
Hurry the girls from the canteen.
When the last girl leaves the canteen, patrol for rubbish and utensils.
Return any found utensils to the basins.
Duty ends when counsellour says so.

Hehehehehe. Man. I think that's the lot.... but I can't be sure. Damn. Nostalgia is nice, but it's still mighty depressing. Sigh. I miss MGS!!!! :(

Point Of No Return...

I'm addicted to the Phantom of the Opera again. The CDs are kept on repeat the whole day through and I don't get sick of it. Although... I'm wishing the non-special edition one wasn't lost. I can't put my favourite song on repeat and that sucks :( Oh well. I shall just put the lyrics of it up here. Just to er.. satisfy this weird obsession with the song. Aih. (Oh by the way.. the lyrics are a little .. hm. Nevermind :P)

Point Of No Return ~ Phantom Of The Opera OST

Phantom:
You have come here
In pursuit of your deepest urge
In pursuit of that wish which til now
Has been silent
Silent

I have brought you
That our passions may fuse and merge
In your mind you've already succumbed to me
Dropped all defenses
Completely succumbed to me
And now you are here with me
No second thoughts
You've decided
Decided..

Past the point of no return
No backward glances
Our games of make-believe are at an end

Past all thought of if or when
No use resisting
Abandon thought and let the dream descend

What raging fire shall flood the soul
What rich desire unlock its door
What sweet seduction lies before us

Past the point of no return
The final threshold
What warm unspoken secrets will we learn
Beyond the point of no return

Christine:
You have brought me
To that moment where words run dry
To that moment where speech disappears into silence
Silence

I have come here
Hardly knowing the reason why
In my mind I've already imagined
Our bodies entwining
Defenceless and silent
Now I am here with you
No second thoughts
I've decided
Decided..

Past the point of no return
No going back now
Our passion play has now at last begun

Past all thought of right or wrong
One final question
How long should we two wait before we're one

When will the blood begin to race
A sleeping bud burst into bloom
When will the flames at last
Consume us

Both:
Past the point of no return
The final threshold
The bridge is crossed so stand and watch it burn
We've passed the point of no return

Ooh Whhyyy??!!

I don't know what's happening to me. Why am I so afraid of what I don't yet know to be certain? Is it the thought of what COULD be that scares me? Or the fact that it could all turn out to be so wrong?

Or what if it's all just a dream? Admittedly, an amazing, wonderful dream.. but still just a dream. How can it be real, when all I have to go on is an image built up in my mind by my own imagination?

It might be accurate - or it might not. It might even be better than I ever thought it could be. Or it could turn out to be nothing more than a fantasy.

And that's scary. Because so much has been put into it.. It's constantly on my mind, refusing to let up. How do you let go of something that's become a part of you? And if it goes naturally, will it leave a deeper emptiness than before?

Hell. Mountains out of molehills, I know. But I just had to write this. It's killing my mind, thinking about it. Sometimes I curse the vividness of my imagination. It makes me wish for so much more... Okay. So I don't exactly help matters by encouraging it...

Oh well. I guess I should quit being such a loon. Whatever happens, happens. It's not like anything but a potentially explosive.. er.. something-or-other, is at stake here.

Hold on while I screw my head back on straight.

There. That's better. But wait. Damn! This odd apprehension is still there.. Sigh. Oh what am I going to doooo?

I guess only time will tell. I should really stop agonizing over this. I should. Hm. Easier said than done.

Oh bloody hell.

My Luvlies...

More random pics... Of me and the peeps I luv (Cue: *Awwww...*) Haha. This is over Christmas and Jan 2006..

I Ting, me, David and I Yin.. Missing are Steph, Sharm and Sheryll. The three "S"-es. LOL. That doesn't mean like it sounds, btw ;)


Me, Ee May and Adrien! My gorgeous buddies! I love you guys!

Ting, me and Yin... Don't we look like, er, angels? :D


Ting, with me and Steph.. We don't look all that much like twins, do we? *squints at photo* I still can't see it. Lol.

Ting, me, Steph and Sheryll.. Ratio of 15 to 19 year olds = 2:2 :)


Two "twin" REAL sisters (Yin and Ting) and two "twin" er.. cousins. Lol. Hey, this twin thing isn't my fault. It's all other peeps' observations.. Sigh. [Check out the eyebags.. I'm not getting enough sleep! :(]


All the gorgeous teenage girls in the Lim family.. :) Only Sharm's missing. Sobs. Oh well... 3 weeks til D Day. Yay!

Okay.. that's all for now! Bye bye!

So Early In The Morning...

I can't think straight. To write is to put thoughts into words but lately it hasn't been working. I stare at the screen and the words just won't come.

There's so much I want to say, so much to express. But my head just can't find the words. I fall back on whimsical nothingness and long-windedness just to fill in the blanks a little, the empty spaces.

How do I get past this block, this thing that's making me write like a brainless nitwit who didn't even HAVE a brain once upon a time. (I DID have one, Ju. It just dried up.. lol). How do I get back the easy way I used to just tap tap tap away at the keys, and POOF! It became er... nevermind.

I just ate a TimTam with milk. Ahh.. bliss! Aussie chocolate is yummie! And I have no idea what this has to do with this post. Actually I don't even know what this post has to do with this post.

Sigh. Here I go again. Blogging nonsense. THAT, folks, is my forte. Sadly. I wish I were more articulate. Or more concise. David says I'm too long-winded. And I suppose he's right. Much as I hate to admit it.

Although, being concise isn't exactly the best thing to try at 3.20 a.m. It taxes the poor long-winded-ish brain. Which needs sleep. But can't. Coz it's been stimulated by outside factors. Which need not be discussed in this report.

Oh well. Seeing as I can't even write one comprehensive paragraph, I shall quit now. While I'm as ahead as ahead can be. Whatever that means.

Goodnight. Morning.

Black! My Hair's BLACK! *ROFL*

Wow. For the first time since.. er.. last year, I've been taking AGES to blog. Haha. Aiyo... dunno what to write la! My life's a boring mesh of school+homework+tuition+piano class. The only thing remotely different is the bloody bug project I have going on. Finding names of incredibly similar bugs is a right bloody chore, I tell ya!

It's been raining a lot lately. And the weather's cooled down loads. Aaahh.. I wish it was like this all year 'round. Okay... maybe not with the rain all the time. But the temperature. Not too hot and not so cold all you want to do is hide under the covers and never get up.

Only problem with rain is - it makes it doggoned hard to wake up in the mornings. Especially at 5.45 a.m, knowing that the next thing you have to do is go to school. [BTW, they say Form 6 = tertiary education (its a diploma level cert), but damned if I don't feel like I'm still in "high school" *shakes head*).

I wonder what 2006 is going to be like. 2005 was like a dream that never happened. I'm hoping for more concrete memories this year. I want to have something where I can look back on and everything is still fresh in my head like it just happened yesterday. Like the memories I have of my childhood years, and MGS life...

Oh YA! You know.. I got caught by the discipline teachers in school for having dyed hair!!! HAHA! You know what's so weird about all this? It's that my has been dyed since last year.. and they're only catching me 3 days into the school year, this year. How absolutely SAD is that, I ask you? And it's really funny - I don't break school rules, as a rule (no pun intended). But when I did finally break one - I broke a BIG one. LOL! I don't know what's wrong with me.

Anyway, so what they initially wanted to do (looking all stern and disapproving) was call up our parents and get the to come pick us up, re-colour our hair black, then send us back to school. Haha! I wish they'd done that. Then I would've had an excuse to skip school again. LOL. Damn.

But you know what? The black my hair is now is MUCH blacker than my actual hair colour. So the irony is that I'm actually still "colouring" my hair! Except that it's now black. Sigh. Apa la...

Oh peeps! Sharm put up this article written by an American about Malaysia, and I liked it a lot, so I'm going to link it HERE. Read it... really gives the whole "Malaysia Boleh" spirit a boost :D Waaay to changing people's perception on us. Wooooooohoooooo!

Anyway, that's it for now. I'm not in the best of crapping moods today, unfortunately. Sigh. I haven't been in awhile. Dumdeedum...

All right. I'll go now. Booooyah!